seeking freedom

master, i have been away in the world

and found it wanting of peace 

what am i to do now as i cannot be content with 

the waves of mind and desires that are so all consuming in their way

i desire to shed this covering of the false 

and enter into liberation

how am i to do it? 

i am not anything special in my way, nor have i great strength 

nor do i possess perfect qualities...
i am not a renunciate...

what am i to do? --

can i know God even though so very basic in my ways i am?

the master said, sir yes you can know God in your heart 

if you are truly desiring to be set free
and devote your energies towards the good

which means towards honest living and pure intention

this flame will be lit and will grow to consume the separation in time..

if you are devoted inside to purity and truth -- and these are watered 

as one waters seeds in a garden...

this will grow in the being and eventually bear fruit...

do not trouble yourself with when or how or who...

simply stay in the heart, focused on the present without going about 

putting barriers up for yourself ...

if energy is placed towards this end of liberation, 

there will be a time when the right conditions will manifest
*if one remains surrendered and sincere*
and critical mass will be reached 

and the whole structure of mind will topple...

whether now or in the next life -- it matters not ...

the timing is up to grace ...

what matters is that energy and focus is placed in the right direction now..

this is all one is to do --

the seeker said, my master i feel so unequipped to be a student at times 

my heart is torn in many directions --

though i seek to be free, i am divided in my way and caught up in the world 

and it's pursuits 

please tell me how to let go of this, so my mind is focused entirely on God 

the master said, you are not divided truly, this is mere imagination...

like a mirage ... 

if you can let go of this thought that you are this way or that way...

then there is an opportunity to go deep within and see what else lies 

under these identifications...

but if you get lost in the thoughts, then this will not aide your journey...

you can be focused one-pointed -- in one direction ....

this will take time, keep making efforts...

the seeker said, you make it sound possible, like it is a choice that can be made...

the master said, it is a choice in one way -- and choiceless in another when one is  

surrendered within... 

but there is no need to worry about anything else, but being present and keeping focused 

on the experience that is now...

soon enough mind will become more centered and then one continues to look at mind ...

and confront it directly with self-inquiry...

it will be seen that ego is no-thing -- it is not to remain, but will dissolve when 

it's identity is sought out...

like seeing a mirage of a tree with roots and getting up close to it

to examine it directly and it dissappears...

what reality does it have truly, if it dies away upon clear seeing?..

the seeker said, master thank you very much for your wisdom

i am to go now and be off to my life, yet i will take with me what you said

and make efforts to keep the mind focused and not put on my self troubles and 

questions that lead to no good end... 

i will do this with my heart and if i forget, will go back at it again

for there is nothing more to be done, but to let go it seems...

the master said, yes, let go and do not bring back what has been discarded...

do not try to understand experience, simply live it -- not analyze and all of that ...

thank you master for this blessing said the seeker and he bowed deeply

and touched his master's feet 

and his mind quieted and he breathed easier in this moment .,..

and then he got up and went his way in the world...