Shiva comes again...

i am still getting the yes, no answers to questions in my
mind (though i do not purposely engage this)..
it is like when the mind wonders about something, sometimes
one is not even aware of doing this and instead of being left
not knowing, the answer comes of
yes/no .. or maybe or 50/50 chance...
what i have been shown is a bulls eye and the arrow may hit the
mark in the middle with something, but sometimes it does not or
it is farther from the middle... meaning (less chance)...
also, this is only the reading or temperature of the moment in a way
as the climate is forever changing in the cosmos and the next minute
there could be something different...
so, this getting questions answered is still occurring ..
sometimes it is spelled out for me.. written out ...
especially if the mind still wonders as a way to say, YES or
NO and re-emphasizee the answer...


here is the vision of the morning which just came
while sitting here ....

there was an image of shiva in my mind
his presence was the same as always, blue,
ethereal and not of this world
he was decked out in the symbology of awakened consciousness
then, i heard, "diamond purity" i have not seen that kind of
brilliant detail for several days in that way
and i just remembered it...
then, i heard, do you want to see that way again Siddhananda?
and the diamond started coming into view (not as clear as before though)..
it was twirling in space coming forward
and i said, "no i do not desire that...my desire is to enter realization.
whatever needs to be taken to have this be so, may it be so ( i have
definitely given off this energy or response many times before, this is not the
first)...
then, Shiva appeared again and he flung the diamond away
and it twirled away from my view...
and he said, "do not dance with this anymore Siddhananda."
and i said, "please, and may it not dance with me anymore."
then, my face was turned upward to him ....it was tear streaked
i was looking into his face...then, he wiped my tears away and with this,
wiped consciousness too, it was felt, as i could feel this
clearing energy move into my being...

i can see this image of Shiva in my mind now as i am writing
he is leaning on one knee and i am there in front of him..
he is a very big muscular male type of energy....he is very handsome
and beautiful...and very, very powerful looking too...
he is wearing his tiger skin around his waist...
he is blue with the chandra (moon) on the side of his head
his hair is long and black with a deep, rich shimmer to it ...sometimes
it flashes red when the light hits it just right, it turns a bright, vibrant red...

then, i felt my body sitting by a clear, running river and i was taking
this water into my mouth....
i was drinking it and pouring it on my head...
shiva appeared above this scene as if he was part of the mountains, clouds
and earth....there were birds flying and the clouds were parted with light
breaking through...
i did hear also (regarding shiva), he opened this for you and he will close
it too (so that the mind can enter that purity)...

hopefully this is why Shiva is around more now, to aid in completing
this process...
his presence has been very stilling to  consciousness...



om shanti