Saturday, November 14, 2015

grace is always there ...



dear souls, here is the vision of the morning..

what came into view was an image of a large eye..
from this eye emerged a body dressed in a white gown and as i am typing, i can see it ...
it is floating upward and going through hoops or a dreamcatcher looking thing
and then it floats through another and another, moving upward..
then what is seen is a large crescent moon,
and then little by little the shadow is being pulled off the moon
like clothing slowly by slowly
just as someone might be pulling off a shirt from their form...
so this shadow cover is being pulled off and bit by bit,
the fullness of the moon is appearing and
it gives off a wonderful soft glow in the dark night sky...

then, there is an image of a man (very muscular) ..
he is pulling himself up over a ledge of sorts..
this, it is felt, is symbolic of the strength and fortitude of spirit
it takes to walk the path and give all to it...
then, as he pulls himself up and over, and
though it seems like it is his strength that does so, it is not..
it is the grace of God that releases him,
there arises an image of mountains with a sun rising....
also, what is seen are a line of buildings on the horizon with the sun in the background...
these buildings (or structures of mind) begin to be flattened and destroyed
leaving just the sun...

the next image flowed into someone saying,
"i can't believe it, my life was this way one minute
and the next minute, i was someone completely different"...
this echoed again and again a few times...
with, "my life completely changed...
i am not the same person as before"...
"i can't believe it, i am completely different..
i am completely transformed."...

i also heard, do not eat that fruit of maya,
then you will be bitten by the ill-usion bug...
this is what creates the shadow over the moon...
this is what causes disease ....

the next image that came was one of a horse...
a very beautiful one indeed...
i could see it's face so clearly,
such sweet, friendly eyes, so inviting...
what appeared then, on the horse were two bodies that i could not make out ..
as they became clearer, it was an image of me (or this form) on the horse
when i was about 10 years old or so ( i still have this picture and can see it now)...

to bring more background into this image...
my childhood was ridden with trauma and not a healthy one (to put it lightly)...
the only safe haven i had was when i went to visit my grandmother in the summers
she lived in the country ...
this is where my love of nature really blossomed
as the air there was so fresh, the grass so green...
there were little creeks everywhere in which one could fish
and woods and wonderful birds sounds and creatures all about ...
there was a garden there with fresh food
my grandmother would make salads and yummy things with...
she taught me to sew and knit and we would pick berries
and all sorts of wonderful regular childhood things ...
i had good times there roaming about that land in which
she made one feel loved and safe....
there was a horse that the neighbors had next door that i would sometimes ride and
there is a picture (and now i am seeing a snapshot in my mind) of me on this horse at about 10 years old,
my hair is long and straight and shiny...
i can see everything that i am wearing very clearly....
then, what is seen sitting behind me (on the horse) is a shaman/angel/loving grandmother or old soul
just a loving type of energy that was sitting with their arms around my waist...
embracing me with great love and joy and just being near me....
then the feeling of that time was brought back so clearly --
i was laying out in the sun and i could see my grandmother
in her little house in the kitchen making a wonderful salad
from the bib lettuce she picked from the garden..
her hair is grey with sweet little curls all about it ...
she is looking out the window and fretting and saying,
"Janie, don't stay out in the sun so long"..
and more of the feeling was brought back about this time of joy that was present in my childhood there...
then, i heard or felt the name "Dolores"
which is my middle name and the middle name of my mother, grandmother and her mother ...
my mother told me this name means, "daughter of sorrow"
then what i saw was a piece of thread emerging in my view (which is fitting as my grandmother taught me to sew)...
and some silver scissors that were cutting that thread...
cutting the tie to that energy, "daughter of sorrow"....

then, the last scene was one of being on that horse
with that angel spirit of grace that was there all along,
embracing this persona/body energy
and we went off out of that scene like the wind
and then the image of the sun emerging over the mountains appeared

such a nice vision this is,
speaking to grace being there all along,
even in the most difficult times,
there is that joy to be found,
that love that shines through it all....

it is raining out here and am now moving onward into the day...

great day to all and om

om shanti

12 comments:

  1. Namaste - really wonderful piece thank you. So nice to see that tie to Dolores - daughter of sorrow - is being cut!

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  2. namaste, indeed, yes that connection to the ego/body energy or "sorrow" needs to be cut for liberation to be... so happy it resonates for you.. shanti one

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  3. Namaste- Nice to hear things are moving forward for you..very benifical here to read these writhings, thank you..Om

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    1. namaste, all is moving in the timing of grace.. i really can't say much more than that... shanti om

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  4. Beautiful vision. Filled with fragrance. Thank you for sharing. Heart touching messages. Shanti om

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  5. Thank you again for these. ..what a vivid image, very touching. .Grace is always there!
    Thank you, thank you! !

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    1. Namaste, yes! grace is woven through all experience, so glad this was felt... om shanti

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  6. Namaste. Thank you so much for sharing this. The imagery is so rich and speaks so beautifully of grace and the spirit which is always there through the darkest times. The heart is deeply touched by your account of the times spent with your grandmother surrounded by the healing energy of nature. I feel very grateful that this was there for you and am so happy that the ties to Dolores have been cut. OM

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  7. Namaste, yes, thank you this one is very nice. One of my favorites. Dolorosa = "sorrowful one."

    --john

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  8. Namaste, enjoyed reading this again, thank you for sharing. OM.

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    1. namaste, thank you for the comment.. om shanti

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