Saturday, December 28, 2013


allah, seated in the heart
as non-dual perfection
living in sinless beauty that shines 
as all
forsaken of the world 
and without impurities 
within timelessness and joy

allah, measured only by 
love and light 
perfect in silence 
perfect in calm presence 
and shed of coverings 

allah, pure spirit
present in equal quantities unto all
not of this world and not 
of a speck of darkness
as a light unto itself 

allah, messenger of joy
thou comes to the world and 
speaks in silent beauty
to what is real 
and what lies beyond the desiring mind 
as a light full and glorious 
thou comes to the world 
holding up the ones that are sincere 
and holding up the ones that are 
not sincere 
and holding all up as one heart 
holding those that walk in light 
and those that walk in shadow 
holding all up as one heart 
holding those that are as saints 
and those that are as sinners 
holding all up as one heart 
holding the rising of creation and 
holding the decay and death
holding all up as one heart 
holding the majestic moon that 
and the sun too and the still waters 
and moving tides 
and the creatures that crawl and fly 
and swim and play
and the seasons that change and bring 
such beautiful wonders in their wake
such as the opening of buds and flowering 
of color and life 
and deep mysterious darkness and changing 
shadows and light 
that abound for all to enjoy
holding all up as one heart 

allah, messiah to the soul that sleeps 
and lifter of shadow 
glory is your name 
glory is your beautiful presence 
that lives in all hearts 

breathe this spirit that lives my seekers 
and feel it's perfect breath in 
your breath and feel it's perfect 
heart in your heart 
as one you will be then 
not as two 
for this is not real like a ray extends 
from the source (the sun) 
so your being is not separate 
and manifests from the source 
and is one unto it always 
may this blessing abound in your soul
and may you drink heartily from it's wealth
as a popper that comes to undress his 
rags and throw them in the river 
to find then that he is always as a lord 
of himself 
and not at all wanting or desiring to be 
something better 
how it is found then that all is one heart 
nothing missing ever 
not for an instant 
what a blessing 
freedom incarnate 

om shanti

Friday, December 27, 2013

perfect core

a man came this morning
he was free
he came and sat by the water 
he came and sat still 
where has he come from? 
the non-dual perfection
where has he returned? 
to the beautiful one 
where has he always been?
here ...

whence have you come oh 
whence have you come?
have you not come from the 
same perfection?
I is not your true name 
and you have not ever entered 
the world 
except in your dreams 
you have not entered where the 
pefect core has been soiled 
you have always been still
yet you follow the road of desire?
where has this lead you?
why have you not simply remained 
stillness is what is here 
and it is in you 
and it sings of life always 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

a true monk

a monastery is not a place
that is like one thinks
it has within it all kinds of levels of
practice and monkhood
that many times is not focused on
non-dual reality
but more like a practice that solidifies
ego sense of *i am this or that*
when a monk is in this type of mental
way, he is more like a tool or instrument
for God
this is fine for what it is --
it is certainly better than being driven
by negative desires and running around
without any beneficial focused center
a monk, though is not meant to be like
one that is caught up in doership
he is to be focused on work in
the flow of life as one
he is to be focused on work as it is,
not separate from his being
he may wear ochre robes or buddhist cloth
or white or black or what have you
but he is not those outer things
not now, not ever
he is a perfect heart that is to be in love
with the SELF which is non-dual
when he first comes to the path
he has a past that is haunting him like
dream substance that speaks of his experiences
that have now gone
he is to see that these experiences are not
happening now
they are gone and over
dead, buried and not to return
only he revives them in his mind
they are not real in terms of
being of substance and constant being
so he looks not to the past in the way
of attempting to understand it
but simply pays no attention to the images
and thoughts that rise and fall
his home is in the *now*
it is not the monastery or his past where his
family lives or anywhere else
it is in the *now*...

a monk is not a monk if he is caught up in
his identity with outer appearance and action
he has then simply changed identifications with the world
to something that he feels is more holy
this is not at all correct
no man is holy if he *thinks* he is holy
and no man is free if he *thinks* he is free
he has simply attempted to convince himself of
and this is so very false and can be more
harmful than thinking one is simply a persona that
is acting in the world
now, instead one is a persona that is *up high*
this is not at all in line with God and surrender
there is no *up high* or *down low* in truth
truth is and remains always *one*
it is not given more to one and less to another
it is not given out according to actions and appearance
as these things are not real
(in the way of being lasting and eternal)
it is within all hearts equally and does not change
to accomodate ego, not ever ...

a monk is a true monk when he is surrendered
and *living* the scriptures which means
one is *living* the path as it is laid out by Guru
and all that have come to liberation
which means the ego is to *die away* into the fires
of purification
the death that brings *eternal life*
there is no getting out of this or going half way
which is what ego would love and hopes will take
it is a true death that burns completely the persona
and all feeling and thought of separative existence
though this is not at all appealing to ego
it is the best thing possible that could happen to a soul
as this one is then out of the realm of
mistaken knowledge which brings in it's wake

the monk that is *true* is many times not
even noticed
he does not stand out
he does not gush his devotion about this or that
he does not try to gain affections are try to talk wise words
he does not try to be anything at all to anyone
he is simply quiet within and flows along with grace
and the heart that is of all hearts
he is like a sun unto himself
and he shines of his own light in his own being
that is slowly melting away in the light of God

a monk is not a thing to be taken and placed in a box
and when his time of being a monk is done
and the path is complete
what is he then?
simply himself
he is no longer bound by this or that or here or there
or needing of tools any longer
no more of this
he is what he has always been
the SELF

Monday, December 16, 2013


have you gone to the sea tonite?
if you do
you will see me there
dancing in the water
by the bright wild flowers
as the shadows play about
and the sun sets behind the
sturdy mountain range
i will be the blooming bud
on the lovely tree that spreads
its branches far and wide
i will be the feel of sand under your feet
and the fresh breeze on your skin
i will be found in the stars too
for they sing of life
i will be found in the moon
and changing tides
and all that is sung and unsung
for i have no more home to go to
i have no more place to call my own
i am as the air and the play of life
that goes on
i am not in the mind
i am in this moment
spark of life that is as one
and you are here too
oh my precious seeker
you are this life too
and i know this about you
can you find it?
and then we are as one heart
and this will be known
and this will make the stranger
called pure life be yoked to your soul
it is the same as God
it is the same as perfection

have you danced in the moonlight tonite?
i have
and it is in me now
as i sit by the river silent
it is in me like all things
the sky and the birds and the
i have sat for many an hour
by this lovely river and felt
it fine in my heart
as the most beautiful thing
and i have felt the morning sun
on my face
and felt it fine in my soul too
for it is like the first day of birth
that is a mystery to all
as it is not understood ever
but as the light dances about
the leaves
and the grass sways in the
it is felt fine
and this is all that can be said
that life is a beautiful thing
when mind is quiet
it plays it's notes
and there is no one there
and there is no more fear
and nothing to be done
but be
how beautiful is this?
my friend
there is nothing better
come be of it
and live

Christmas Spirit...


this is a writing from last year..
may all be well this holiday season

om shanti

The birth of Christ is the coming of truth
that shines like a beacon
on a dark night 
it is a precious offering to behold
as the showing up of a most glorious 
being in the nature of truth and beauty
that has come to speak of the way back 
to the heart of peace
what Christ spoke of was not to go into 
thoughts about life and philosophies
but to be in the moment 
wiped clean of all imaginings that carry
one elsewhere
his message is one of perfect love
and does not give way to that which 
brings sorrow...
what a joyous occasion that this being
opened the way for those hearts that are
willing and desirous of *seeing* what is true
what a joyous time to be a participant of such grace
and to have the path carved out so well
so as to walk it clear of obstacles 
it is said that Christ was the master of 
beauty --
a beauty that is within and absolutely well -
a beauty that is *living* and never dies
a beauty that no shadow can ever touch
this is what is written in his words that 
spoke so richly of all being
set *right*
when one surrenders fully to grace
and lets go of unproductive ways...

his being is like a king that came 
that was not at all driven or touched
by desires or externals..
he was like a beautiful bird that lights
on the branches for all that came near
he was not lacking in a clear, strong voice
that spoke of misdeeds and misunderstandings
that were not good or well --
this is the compassion and love that is within
a o ne that has stilled the thoughts
and has nothing driving...
only what remains is love and light
and is what is to bring those to 
the heart where there is no more 
suffering --
and no more walking away from the 
which is eternal

May all rejoice this Christmas
and be within the heart
in love and gratitude
for what is here 
and for the light 
that shows the way...

Let freedom ring...
Maha Shanti Om


she is simple and she tends
to the world
with her hand of compassion
and she will wake up the soul in slumber
if he is willing
she will wake him up with a shout
of get up and do not sleep away your life
like a man of ignorance
but be still and do not go back to your
bed of dreams
not tonite
not ever
for you live here always

she is this single hand that
is to give you the way of truth
not anything else
not your thoughts or your parents
or your children
or your efforts
but the grace that lives and breathes of God
oh how she comes to your heart
and brings this message
be as a saint and be as a sage
and be as a single heart
do not feel your world is what is real
but take it to it's end
and see what remains
oh child
how you are what love is
and you do not know it
but you will if you right yourself
with grace
and free your spell of maya
do not let your thoughts be what is the guide
for this will turn you to ash with it's spells
and trickery
oh dear child do not go where mind dwells
be free and be your true self
sing of light
and be focused on God
and be focused on this time now
how it will eventually still your mind
and be the fuel to burn your pain away
and burn away your suffering
then you are not of the world
you are as a light of itself
and this is the end
that is the beginning of life
how it is life as it is
and as it has always been
never ending

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

the refuge within

when we stayed in dharmsala
(during our visit to india)
the monks there seemed to be very
caught up in themselves
they did not look up when walking by
or cast a glance at the lepers in the streets
or cast a glance of hello or anything like this
some were in the courtyard debating
and attempting to one up the other
with intellectual challenges
some were simply not open to the flow
of things as they were
monkhood is not meant to be a place
to lock oneself away into
and escape from the world
nor is it to be used to prop oneself up
and feel different and special
the monastery is meant to be a sacred place
to go and find refuge within (the heart)
and go to the holy waters of God
which is one
so many use it as an escape from life and
but when one does this,
then the world still lives behind a locked door
and will crowd in once again when the
soul is challenged ..
this does not mean monasteries are not
challenging, they are in the way of
very disciplined schedules and such
worldly preoccupation is to be left behind,
but one is not to be closed off to the flow of life
one is to be present in all conditions
no matter how hard or easy
it makes no difference...
and it is when the mind is still
within all circumstances
that one is then ripe for liberation

this is the writing of the moment
be open
and live as if this is the monastery
for your journey
this moment

Monday, December 9, 2013

natural state

when there is attachment to the world, body and mind
there is suffering and limitations 
when the mind is cleared of these obstructions 
then only, is there freedom

Saturday, December 7, 2013

dwell in the heart

a single thought I
is what brings in it's wake maya
who is the goddess of deception
she plays in this field of egoic graspings 
she comes in and fills the mind with untruth
how she is not to be taken seriously or 
held dearly 
for she will capture the spirit and put it to sleep
with her voice that speaks of the world 
and desires and all of that 
no, friends 
dwell in the heart of all
where God is the king and the mind 
is shed of this force of darkness
bring this egoic playing out to it's end 
bring it to it's destruction in the sea of knowledge 
then what remains is not of this world 
it is of purity and love and heart 
i cannot say it another way
but cast out this force straight away
for there is not a being on this earth that walks 
free if he is bound by ego
drink this nectar as if it is the very last drop
of pure love 
come and seat yourself in the heart 
be sturdy and quiet 
be in the natural state 
which is non-dual perfection 

peace lives

a single thought covers the one
how quickly the tree of ignorance is born
from this
a single thought called I --
and when this thought fades and is
no longer present to put the shade down
over the eternal
then how love is so very ripe
how it is so perfect
and how peace lives

know yourself

know yourself
and all will be well
and all will be serene
not just a little bit or a passing
but always and forever
know yourself

Monday, December 2, 2013

which road will he take?


this writing seemed to be about Nityananda (the avadhuta)
the writing flows spontaneous and cannot verify if all in it
is fact, so have used the word *sage* instead..
may you enjoy this flow of writing
on this beautiful winter day..
om shanti

when he came
the climate of india was not fully
in the grips of kali yuga
the climate was more like an open vessel
where the heart came to pour into
and fill the cup of emptiness
to brim full with shanti

he was a being of powerful
presence (this sage)
he walked into the lands as an offering
to humanity
he walked into the lands as an offering
of sacred beauty to the ones that were
available to his presence
he walked into the lands purified of mind
he was very generous to the poor and worked
to insure souls that ached of hunger were fed
in body and most importantly in spirit
when he was in the towns with the people
he would say, "i am here as *all*, not as body"
"i am here as a living well of compassion"
"i am here as a timeless being"
"i am here as a Christ consciousness"

one day a man came up to him that had wandered
in the forest and was thirsty and homeless
he asked this sage to take his hands and bless him
the sage took his hands and spoke these words
"son, your life is beyond measure and beyond what is
temporal. when you come to this life, you are in goodness and
freedom, but you wander in the forest where the mind lives...
when you wander, you forget the life force ... you forget the
uncreated beauty of life and go where the waters speak of
beauty in thought only... thought is just the surface of beauty
it is not the perfect source that is ...  "

"son, the life that you are given is transient in nature and not yours truly
it comes from the source (mother) and is given as a gift to make you
*see* the world as it is which is a reflection only..
it is given to impress upon your heart that spirit is the one reality
and not the concrete world of names and forms and faces ..
it is given as a gift to call you back home to where shiva is the
reliable, steady presence that is securely seated as
pure consciousness in all hearts

"son, the life you are given has come from the fruits of your actions
which are good and bad and neutral.. when the fruits of your actions
continue to bloom, the body comes and comes again
as a direct outcome of action in the world
seeds of karma *action*,  flower and flower like a garden that erupts
from understanding that comes from mind..
karma blooms like a garden...
so this fruit of karma is eaten and taken to be true --
(but it is only created by mind)
when the mind ceases to play in this realm of *doership*,
there can be no more karma like this that blooms of *action*
grace comes forward to flush this attachment to action away...
this is a most mysterious taking place, but it is the best thing for the soul
as he is then removed from his burden of *doership* and is seated in the heart
and only spontaneous flow remains...
then no further seeds of karma *action* are sown..
and the garden of blooming karma is shorn clean and then the mind is purified
this is what true knowledge is  --- (no-mind)..."

"son, do not put away this seeking of blessing you are desiring, but turn
into yourself and begin in earnest to live awake to life without attachments
i am here as a soul to say, you are perfect and whole
you are complete --- just let go of the wrong understanding that you are
not complete ... this is your undoing ...
but do not go about attempting to convince yourself that you are perfect
just let go of all the baggage and be true in this moment
quiet and joyful"

"son, your sons and daughters are not yours, they are as God made them and they
have their own journey to go through --
do not cling to them, or they will hurt your heart deeply and give you sadness
when they are here to only *be* and are a manifestation of God
they are to be loved, but not attached to
loved and brought up in truth and joy and then let go and allowed to live their own life
do not suffer because of them, but love them well and be not afraid to allow them to roam
and find their own way..."

"son, have you taken the robes of a sannyas? if you have not -- do not worry or have any
sorrow about this as this is only outer trappings -- simply come to the heart and what is needed will
come to you of it's own time... make efforts, but do not cling to the results ..."

"oh son, if you knew how much you are complete and perfect .. you would leave this world
immediately and be still...
oh son, if you knew how perfect and beautiful you are, you would leave this world
like a bird flies to the heavens in joy
oh, son fly now and be still
and do not return to the world that speaks of separate ways..."

and then the sage left and went his way to the roads where he was going ..
he left ...
and the man left too...
where would he go?
to his heart or out into the world?
none know for sure...
it is his life to make and what roads he
takes is up to him...

Friday, November 29, 2013

how sweet is thy fruit

how sweet is the fruit on the vine of knowledge
it tastes of created and uncreated in one
it tastes of stillness and presence
it tastes of life as it truly is
how it tastes of sweet joy
and love everlasting
put your lips to it dear seeker
taste it's fine flavor
it will not leave a residue of suffering
it will bring to your heart true life
which is undying

how you have not understood this treasure
of yours that is there to be tasted
but have turned it away again and again
how you have not felt it's sweet ripe beauty
in your veins and on your breath
if you take it in with quietude
then it sits and lives as truth
and will open up the one to the mind
how it sits ready to be savored
and is not to be as an object to be owned
it is your very soul dear
how can you take that which you already have?
just let the mind sink into it
and do not come back to taste of the world
but sink in
sink in

Thursday, November 28, 2013

who is your teacher?


this is an older poem..
a good day to be grateful and breathe in the blessings that abound..
may all be well and have a great thanksgiving day..

shanti om

who is your teacher?
and from where does your teacher come?
who is your master?
has he a home in your heart?
does he call you out of yourself to sit in the sun
and be a light unto yourself?
does he wait for you when you have
gone back to the shade to play and be alone in
your private world?
does he continue to be a light for you
even when you have gone away in your mind?
does he make your world lighter and more filled with heart?
does he live the truth and breathe fresh air into your lungs
and breathe fire in your heart?
does he say come, be free and out of this suffering way?
does he show the way out of your locked cell of thought?
does he say, live life! and be a great soul that is to be out of
the world!
does he speak clear words that come from a stilled mind?
does he betray you ever?
does he sting you when you are in pain to say "wake up"
shake off this dull way and come and be yourself for once!
be out of this mind shell! --
come and breathe truth and life and joy and sing of freedom
come and be pure and abiding in grace..
does he raise your spirit out of the dust?
does he give graceful energy to make your day more in harmony
with light and more deepened in the earth of the soul?
does he say, walk upright soul -- be sturdy and in yourself
do not betray your true nature ...
be of open heart within and not hemmed in by thought and judgement..
be still -- be patient -- be as a fearless one ...
does he love you unconditional as a child of the spirit
and a soul that will fly to the mountain where shiva dwells
with his crescent moon on his head
and his spacious being that has nothing in mind ever
untouched by form or pride or confusion?
does he say to not sorrow, but live here now
as this time will not be ever again...
so live it fully as a one that is to make this life a perfect joy
and not come back again to suffer and relearn lessons?
does he tremble at challenge, your teacher?
does he bemoan circumstances, your teacher?
does he shut himself out from life, your teacher?
who is your teacher my heart friend?
is it your world that you play in?
is it your dream that you dance in?
is it your family?
is it your friends?
is it the ache inside?
what is to make you hear and feel what is real and well
in your being?
what is to bring you to the waters of heart and purity and wonder?
who and what?
the world?
or grace?
who is your teacher friend?

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

always as brahman

when the sadhu comes into the path of knowledge 
he burns to know the lord that is his very own heart 
he burns to know the Christ consciousness that is forever full
and free 
he burns as a light unto himself that is to be his own counsel
which means he does not look to another to bring freedom
but walks forward facing himself 
facing his fears and false perceptions and haunting desires 
that are like a river running always 
so he comes open, the sadhu, to being purified in grace 
as he has found by experience that no road in the world 
has brought his soul rest not even for a moment 
what an auspicious calling to be in the way of seeking this joy
he knows in him that it is grace only that has brought his mind 
to turn towards the light and seek God 
he knows that he is not perfect in himself as a body and mind 
but only God can make him perfect in consciousness and bring 
about stillness to his soul
so he moves forward as a man that does not know anything but this moment 
and forgets his world of sorrow and attachments 
he forgets all that he took to be real before which is like a dream 
when he is initiated by his Guru into sannyas 
then he is to begin to go thru consciousness and his dream states 
and question them and bring the light of wisdom (Guru's grace) with him
but Guru is not a persona that is to be attached to, but the light of the SELF
Guru embodies the light of wisdom that is one and in all hearts 
not as a body and mind as ego understands it 
but much deeper and broader and within the spiritual plane
the sadhu makes his life as a path to knowledge which is tantric in nature 
which means all is seen as the path and as a means to bring the mind to stillness
all is seen as God made manifest and not different than the source 
he makes his life as a path to perfection by looking always inside his own soul
to see what is true and what is false in nature 
he does not bend to ego's whims that judge and burn of relative knowledge 
this is what the man of the world is ingrained in and this is completely opposed 
to God or the source 
it is to be as a shadow and not the light that brings freedom
it is to be like an eclipse over the full and glorious moon
it is to be like a ray in relation to the sun and not what is true 
the sadhu is the man of seeking 
whether he takes initiation or not if he is sincere 
he is a true sincere seeker and is to go forward in beauty and light 
his imperfections which are vasanas ( or tendencies) will wash out in grace 
if he continues and does not turn back
and entertain that which is transient in his soul
he will remain always as brahman
the full and undying source
the peace that passes all understanding 

have you pondered this?

how can thoughts be more important
than from where they spring?
how can writing in books be
of more interest than the emptiness
(which is full) in which they arise?
how can the wave be more important
than the ocean from which it
is made manifest?
oh soul, have you pondered this?
because this is of great concern and
interest to a man that is in pursuit of the self
because he is not to be running after the
waves any longer and making understandings
from the dust of experience
how very not in the way of bringing liberation
is this
as the building of anything will find it's ruin
and will sink back into the source of all
it will not have any permanent existence
so ponder this dear souls
and forget the movement that brings rise
to differences
forget your little self that has so many competing
desires and transient understandings
and be like the best of all
which is God
unclothed of ego (attachment to body and mind)
unclothed of suffering (attachment to body and mind)
unclothed of anything that is different than the one
open up to life
and be true
be forever unbound
like the ocean full
like the source that is
always one

Friday, November 22, 2013

how he is free

there was a seeker
that knew where he was going 
he was going to the light 
and he walked onward towards his 
he walked onward on feet that were steady
he knew where he was going 
he was going to freedom
when he entered there 
into the pure waters that took away his knowing 
then he began to be still
he did not know anything anymore 
like a new babe 
that found his home in the heart 
like a newborn soul
that now only knows this moment
but is not in anyway lost 
but found 
as now the mind is quiet 
and unburdened by *knowing* 
and attempting to figure out 
that which cannot be understood by mind 
this seeker lost everything to gain all
which is peace 
he is not devoid of intelligence 
but filled with soul fire 
that is the source 
which is complete and in charge of every 
every breath
every moment that is 
how he knows nothing and knows all
the one that is liberated 
how he is complete when quiet 
how he is free 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

jai ma

seated in stillness
the man of purity is like
a shadowless moon
on a dark night
he puts light where there was
once suffering
he puts om where there was once
thoughts of this and that
he puts ocean consciousness
where the river of me and mine
once streamed
he puts calm where the turbulence
moved so easily
he puts night against the light
and makes this dream melt
as the sun melts behind the mountains
he is the awakening of the heart of all
how he is not of this world
or anything that is known
how he breathes stilled beauty
and serenity and light so full
how he burns of truth
how he burns of knowledge
how he burns of strength unwavering
in him the many are burned to ash
the seasons are washed away
the various appearances are dissolved
the various understandings are cut
the various shades of mind are lost forever
and the one rises victorious
as jai ma
as jai ma
as jai ma

Sunday, November 17, 2013

where the sage dwells

a sage does not sit in the dark
he sits where all is bright in beauty 
he sits serene in quietude 
he sits serene in fullness
he sits as a lamp that never goes out 
he sits still and does not wander 
away from truth
if you can come to where he dwells 
then you will be stripped of your unrest 
you will be stripped of your thoughts 
that drive you to believe there is something other 
if you can come where the sage lives 
you will be what he is 
seated in the Self
is it not a most auspicious moment now 
to come? 
as the door is open to you
your birth is in these waters of clarity
where the soul will be rinsed clean
and you will be free
then you have no death that lays heavy
upon your soul any longer 
as it is simply a creation of mind 
and nothing else 
it is a moving energy that speaks of ending 
and beginning 
beginning is the moment you step away from
your fears and doubts 
and enter into the waters where all is of truth
then you are as a lord of yourself
not pushed about by thought any longer 
not pushed about by your driving desires 
how they sting, do they not?
how they call you to be of another nature 
that is not true and right 
oh soul,
come to these precious waters of all
and be like your self 
made of such wonder and mysterious life 
that is not bound 
step in and be 
there will not be a hand that reaches out to you 
and gently takes you in 
and gently washes your tears away
as your tears are only made of dreams that are not 
to stay 
the only way is to move forward 
even within your fear and doubt
breathe and rest in the steady light 
it is the only way
there will be a shake up of your world for sure 
but do not be afraid of this 
for it is a good thing to be shaken clean of your 
attachment to body and mind 
it is such a good thing 
to be shaken clean of your wrong knowledge 
you do not know anything about life truly 
until you die to this beauty 
you know nothing now and nothing at the end 
this is true 
and this unknowing is true knowledge 
which is God 
which is true peace 
come forward now 
and come and come 
until no more mind remains to mask
your true nature 
come forward

always awake

what has brought the mind to burden
the soul?
it is that one believes in it
and feels it is what will awaken to the truth
it will not awaken to the truth
when this movement dies
then that which is always awake
is made manifest
but has this beauty that lives gone
as life could not be
without it


all that is like a dream will end
it will end
as there is only grace that is
even in the darkest times
grace shines full
not ever leaving
purifying in it's fresh water
as the sea calm

Friday, November 15, 2013

love the moment

love not the dying appearance 
instead love the moment 
it has no experience in it 
that is to burden you as it wants 
nothing at all 
not even your liberation 
it needs nothing at all
not even your desire or efforts
if you love the moment 
then your mind is not so intrusive 
as it takes a back seat 
and is not the driver any longer 

spirit only

the chakras are not important 
they are only channels of energy 
they are connected with the body 
but the body is not important 
only that it is here and is not to be 
what brings one to liberation 
the legs will not bring one there 
the arms will not bring it to you
the lips will not take it in
so what gives liberation?
grace of God 

clear water

the water that is running colored with 
is cleaned out when kundalini is activated 
the clear water (kundalini) is poured over the colorizations 
and eventually the water runs clear 

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

simply pure presence

many have come to the way
but so many have not finished the path
it is not easy to walk the journey of truth
it is not easy to put the mind to rest
and live the freedom of all
it is like a fire that burns to the core
the familiar world that one so safely guards
it is like a fire that burns the me and mine
to ash
it is like a fire that sets all that is known to
be destroyed
it is like a fire that takes what was felt to be true
and leaves what is real to be
it is like a fire that sets the ship of the body
to sink in the waters
where all is as one full being
it is like a fire that makes the personal
a flimsy cover
and then pulls that away too
and what remains is no more seeker
only spontaneous flow of the moment
it is like a fire that comes of desire to be free
and is tended by sadhana (spiritual practice)
and is tended to by the open heart that only knows
it is like a fire that is aimed at only that which is unreal
because it cannot burn what is real
what is true and permanent cannot be destroyed
not by any hand, sword or tongue
there is nothing else that remains but *is*
a full, completeness
not any one can know it as a person
but can only know it as a no-thing
which means one is no longer identified with
the untruth of body and mind
but is quietened and only knows the one
the other is like it never happened
who did it happen to?
only the dream speaks of happenings that came to
a me persona
only the dream speaks of this and that and differentiation
only the dream speaks of variety
what is seen as variety is only the same essence
like a filtered light that comes from the same essence
or source
this does not mean you are not here or have an existence
you do indeed
but not like you think
like a concrete presence that is non-dual
and is not this or that
or here or there
you are simply pure presence
and have always been

Sunday, November 10, 2013

skillful means

men of shadow are like kings
that are not to savor the sweets that life
has in store
they live unaware of the riches in the soul
as a king inside, yet like a popper in spirit
as the appearance is what is taken to be true 
not the undying invisible source 
they come unaware of the perfection that is 
in all hearts 
in this life of a one in shadow 
what is forgotten is the source from which 
all springs 
this source has not a single drop of suffering 
or longing or personhood in it 
it is as a source of full, still beauty
when a man gives his body and mind to 
God or the source 
he then is stripped of his suffering mind 
and identity with that which is not real
he is purified in God 
and does not go back to the world 
(if he is true) 
he resides in the heart 
where all is quietened
that spoke of a dream and shadow
which is changing always 
he does not go back to the world of sorrow 
where men look to be in pleasure 
and fulfill desires one after the other
with no end in sight 
there is no end to the dream in the way that it is 
not with a beginning 
it is superimposed on the source of all
it is superimposed 
like a shadow is superimposed on the still waters
that are peaceful and tranquil and full
it is superimposed by the mind that moves 
how it comes into being is not understood 
but how it ends is by living an ethical,
honest and true existence first and foremost 
and then questioning the mind with relentless, 
sincere efforts to breakthrough the thoughts that haunt the being 
and also having a sincere and true mentor to show the way
this mentor may likely not meet the standards of the Guru
that ego is looking for
but what matters is that this mentor is skillful in breaking down
the mental chatter and obstructions of mind 
not that the Guru comes in a shiny package that ego is wanting 
it matters not if  this Guru looks attractive or ugly 
or wears regular attire or dresses outrageous
or enjoys great luxuries or  enjoys company of this or that person
or enjoys being this way or that 
it matters only the skillful means of breaking down ego 
and not the external playing out 
does this Guru aide in quieting ego or not?
this is the question only and nothing else 
the judgements are to be put aside and the wondering 
and doubting and all the rest...
this is to be put aside and the clear path carved out is to be walked 
(if the sadhaka is sincere in heart) 
not one single moment is to be wasted on doubts and judgements 
but looking within, questioning, living righteously and savoring 
the blessings that have come 

this is all for now 
may all be well and be in quietude and easy flow of the moment ...

om shanti

Saturday, November 9, 2013

primal mind

many of the living lights had no path to follow
they came as an original force
to put the shadow to rest
not one of these souls
that were to shake the tree of ignorance
and wake up dead energies
were timid in their presence
most were like fires that burn of intense
love and compassion
that is not understood by mind
as Kabir came and spoke strong
words that sent many running
from him
or slandering him
but this did not stop his voice
that rang of truth and light
and spoke of freedom in all

the ones that are in truth
are not like the ones that play about
in the land of shadow
they are like forces to be reckoned
they are like kali personified in body
they are like the fragrance to the flower
but this is not always sweet to mind
it is sweet in it's final end
which is liberation
where the mind has no more room
to roam
and make a world up that speaks of other
what the living lights know and live
is there is only one always
though there is a playing out on the surface
called shakti
which brings an appearance of sorts
it is not real
like a reflection or an echo is not real
it is simply an appearance that is not different
than the non dual is
in primal mind
there is only one always
this is what the living ones embody
not anything that is different than anything else
but only one

Monday, November 4, 2013

have you seen me?

why have you not come?
the sea is still,
in it's wondrous presence 
as a light of itself
why are you out in separation?
i saw you standing in the lane 
where me and mine dwell
i saw you there 
and called you to 
come hither
have you seen me?
i am what dwells in the cave
of shiva's heart 
where life blooms of such
rich abundance 
i am the one that has not been away
from your heart 
lonely is the place where mind lives 
it is like a shell truly
that does not know love 
it is as an empty appearance in the still
beautiful one 
i know this well
as life lives in me 
but i am not as you think
like a mind and body
but a single presence 
living here 
like a single heart of love 
for in me the life of all is 
and you are here always 
be this way dear 
be as one

Sunday, November 3, 2013

as a jewel

he said, to come forward 
in him the mind is quiet 
and breathes love and full life 
come unto the knowledge of all
as a one that does not look to 
the world to give 
but is open in heart and love 
come unto the river where God sings 
of great wonders 
that drown the sorrow in the ocean of mercy

a sadhu, is born from the aches of his heart 
where he comes unto the path of knowledge 
and walks into the fires of all
in there he seats himself still and open
in mind 
to be burned to ash with the glow of God's power
and love 
he sits himself still and beautiful as a spark of life 
that will be put to the fire
and come into the best of all
which is life pure 
then he is a light for humanity in it's darkness
he glows 
as the risen moon
it now is so much of a sight to see for all
as it is what the universe is 
empty full being 
that lives 
that lives 
that is 

if you are to come in
leave the suffering body at the gates 
and the suffering thoughts too
leave them at the gate 
and enter in there 
where God's face will be seen
which is the pristine non-dual one 
it is the pristine light of all
nothing is missing there 
but the suffering 
nothing is ever missing there 
it is like a jewel that shines 
never needing to be cleaned
or attended to 
it needs no *doing*
how it lives by itself as a jewel
how it lives 

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Ramakrishna (sage of divine love)

there was once a sage named Ramakrishna
he was a man that was deeply devoted to
the black mother, Kali
he was so in love with this goddess that
he sometimes even dressed like her
this was not anything strange truly
for he was so identified with the godly element
of the mother
that he took on her essence in a way
that was not like a man in ego
but more as a man that lost himself
in divine love
with this beautiful force of mother
Ramakrishna was deeply absorbed in shanti
much of the time
he would sit with his mind lit up with God
he would sit with rapture and
many times be seen very
absorbed in samadhi or sunk in bliss and
ecstasy of love of the divine
he was like a sponge that soaked up the
love of God
he did not have an ego defense that said
no, i cannot be this way or behave this way
he simply was in play of the one
what he came to teach was that all is one and not
to be afraid of simply living and enjoying the play
of leela or the divine
to be seated in the soul of God
and bloom like a flower from this sweet earth of God
that comes from God, has it's stay in God
and then returns there
never is one ever away from God or this one source
Ramakrishna was a man of suffering as he underwent much
bodily pain in his form
but he said, that though his body suffered, his mind would be
sunk in bliss of the absolute
he was in love with being *in love* in a way
as he wanted to keep the play of mother in his heart
and dance with her forever in love
and so he said, he was to *taste* the sugar  which means
he preferred to *dance with*
he chose this type of consciousness
to him it was most beautiful and precious
and sang of mother pure
he came this sage, Ramakrishna in form and in truth
he was a kind soul and sat easily amongst men of seeking
and spoke of love and light in rich poetic type words
where he brought many to be quiet and filled with love
he loved a woman that he lived with, but they were as partners
of creation that were not separate in their way
both were of the bhakti mentality which is the path of devotion
of the highest
Ramakrishna was a gift to humanity with his single pointed devotion
he loved so complete that he lost his personal identity there
he was not to be taking up with ego's ways
that brought men to be feeling different and special
he was not special
but gave his identity to mother
where she became the doer and the singer thru his form
that sat as the play of God
this is the well of wisdom that is here now as always

how can this be?

has kali any more cutting to do?
and where is it that there is 
can you see it in the mind?
or see it outside of you?
this is an interesting trick
is it not?
that mind tells of all these things 
when it cannot be shown
not here or there 
not forward or back 
not in front or behind 
not above or below 
not inside or out 
there is mind to be seen 
oh for heavens sake this is 
kind of a strange fix 
for if mind could be seen
as some-thing then well maybe 
one could say yes,
there is such a thing as mind 
and such a thing as me and you
but it cannot be shown 
so, are you dancing in it 
somewhere lost?
how can this be when you are 
not ever away from this present moment?
how can this be?

what makes a sage to be a sage?
it is not that he looks different 
or acts different 
or walks different 
or talks different 
he has a form 
he has a personality 
he has all that any soul has 
and yet he is free
how can this be?
because he is simply in quietude 
there is no longer an active 
ego in him
nothing else is different about him
so what is this ego?
it is an attachment to body/mind
which is composed of the "i" thought 
which comes from where?
from where does this "i" thought arise?
it arises from nothing 
but this cannot be understood by intellect 
it can only be cognized directly
in stillness
it can only be cognized after much 
sadhana (lifetimes) 
but the funny thing is that one has never 
gone anywhere 
through it all 
one is and has always been free 
it is just this ego that is the covering 
which is made only of energies 
that put together something of a persona
but again, this is only thoughts 
that will be lost in the absolute 
if one perseveres 
and does not lose sight of the heart 

Friday, October 18, 2013

it shines as life...

fill your cup friend
the water is running and running
overflowing with life so rich
metta is it's nature
and so is shanti
press your lips against the cup
of wisdom
and hold not back yourself
from it's sweet nectar
stop dancing with maya
in that dream you will be
shifting constantly on your feet
and not able to be quiet
and simply be
metta is falling like rain
turn your face upward and see
the light
and breathe in the present
forever you are in truth
dance no more
with her illusion
that comes and goes
like heat to the mind
that takes it in
but knows not the best for it
a child knows this truth
naturally he is playful and free
yet is not aware of the one
a sage knows without a doubt
his true self
he journeyed thru the hard road
that brought him to be as God
you, my friend will journey too
but where are you journeying
this evening?
are you walking away into the world?
or are you present and sitting quiet?
and breathing life complete?
this is the best of the best
and will bring settled life
to your heart
metta flows now in all that is
it shines as light
metta shines as life

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

like buddha

live fully
before the mind
took you away into
the river of thought
before the mind put
it's spell of created
appearance on you
live fully
as you strive for
be most attentive to
your soul
and do not be
indulging half truths
and memories of
what is now gone
be settled in life
as a buddha
be settled like a
seeker that knows
there is only grace
and grace will be
what gives and takes
and grace will be
what brings the soul
to paradise
when the time comes
do not worry souls
be settled in yourself
like buddha

feet of the masters

put your life into the search
press your head against the
feet of the masters
as the sannyasi that has cast
his burden off
to be like the foreigner
which means he is no longer
connected to his homeland
he is single in his search
as a sun that shines in the
cloudless sky
alone and in full light

measure your days by
what you let go of
and not by what you
then you will be content
with very little
and not seeking more of
this or that
as a man does not come into
life with things
he does not know about
but only feels love and goodness
that warms him
and pleases him well
and where does this goodness
from God alone
and nowhere else
see, this is the most important
to be of goodwill and service
to God
and then forget all about
everything but his perfection
in which the heart opens
into and fills up with
yeah friend,
put your life into the search
and forget your little self
be still

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

life breathes...

she said,
the mind is like a wave that goes outward and attaches
to objects
but objects are not made of anything but consciousness
so why to attach to them
and make them into something they are not?
such as the body
why is it attached to any more than any other object?
why to confine oneself to this alone
at the exclusion of all else?
it is simply thoughts that attach to the body
it is not anything else
and thoughts are impermanent and shaky
they are not what remains as constant
they have no knowledge of anything
but are simply a playing out of shakti

she said,
the body is like anything else material
which is not within pure intelligence
it moves according to energies of mind
which come from nowhere and go nowhere
it moves in accordance with intentions
which again are only energies
the mind does not have power unless
the soul is identified with it
and gives it attention and focus
then it becomes alive and moves
in accordance
with the mind-set of the individual
the mind is like a race horse
that is running at full speed
to stop it is not easy in the least
but the brakes can be put on it
with imbibing in practices infused
with pure consciousness that comes
directly from Guru/Master/Sage
this, as well as a strong
desire for liberation
all of this will work within to destroy
the delusive energies of maya which have
captured the soul
and made the soul believe in something that
is entirely false and
the soul, when taking in the love and light
of the Guru that gives grace of practices
and mantras and transmission
falls into a steadier way of being
grounded in the moment
and taking in life with a different mind
and heart
one that is more open, attentive and awake
but yet the mind will continue until
the breaking point comes
and all is washed away into the ocean
of reality
then that which has always been is
revealed as one

she said,
the Guru is the most highest blessing
of this lifetime
there is not anything other that will
break the spell of maya
the Guru is inside also, but is not
to be what the sadhaka is to rely on
for if mind is running, there can be
delusion and deceptive understanding
that is not to be trusted
so the outer Guru comes to show the way
inward to the heart
where life breathes as the source of all

this is the writing that has flowed this evening..
the first part of the writing seems similar
to the tripura rahasya
the rest just flows freely and spontaneously ....

om shanti

under the dust of mind

who can see?
a man chasing thoughts?
a forgotten heart that sits
under the dust of mind?
a shaded passage way leading
to nowhere but more
empty dreams?
a prince on his throne of
a man that is tossed about
in the world of joy and sorrow?
who can see?
a prisoner in his cell is free
if he is within stillness and beauty
a homeless man is completely content
if he sees no other
a merchant that sells his goods
is free if he sees all as God
a man is free when he is not
identified with his form
and mind
life is free
no matter the mind play
no matter the movement
it lives forever
in peace and stillness

Friday, October 11, 2013

scythe of knowledge

kali is not having any mind
to her, 
the *one* is what is true 
and when the mental waters 
are not still
she will be what haunts you 
with a sting 
she will be what calls to you
in your dreams that are 
made only of emptiness
she will put more 
(delusion) out there
or cut the imaginary ego
to bits with her scythe of knowledge
(if the heart is surrendered)
then she will live
in quietude (like she always does)
as the 
gem of greatest worth
when she is like this in your soul
there is no more suffering
there is nothing more to do or say
or know 
for the one has risen strong and enduring 
like the mantra that has dissolved into 
the source 
or the ray that drowns in the sun
or the wave that dies in the ocean
then there is strength in being 
then there is strength in light 
then there is strength in grace 
there is nothing that can shake this kind of peace 
that burns of it's own source 
as a fire that needs no fuel 
in pure consciousness 

calm waters

as the ocean rises in the mind 
the created is born to be seen 
and when the ocean dies down 
the uncreated is known as one heart 
this is what the scriptures speak of 
and the sages sing of 
it is known in the stillness of the soul
where there is nothing that has ever 
existed but one 

by this light there is no more understanding 
of this and that 
there is simply the direct cognition of all
which is the perfect heart of God 
not in this world is there this truth 
it is found in the still waters 
of the source 
that shines in splendor 
in fullness and glory

Thursday, October 10, 2013

cave of the soul

a man that is full in love
makes his world turn to ashes
as a soul that has no home
or no possessions inside
he walks into the fires with an open heart
and moves into the cave of the soul
where all that he once took to be real
fades as the sunset fades behind the mountains
here is where he resides
whether in mental waves or without
he sits inside the cave of himself
and watches the movement
as if from a distance with objectivity
as a disinterested onlooker
a man sits in his heart like this
he moves in the world in the heart of himself
he moves in the shadows in the heart of himself
he moves in the coming and going in the heart of himself
he moves in the falling away and the rising tides
in the heart of himself
he moves with his Guru in heart in the heart of himself
he places his mind in the ganges
to be rinsed away
(but this is the love and light within)
where there are no borders that define
no calling thoughts that color over the perfect light
that make one to see the world in separation
a man is like a light when he frees his soul
to this beauty
and then he is what he has always been
what he is prior to the story of mind
before the conditionings came into play
that made the world look to be something it was not
something of the personal
how very funny this is
to believe the world has anything to do with a me
it is just an empty appearance that rises
and falls in quiet beauty that is non-dual
it plays as God and in God and of God
not anything else ...

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

the burning glow of atman

a seeker that is serious
about entering liberation
is not afraid of living in the heart
because he is to be as shiva
he is to be seated in truth
as one heart
as one soul
as one God
as one essence that lives eternal
putting out his thoughts
and allowing kali to burn the fires
of purity
and destroy his false notions of himself
as being a body and mind
he flows in right understanding
of what is true and what is false
he loses his soul that is personal
and by this losing
gains rich wisdom of the non-dual
he gains this by giving up his
thoughts that he has brought on himself
by believing he is a body
which is simply a house or a vehicle
of experience for the soul
but is not in any way at all his true self
it is like a mirror that reflects the source
but is not the source itself
it is as an empty appearance
that does not have in it true knowledge
but has in it blood, flesh, bones, pus
and odours which are extremely foul
and offensive
this is not the atman
it is the decay or the corpse
it is unconscious of the lord that is like
the most high and the most glorious
of all
in this world and the next
in all of the worlds
in all of the lands and the realities
in all of the heavens and the hells
this lord shines in splendor as the
living one
it has not a name or a face to be seen on it
it has not a frame to hold it in
it has not a foundation for it to rest on
it has not a world for it to come and go within
it has not a story to be put on it
it has not a land to live and die in
as it does not know any story
it does not know any me and you
it does not know the mind with it's ways
that are so very calculated and forgetting
of the heart of all
it cannot be seen by the eyes
it cannot be heard by the ears
it cannot be brought to the lips or
felt by the hands
or gathered in by the soul
for if you try to bring it to you
there will be nothing but more of what you are
trying to seek
which is mental in nature
if you attempt to create this lord of all
it will allude you greatly as mist on the ocean
it will fall from your hands that are grasping
but this does not mean that this joy
that is God
it is here forever in the heart
as the one life force
and will be known
only when the soul is in quietude
and not chasing after thoughts
and not attempting to be a certain way
as in attempting to
be *like* a man of God
how very unreal this is
as a *true* man of God is not
what you think
he is a man of truth
which means he *is* love and light
and nothing else
not a body or a mind
he is a zero
and cannot be defined in any way
shape or form
this is what he is
when the mind is destroyed
like the stick that stirs the fire
then what remains is only the burning glow
of atman
it does not need to be fueled
it is it's own source
that is in all beings equally and fully
and in all things equally and fully
and in all that is here or there equally and fully
and in all that is seen and unseen equally and fully

this is the writing of this evening
may it sink in deep
and find you in good health and spirit
that is not to take away anything from it
but just to let it resonate in your heart
and fall into the cave of light
where all is simply as it is
and not made into a thought
or made into a structure of mind
may it sink in
and be as it is
simply a passing vibration
that is here now
and gone
and then
what remains is just this moment
without anything else layered on it
what remains is just rich peace
not anything else
just now

om shanti

Sunday, October 6, 2013

what matters

the little things are not what matters
the big things are not important either
the most important undertaking is the journey
to the self
there is nothing that has more value
than that which does not decay
or pass away
this is the most essential of all of life
as it does not forget the one
it does not put the heart to the side or unfold
into suffering
what can be said but,
do walk on in love and light
and do not look back to what is now gone
for those things  have brought an ache to the soul
(as all personal experience does)
what is here now is light
for all to be in
what is here now is the most perfect
and is like the godly man that comes
to the world naked, unclothed
fresh in full awareness
can i say it differently to the one
with ears to hear
and to the soul in need of fresh water?
there is no other
there is only that which sits in the soul as all
which is non-dual
there is only one
there is not anything else that is true
come and find it soul
be like you are
in beauty and truth
be real
be free

Friday, October 4, 2013

this one that is silent..

has she come to you?
this one that is silent as the green grass
and the open fields and mountains
in their splendor?
silent as the moon
on a dark night that is
so undeniable when simply seen
with eyes that are not clouded over

has she come to you?
where you are seated or walking or
talking or working
or playing?
no matter what you are immersed in
any moment this beauty that is of
her blessing may be born in you..
so do not say that you are different
and cannot know..
because she is your very being
and she cannot be away from you
for even a moment
one will not see though if
chasing after thoughts
and building structures of
me and mine identities
then she will not be known
but she cannot leave you
not even in the most turbulent
for she forever lives
under the dust of mind
as the sighted one
as the clear reality
as the open valley that is empty
filled with life so bright
as the majestic mountain range
and the golden colored sky
she lives as this
as all that is seen and unseen
without being changed
by it

has she come to you?
my friend
she has and is within you now
breathe in this light that is
she will be
she will be what you are
in your finest way
as God
as love and light
as shanti
as sat chit ananda
as one without a second

has she come to you?...

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

rising moon

she enters the world like a soft breath 
and turns it to dust 
to blow with the winds of time 
she turns it to ashes 
and she is still there 
in beautiful rich being 
she is there smiling like a stainless 
rising moon 
in the sky so dark 
it is like this, she that sings of 
nothing at all
but lives and lives and lives 
never will this real being 
be destroyed 
but do not think she is a persona
this is not right 
she is the light of life 
she is the knowledge uncovered 
she is the created and uncreated
made as one always 
she births the appearance 
but does she change ever? 
oh no 
she is in her love shiva as the 
perfect heart 
and she knows what love is 
and she knows that it is unchanging 
she does not know anything 
but God
she is still
and in light always
forever she lives 

Saturday, September 28, 2013

have you seen?

have you seen mt meru?
it is like a burning heart that
sits in majesty
have you seen mt kailash?
it is as the purest form that sits
in light and full presence
have you seen the pure river in india?
or spent time in the heart of the caves?
have you taken your soul to the sages?
to be seen by God eyes
and heard by God ears
and felt by God hands
have you been to where the waters meet
to merge together and flow into the ocean of mother?
have you sat in the sacred forest
and felt the breeze blow on your face?
and felt the moving of the earth under your form?
have you been to the wonders of the world?
and placed your whole being into the experience
as a man that does not know what the
next moment brings?
have you seen the moving clouds in the morning light?
have you seen the flow of the universe?
or have you been asleep to your life?
as a man that does not see or hear or breathe or feel?
as a man that waits for tomorrow to truly live?
as a man that waits for another person to give what is needed
to be free?
if you wait like this, then life passes quickly and your time
is wasted like a seed that blows with the winds
and dies away
never to bloom fully and feel the sun fully
never to be as it should be
in perfect love and light
yet you do not haveto go to the mountains across the world
or the rivers across the oceans and continents
but only to find the purity in your own soul
that lives in this moment
as you are now
immersed in what is taking place now
is where it lives
it lives in truth here now