Not as before...

i could not find myself
as i was this morning
when the sun
shone through the window
in the light it happened
and i knew myself not
as before
it wasn't by any effort
of mine
that this happened
it was spontaneous
like the rain
and flowers grow
or snow flakes suddenly
float through the air
or blossoms appear on
the tree
or the birds call comes
out of nowhere
i don't know how
it all happens
but it does
not by any doing
it just happens