always as brahman

when the sadhu comes into the path of knowledge 

he burns to know the lord that is his very own heart 

he burns to know the Christ consciousness that is forever full

and free 

he burns as a light unto himself that is to be his own counsel

which means he does not look to another to bring freedom

but walks forward facing himself 

facing his fears and false perceptions and haunting desires 

that are like a river running always 

so he comes open, the sadhu, to being purified in grace 

as he has found by experience that no road in the world 

has brought his soul rest not even for a moment 

what an auspicious calling to be in the way of seeking this joy

he knows in him that it is grace only that has brought his mind 

to turn towards the light and seek God 

he knows that he is not perfect in himself as a body and mind 

but only God can make him perfect in consciousness and bring 

about stillness to his soul

so he moves forward as a man that does not know anything but this moment 

and forgets his world of sorrow and attachments 

he forgets all that he took to be real before which is like a dream 

when he is initiated by his Guru into sannyas 

then he is to begin to go thru consciousness and his dream states 

and question them and bring the light of wisdom (Guru's grace) with him

but Guru is not a persona that is to be attached to, but the light of the SELF

Guru embodies the light of wisdom that is one and in all hearts 

not as a body and mind as ego understands it 

but much deeper and broader and within the spiritual plane

the sadhu makes his life as a path to knowledge which is tantric in nature 

which means all is seen as the path and as a means to bring the mind to stillness

all is seen as God made manifest and not different than the source 

he makes his life as a path to perfection by looking always inside his own soul

to see what is true and what is false in nature 

he does not bend to ego's whims that judge and burn of relative knowledge 

this is what the man of the world is ingrained in and this is completely opposed 

to God or the source 

it is to be as a shadow and not the light that brings freedom

it is to be like an eclipse over the full and glorious moon

it is to be like a ray in relation to the sun and not what is true 

the sadhu is the man of seeking 

whether he takes initiation or not if he is sincere 

he is a true sincere seeker and is to go forward in beauty and light 

his imperfections which are vasanas ( or tendencies) will wash out in grace 

if he continues and does not turn back

and entertain that which is transient in his soul

he will remain always as brahman

the full and undying source

the peace that passes all understanding