current of grace..

resting in the heart

i sank deep as a one that was lost 

to this beautiful light 

i found that i had not been as i thought 

but something that was completely different

not i, me or anything like this 

but whole in perfection always 

this is the end that is the beginning 

i prayed to be made whole 

and to be a light to humanity

yet i knew not what i was asking 

i wanted to be free 

unburdened by past experiences

that followed on my heels 

always haunting 

i did not know where the journey would lead

to heaven or hell 

the right thing always showed up though

as it does when one is sincere 

and this was not understood by mind ever 

but it felt right deep in the heart 

where words do not touch

so the current of grace pushed the soul onward 

into greater depths that began to take away

the shadow pictures that were once held as truth

and it feels as if nothing ever happened

though the body endured many things it seems
the pure soul has not been soiled at all
by any experience no matter how good or bad
beyond words is this grace
that comes this way...

when i sought myself here in the light 

i found myself not as i was 

but completely whole

undying in itself 

what an amazing thing 

that this purity was here all along 

keep the mind?

keep the mind
if you choose 

but underneath there lies

a beautiful clarity

that is your birthright 

to come into

it is not that God has kept

this beauty

for only a few

it is that only a few

have the courage

to continue forward 

into the sea of knowledge

that will wash the persona

completely away

to make the light shine 

in fullness and glory

and uncover

deep abiding peace 

that will not be shaken 

but dear ones 

you can always

keep the mind

beauty and peace

souls that cry not of sorrow

but rejoice in the nature of o ne 

are the ones that will be set free

to live a life of beauty and peace

for this is what the heart is made of 

beauty and peace

how are things in your world..

can you tell me of your world?

does it sing of flowing pure waters

and sweet mother of the universe? 

or is it a quick rushing stream of thought and grasping?

what is it friend and how are you? 

i have wanted to know you as your free self

not as a one that is hidden in a world of misgivings

i have wanted to know you as a one of joy, love and light 

as a peaceful presence that seeks no other to be whole

i have not been away from here or set out to find you

for you are here as i am 

free and in yourself as a precious light of all

you are a never ending pure life flow 

this is the way of all that are living 

can you find me here as i am? 

not away from life 

but as a bird of night that flies free over the world of unrest

as a mighty torrent of clean water that runs unencumbered and joyful

can you find me here friend of the heart?

as i am what you are 

existence, consciousness and bliss

no-one at all

full and complete

here ...

maha shanti om 

the seer...

a mind ridden with thought does not know another way 

than itself ...

it cannot know the pure 

or have a home there ever ...

and you cannot understand it as one would something

that feels exterior

because it is yourself and not out there
like a wave that goes on and on...

it is here as the seer

free from thoughts that overshadow

it lives always
as the one SELF

complete
non-dual
o ne

unchanging o ne

people of all walks of life
seek shelter from the way of suffering
even the creatures are not settled within
when night comes
they stay watchful of prowlers and
ones that are a danger
the sea too is in turbulence
when the wind is strong
and mighty
the grasses blow
and the small things run for cover...
even with this play in the heart of all
there is an undying stillness that lives
beyond form and
the passing phases of the world
that appear this way or that to the eye
the one that lives within this pure light..
*the peace that passes understanding*
does not sit as within the usual earthly
condition of woes...
but lives always as brahman
unchanging and free
within all conditions
there is no other to this o ne
and though the activities of the world go on..
as always ...
and the eyes of the o ne register this reality
there is no attachment to it..
or any movement within
to create a world ...
of birth and death
shadow and light...
all of it goes as a dream
like mist on the water..
what remains is a deep well of compassion
mercy
and unobstructive clarity
that is brought to humanity
as an offering of pure love
and light
such a blessing...

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entering deep waters...

mental waves
rise and fall
on the surface of this glorious ocean
that sits deeply real..
when the vision is externalized these waves
appear as all that exists
totally consuming the being and the world manifests
like an eclipse over the moon......
this is how it is when mind overshadows the light...
what is it that will make one sink deeper
dear seeker of heart..
what?
not grasping at the empty risings that point
always to your false self
this way is never to be rested and settled
not a drop of the illusion will set the heart free
as even a single drop of poison makes
the clearest waters impure and unhealthy to consume
it is said rightly in the bible
"He that findeth his life shall lose it:
and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it"
so is the one blessed that surrenders
the inner private world...
and allows grace to wash this most
false show
of *me and mine* away ...
the paradox the sages sing of
mind will never grasp
this simultaneous death and bursting of pure life ..
in one moment...
love this is how it is ...
when grace is allowed to enter
let go friend and
see...

be still

when the mind falls

for even a moment

this is the time to sink in 

and not rise up back into the waves 

that pull one outward 

and create a world

it is this stillness that washes 

away the ego with its false shades

and haunting thoughts..

there is no other way

precious seeker

but to rest in the true essence

as one is walking across a bridge

to get to the side of peace

what a waste to go back again

to the dark lands of unrest

yes?

the ghosts that follow you will

not be turned away easily

what will set them running

is when the lies are laid bare -

and great quietude is entered..

indeed yes

to be free

dear one 

be still

be still...

forever..

as the days come and go 

the sea of freedom lives on in the mystery

that carries not a drop of sorrow

now

it is this light dear

that is the beauty of life

melt into it

as a candle in the heat of the fire

such a rich glow will be given off 

from the depths of the soul

as a most glorious resonance of love 

and peace 

this is the soul fire 

of now

silent shephard

silent sephard
tending to your flock
how beautiful you roam through the meadows of God
and keep a true glow within
how easily your footsteps walk on the earth
as if you are not different from the scenery
so open and spacious
in harmony with nature...

silent shephard
you care for your flock with such love
and devotion
and gentle guiding spirit..
you roam so natural in dress and gait
and talk simple or speak not at all
your band of creatures are so very blessed
to have your company
speak here now of your simple heart
that seeks nothing but to *live* and *be*
and takes not from the soul
but brings an ease and rest
to minds weary ways
sing the song of spirit
so those held within the walls of mind
can be opened..
and live free like the truth inside
speak the words of stillness
so as to make one come to enter in
this refreshing light
and live eternally free
and flow easily..

silent shephard

Lotus..

i cannot tell you that what you think you are
is right
not in any way is this right friend
you are like the jewel of the heart
and the lotus that rises above the mud
to bring fragrance and beauty to a land
of sad ways...
you shine like this indeed
but i have said this in many ways have i not?
and this may sound like yet another
so if you believe it and have faith
along with continuing forward
you will be the one that writes poetry that flows
and quenches dry lips and hearts...
that aides in souls to flower...
but this will not be a thing of your doing
it will just flow...
see now how it is ...

Light...

i came to shake down the shadows

and spare not one single drop of darkness

from the wrath of truth

i came in the way of action 

not prayer, hope or fantasy

i came to break through the walls
that have
shielded the eyes from seeing rightly

i came as a keeper of God

and not one that is to be made into an image
to be glorified

i came as a great light that rests
in the hearts of all

and does not sing pretty songs or shy back
from words that are needed

to set things right

i have no home but this moment

i have no belongings to guard

or any false imaginings to protect

i have not claimed this world as my own

or drawn a line between this and that

for i am only here as this o ne

i am here as a father, sister, son

mother 

and no one at all....  

i am here as air, water, fire, cold stone

and as the ocean, the breeze...

the seeker and the one that haunts

i have no walls to hide behind

or anything to wait for ...

i am all and nothing 

real and naked  

living always without covers

as the o ne
that is here
now...

to lose is the greatest blessing...

so my friend
have you not seen yourself true
for a moment even?
have you fallen back into easy ways
of thought and fantasy?
have you been asleep when the sun is shining
and looked away when grace offered the opportunity
to challenge the mental patterns within?
how is it going in there?
what have you shed to let  die away
and blow with the wind?
it is so much a beautiful thing to lose a little more
of your old self everyday...
to lay it to rest for good...

to lose in this way is the
greatest blessing..
as what fills the emptiness is
light
beauty
joy
and peace
this is so much of beautiful thing...

shanti om

how will you tread?

will you be in this way of yours that comes and goes

for a long time yet

or will you seek out the source of your being

in the heart right now

it is not clear to you as of yet

that you are this light that shines so full

because you grasp at the reflections

and seek to make them real

this is not the way to uncover the perfection of now

so precious lying within and waiting

what then will you take up now

dear one of the heart

the family?, the money?, the plans that 

have been so neatly put in a box?

the possessions that sit and gather dust in 

your room?

what then?

if you are indeed wanting of great peace

why then is it that you continue

to claim the world as your own?
as this is sure to bring great waves
of unrest that do not settle....

it is indeed the mystery of maya

the land and playfield of illusion

that has scattered dust in your eyes

and set you off on a chase

such as this....

when will it be
that you tire of this way

that is to be like a
room of mirrors
and smoke
reflecting no true
substance?...

that which lives as purity has not a 

name or face 

nor does it carry a single drop of 

the personal....

it will not reach out to you except

within your unrest...
so as to say within this transient
place there is no balance
or serenity to be found...
so then my dear

how will you tread from here?

in the shade of *your* wandering alleys?

or in the light of *now* that is to 

bring you away from 

your own destruction...

and uncover great peace eternal
that is unchanging
and sturdy as a mountain range
untouched by the shadow nature
of mind
and forever anchored within
perfection....

how will you tread?

om shanti

there is no magic pill...

what is to be done 

when the end of life is near?

there will not be a compassionate voice that whispers

sweet words to you

or pats you on the back for all the good deeds done

or gently takes from you the suffering mind

that has been so greatly guarded

there will not be a consoler to listen to 

your cries and pleading calls to wait!, stop!

i am not ready...  

may another breath be upon my lungs and 

another wave of strength be upon my legs so as 

to stand sturdy for even a few more hours...

please!

there will be nothing forthcoming to 

bring the body back to what it was or the 

life back as it was cherished so dearly...

your cries will not be taken into account

no....

for death is completely impartial and all 

that has been so very dreaded inside

as the thinker has thought ---

*oh my, a day will come when this very life will end*

and this day *will* indeed arrive and 

so very swiftly too...

my friend, there is no time to wait as 

cannot it be seen that all is taken eventually?

cannot this be seen that the body sinks quickly 

and carries no peace that is lasting

and the sons and daughters so cherished 

grow and go their own way....

the decaying bits of life on the pavement under

the feet and the chill air arriving after the warmth

of yesterday....

all changing so swiftly 

so how then how can you deny that what you hold as 

your own will remain?

or that you indeed own anything at all?

and my dear,

when will you truly begin to let go of the 

conditionings that hold you so captive?

if not now, it will not come at the end easily

not in any way imaginable

is this not enough that shouts to you

begin!

shed the wandering ways that create a false

cover and hold you in a blind way...

loose it now and start to *see*

do not feel that there is so much time 

to wait

because there will not be a magic pill

or a sweet word that makes it all right...

one needs to do the work of *seeing*

the false ways that are driving...

and sink into the pure moment...

rest there without grasping

let go of seeing your life and what is in it

as your own....

for this is what creates fear and unrest...

as it is known deeply within that this

is indeed not true

because nothing can be held for long...

so go into that fear

and find it holds no substance 

and cannot keep you in a grip

keep going 

and do not stop until the peace that 

passes all understanding is revealed 

and it *will* be 

if one continues

without looking back

and without pining away at 

what is to be lost...

because in the end nothing is 

lost 

but the suffering mind

and life continues to flow

in its pure state

minus the *me* center

so may you begin friend

as this is the only means to
everlasting peace
there is no other way
not through family, friend or any
other...
only through diving deep within the soul
will this truth be revealed
that is to never leave
or bring a single drop of suffering
oh friend
how glorious is this?

may you begin...

maha shanti om

why chase worldly drama?

if you are in the way of making something
exceptional of your life
then why are you off into worldly drama?
there is nothing that will be found there that
eases your suffering...
the *truth* alone
is what will take the ache away
that has come from
grasping at shadows
it is a very sad thing that a one that is
to be desirous of liberation
continues to buy into and chase
worldly happenings ...
as this will not bring the goal
of freedom near...
it will only serve to hold blinders in place..
what takes place in the world
is indeed filled with emotion
in every direction,,,,
this is not to be held as the most attractive
because to be enmeshed within it
will not take away a single tear ..
which does not mean that one is not
sad or happy within the moment of
certain events
and will not respond to them in
a way that is true
it simply means that to keep *cranking*
on an event or happening is to lose
what is taking place in this moment...
and to lose clear *seeing*-
(which is what will maintain
clarity and balance )
it is the best help to all of nature
and humanity when one rests
settled in the heart within quietude
and silence no matter the conditions
then the words or actions that come
are right and well
and will speak to the situation with
balance and sincerity
and will bring a shift to those that
are open...
and what the
world is so desperately
in need of is *balance*...
so, friends of the heart
be real and just
be what you are without all
the drama...
the  world patterns will play out
as this has been in motion
from time beginning...
what is to be done lies
within --
and then what comes forward
from this center of being
will be for the best
there is no doubt...

May all be well --

maha shanti om

Free will

your drama and story are not heard

in the heart

they are simply empty playings out...

that echo in your ear only

and you listen

but you do not have to

this is the gift of free will

There is a knowing within

there is a knowing within

that will return one home

as easily as the river finds the sea

as easily as the bud gives rise to the flower

as easily as the leaf falls with wind 

and spirals to the soft earth

as easily as the child finds the mother in the crowd

as easily as the water flows down the mountain

and the rains plop on the green leaves

as easily as the sun reflects on the still lake

there is a knowing within

that will return one home