current of grace..

resting in the heart

i sank deep as a one that was lost 

to this beautiful light 

i found that i had not been as i thought 

but something that was completely different

not i, me or anything like this 

but whole in perfection always 

this is the end that is the beginning 

i prayed to be made whole 

and to be a light to humanity

yet i knew not what i was asking 

i wanted to be free 

unburdened by past experiences

that followed on my heels 

always haunting 

i did not know where the journey would lead

to heaven or hell 

the right thing always showed up though

as it does when one is sincere 

and this was not understood by mind ever 

but it felt right deep in the heart 

where words do not touch

so the current of grace pushed the soul onward 

into greater depths that began to take away

the shadow pictures that were once held as truth

and it feels as if nothing ever happened

though the body endured many things it seems
the pure soul has not been soiled at all
by any experience no matter how good or bad
beyond words is this grace
that comes this way...

when i sought myself here in the light 

i found myself not as i was 

but completely whole

undying in itself 

what an amazing thing 

that this purity was here all along 

if the seas parted...

if the seas parted
and the land became a great paradise of awesome wonder
would you fall to your knees in deep joy and gratitude?
would you sit still and really *see* what is here in this moment?
would you imbibe it deeply
as if there were no tomorrow?
what will it take dear
to open your eyes?
this way of mind robs one of seeing rightly
and makes what is here to
look faded and not well at times...
this is so not true
what is here is nothing short of beauty that lives and sings now, now
and again now...
there is nothing more glorious dear seeker than this moment,,,
you can see or not see...
but still life is pure and flowing always ...
always....

purity..

a lesson dear soul
is that the pure waters are to rinse away
the shadow mind
and take from you what you guard so
dearly that creates
a suffering inside
as the light is always whole
so are the forces that come in the way of clearing
deeply intelligent in nature
is the current of grace
so do not sit on the side of the waters
that are living
step in friend
see what is to become of it
put your being into the hands of grace
and see what unfolds
you will not know until you do this
right?
yes verily
you will only know
by the direct experience

now come
freshen up in the rain
that falls in purity
to clean the soul...

om shanti

Do not wait...

in the lost shadows
where will you make of yourself a home
that is stable and sturdy?
will you race into the waves that come and go
so swiftly so as to lose yourself in the chase
that really go nowhere but back again
where you started?
or will you come further out where the shore
is set at a distance
and the ships bounce up and down on the
rising ocean that speak of a substance
much deeper?

when is the time
that you leave the place that holds you in a trance
and step into the unknown depths of your very soul?

this evening friend
i have come for you in this very time
that is the best time to take a step out into the dark
open night
and be what you are made of in heart
and not to go into yourself in mind like the ones
that are so very lost in their actions and voice
so as to be not even well in body and spirit

i cannot tell you anything but to come
now and do not wait
my time is done in the land of the lost
i am so not able to go back there
i can call to you only from this *now*
as this is where you reside as well in spirit
it is true
i cannot speak to you any other way

oh soul
if there was a way to say that you are well
inside
i would say it rightly, but your ears will not hear of it
or your tongue taste of it
until you step in...
the dark night is moving in hauntingly
and so pressing down
as to say
now!
this time my dear
or when?
leave the shade of your own making
and be yourself for once
as this is the way you are meant to be
within a heart
and mind
that is true

this night
is the time and no other
so full in beauty is this soul of yours
that lights up the night sky in glory
this is your true name and calling
not any other
oh dear
come
do not wait

now is the time....

the wings that will carry you home...

the wings that will carry you home
are to come to life
when you let go
or else there is no lifting off
if there is a holding
on of the world with
its collections and its
comings and goings

the wings will fly
when the heart is purified
by the joy of truth
and the joy of *being*
without adding your
life story to it
then the beautiful feathers
and strong delicate weaving
of the bones can
be cleaned off so as to shine
with beauty and strength

so is the soul to be strengthened
with the imbibing of truth
and light
i cannot tell you otherwise
for this would not be real
and would not be what
will truly help you

may you rise then
and shake this way of being
in the shadows with
thoughts that haunt
and follow you
shake them off and
begin to see what is truly here
that is of another nature
entirely

then the wings will fly
and carry you
home
to yourself
which is pure peace
and joy
without the heaviness
of the world....

A light so glorious

pure
undiluted truth
so glorious
so sweet

that it melts the souls that walk by

and they cannot say what they came to say

if they are sincere and honest in heart

when they speak, it is to say thank you

for showing me what is true and right

thank you for showing me the way out

of my locked cage

i will go renewed and drink of the waters

that are pure 

i will be something that rises in beauty

like the sun

i will smell like the sweet earth

and put to my lips only words that bring joy 

and revive hearts that ache

i will be what i was meant to be
the SELF always

You have come

I wondered when you would come

the gates have always been open

and the fresh breeze flows without

interruption  

i have been waiting to see

when you 

my friend

would sing of life

and come into the beauty of yourself

this has been such a dream

and now you have come to live in the o ne

what is it that has held you away so long?

night has fallen so many times

and i have waited here under the lovely branches

that hang fruit so heavy

i have waited and watched for your steps

round the bend

but my dear it is now the time to laugh with you

and sing of the soul that is always here

you know it now

and i am so happy

Precious commander

Precious commander
be the truth
because you live to make
things right
you live to love the truth
and bring the souls that ache
to your breast

You come to the ones that
open
you bring the glory of your
commandments that teach
holiness and wipe out despair

You love no one
but are love as it is
because you are the maker of beauty
and the destroyer of shadow

Wake up

Are you sleeping?
are you dreaming?
the land of here and now
still sits as it always has
and your curtains are drawn
Is it that you don't love the light?
or that you want to fight alone
the demons that haunt you
in the dark

There is another way to live
In the depths of the soul
there is a door
that is open
and if you go to it
and step thru it
there will be a shaking up of your
world with its dreams
and shadows

But like the sturdy tree in the wind
what will blow away
will only be the little
things of mental clinging
that have crowded you in
what is left is the trunk
rooted to the earth
it is not going anywhere...

Turn your boat around

How long will you sail your boat through the waters

of duality

there is much to play with here 

in this land

but don't you see how it all slips through your fingers

and turns into something else 

from moment to moment

don't you see that the most beautiful sunny day

and the most glorious sunset

only last for a brief time

the child grows up and is gone

overnight

it seems

the world and life take all things away

because none if it can be possessed 

it never was yours to hold....

If you could be there

when the soul that is dying takes

the last breath

you would see the difference in the eyes of one

that has not let go the grasp on life

compared to the one that has completed the work here

and is ready to move on

with a heart of surrender shining

what a difference

in the eyes of these......  

It is true that you die how you live

so why wait friend

until the lights are going out

and the body is bent over with the ache of age

God will take it all anyway

All that you hold dear is bound to perish

sooner or later....

why wait...

release the grip now

turn your boat around and sail

into the sunrise of pure eternal life

the open sky is there to greet you

and grace will light your way

through the rough waters

if your heart is open

the right guide will come

to carry you to completion

why wait,

turn your boat around...