the burning glow of atman

a seeker that is serious
about entering liberation
is not afraid of living in the heart
because he is to be as shiva
he is to be seated in truth
as one heart
as one soul
as one God
as one essence that lives eternal
putting out his thoughts
and allowing kali to burn the fires
of purity
and destroy his false notions of himself
as being a body and mind
he flows in right understanding
of what is true and what is false
he loses his soul that is personal
and by this losing
gains rich wisdom of the non-dual
consciousness
he gains this by giving up his
thoughts that he has brought on himself
by believing he is a body
which is simply a house or a vehicle
of experience for the soul
but is not in any way at all his true self
it is like a mirror that reflects the source
but is not the source itself
it is as an empty appearance
that does not have in it true knowledge
but has in it blood, flesh, bones, pus
and odours which are extremely foul
and offensive
this is not the atman
it is the decay or the corpse
it is unconscious of the lord that is like
the most high and the most glorious
of all
in this world and the next
in all of the worlds
in all of the lands and the realities
in all of the heavens and the hells
this lord shines in splendor as the
living one
it has not a name or a face to be seen on it
it has not a frame to hold it in
it has not a foundation for it to rest on
it has not a world for it to come and go within
it has not a story to be put on it
it has not a land to live and die in
as it does not know any story
it does not know any me and you
it does not know the mind with it's ways
that are so very calculated and forgetting
of the heart of all
it cannot be seen by the eyes
it cannot be heard by the ears
it cannot be brought to the lips or
felt by the hands
or gathered in by the soul
for if you try to bring it to you
there will be nothing but more of what you are
trying to seek
which is mental in nature
if you attempt to create this lord of all
it will allude you greatly as mist on the ocean
it will fall from your hands that are grasping
but this does not mean that this joy
that is God
dies
it is here forever in the heart
as the one life force
and will be known
only when the soul is in quietude
and not chasing after thoughts
and not attempting to be a certain way
as in attempting to
be *like* a man of God
how very unreal this is
as a *true* man of God is not
what you think
he is a man of truth
which means he *is* love and light
and nothing else
not a body or a mind
he is a zero
and cannot be defined in any way
shape or form
this is what he is
when the mind is destroyed
like the stick that stirs the fire
then what remains is only the burning glow
of atman
it does not need to be fueled
it is it's own source
that is in all beings equally and fully
and in all things equally and fully
and in all that is here or there equally and fully
and in all that is seen and unseen equally and fully

this is the writing of this evening
may it sink in deep
and find you in good health and spirit
that is not to take away anything from it
but just to let it resonate in your heart
and fall into the cave of light
where all is simply as it is
and not made into a thought
or made into a structure of mind
may it sink in
and be as it is
simply a passing vibration
that is here now
and gone
and then
what remains is just this moment
without anything else layered on it
what remains is just rich peace
not anything else
just now

om shanti