Time with Guru (part 1) ....first exchanges

The sannyasis, Guru and i were at breakfast
the other day and we were laughing at some
experiences Guruji and i have had together..
some are very funny
some only funny (after the fact)
and some wondrous
or maybe just another ordinary day
within the exraordinary...
don't know and doesn't matter ...
but Sachi had mentioned maybe writing some down..
may do this from time to time while there
are still a few memory cells left hahaha...
we will see what flows out....


A good place to start seems to be the first
exchanges with Guruji...


when i first met Guruji i was extremely ill
and very much caught up in fear
for lack of understanding what was taking
place (due to a spontaneous kundalini opening)
i did not know how to proceed
in a beneficial way on the journey

one day, i typed in kundalini on
the computer as had
heard that word and read it somewhere
way back ...
when Guruji's name popped up
her writing spoke about completing
the journey and that every step (as hard as it
was) was worthwhile ....
i wrote to her a very desperate mail about
what was taking place and then did not
check the computer for some days .. just
not really feeling like anything would happen
there as had been offered so much
nonsense in the way of so called *help*
that for the most part only served to create
more imbalance, fear and desperation..
**(possibly these ones had good intentions,
but lacked any direct experience, knowledge
or balance within them to offer pointings or
spiritual guideance that had any true value.)**

i eventually did check the computer and
was amazed that Guruji *had* written back -
her responses were well written and clear
which was seen right away, but more than
this a transmission penetrated that
was not of words....
(this is the unspoken grace that comes
through when a connection with
a realized being is in place
that works to bring about balance)
there were several exchanges that took
place at this time --
one of the main pointings that really
struck was *go through consciousness
and the body will follow...*
also, the pointing of
*not paying attention
to the body and thoughts --
to witness mind, rather than
getting caught up in it*...
these pointings along with beginning
to eat meat as well as Guru shedding light
on the goal and purpose of kundalini
and the phenomena that can arise...
all stand out as being so very helpful
during this stormy time --

Guruji was in india when the initial
exchanges took place...
in one mail, she asked where i lived
and i told her Capitol Hill
in Seattle, Washington
she said, that her daughter lives on Capitol Hill
and that she was planning on moving
here soon....
this was quite a wonderful surprise to hear....
that Guru was going to come to live in
my neighborhood out of all the possible places
in the world.
what grace!

but such is the inherent intelligence of the universe
manifesting the next step when the heart is ready...