current of grace..

resting in the heart

i sank deep as a one that was lost 

to this beautiful light 

i found that i had not been as i thought 

but something that was completely different

not i, me or anything like this 

but whole in perfection always 

this is the end that is the beginning 

i prayed to be made whole 

and to be a light to humanity

yet i knew not what i was asking 

i wanted to be free 

unburdened by past experiences

that followed on my heels 

always haunting 

i did not know where the journey would lead

to heaven or hell 

the right thing always showed up though

as it does when one is sincere 

and this was not understood by mind ever 

but it felt right deep in the heart 

where words do not touch

so the current of grace pushed the soul onward 

into greater depths that began to take away

the shadow pictures that were once held as truth

and it feels as if nothing ever happened

though the body endured many things it seems
the pure soul has not been soiled at all
by any experience no matter how good or bad
beyond words is this grace
that comes this way...

when i sought myself here in the light 

i found myself not as i was 

but completely whole

undying in itself 

what an amazing thing 

that this purity was here all along 

day break

weary wanderer

day break is drawing nigh

the boat of your journey is coming into shore 

where the land sings of beauty and peace

it is on the horizon now

not far from your vision

there waiting as a sturdy ground of being

in which the tree of knowledge lives 

with its roots strong in the earth 

and the tiger of sense objects roams no more

where the non-dual jewel sits still

shining wondrous sparkling on the 

clear water

the lotus blooms in its fullness here

the fragrance floats across the seas

follow it friend 

no matter how rough the waters get

or how inviting the whirlpools of thought are 

keep following this current of grace 

it will pull you in

to the heart of yourself

where you will be lost to this light

for all eternity

the elixir

wellspring of life
the living waters have come
to bring fresh flowering to the soul
that has been parched within worldly ways
the offering is one of joy that has no desire within
but only exists as freedom
for the seeker there is nothing better
than to imbibe in this beauty of grace
that lives
it tastes only of the non-dual and harmless heart
it has no name or face
but is what your soul is made of
in the depths
under the cover of externals
bring forward this refreshment to your lips
and in your heart it will enter
to rinse away the creative force of maya
that stings the being with duality
here is the elixir blessed soul
the truth
may it sink in deep and well
to make of your mind one that is moved
towards the good
and make of your being a mighty presence
that speaks words of love, light and joy
that are real
and unwavering
as the oceans and hearty forests
bursting with life rich and lush
flooding the spirit with light
resonating as om
and deep peace
that is undying
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seekers prayer..

dear lord of all,
make me not sink into the dark...
for i have not lived as a saint or a mindful one
though i attempt it
i fail
i have died so many times and been reborn
and have been swept away into lands of fantasy and grasping
i have not wanted to go like this
but cannot find my moorings in this mind that roams
can i sit here dear light in the shining heart
and move not away from myself as truth
as i have journeyed so very far
and not yet tasted the ripe fruit
i have been caught in pressing desires within
and shifted away from the moment
blessed light
reveal the truth here inside as i am so weary
reveal the living waters of my heart that shines as a prince of peace,
undivided pure consciousness
and joy that is living
shine within and dissolve the seeds of sorrow,
clear these eyes of misperception
melt the feeling of separation
direct this mind towards the good and freedom
everlasting...
seal this heart to thine ..
so there is only stillness
joy and peace
shanti mind
0

night is calling

this night sits so rich as a precious gift

and the day arises with a new possibility
beloved seeker, say rightly that you are a free bird in the sky

to spread forth your wings and rise high

as the night will not take you up in its arms

you must use those wings dear child
and fly away from the call of mind

the glowing moon is beckoning come hither 

be a bright star to me this evening

we two can sing as one in heavens blanket of glory

and not come under the spell of the world

we two can be like the most high above the play

and passing show as two waves that have washed together 

so as not be felt as distinct and separate

then the troubles of the world are like a false making

that never really happened

rise friend, become yourself now

for night is calling ...

no turning back...

i did not live like this always
within the blessing of light
and in the company of the good..
i had my day and time in the world
with its entanglements and empty hopes
and dreams
i did not come to the path with an understanding
of the ways of spirituality
or heavy with study of different paths
i was more like a one
burdened by experiences in the world
and haunted by traumas of the past...
which is true of many for sure
so what can be said
but if the heart is pure in motive and desire
that even under this heaviness of shadow
carried
there is a clear current of grace that draws
one towards what is right
and beneficial
of course there is always the choice to take
what is offered by grace that is there to move one forward
or turn it away
and go back to the familiar world of never ending
struggle....
the ones that will enter into the depths of the soul
are indeed the ones that move forward at all cost --
with this steady determination in heart
one can get through even the very rough roads
and come out better for it...
there is no doubt of this...
and as the ego continues to get worn away by the
grace of Guru..
there will be a time when ego rears its head no more...
this is the priceless blessing that comes to one that
continues forward  --

om shanti

silent shephard

silent sephard
tending to your flock
how beautiful you roam through the meadows of God
and keep a true glow within
how easily your footsteps walk on the earth
as if you are not different from the scenery
so open and spacious
in harmony with nature...

silent shephard
you care for your flock with such love
and devotion
and gentle guiding spirit..
you roam so natural in dress and gait
and talk simple or speak not at all
your band of creatures are so very blessed
to have your company
speak here now of your simple heart
that seeks nothing but to *live* and *be*
and takes not from the soul
but brings an ease and rest
to minds weary ways
sing the song of spirit
so those held within the walls of mind
can be opened..
and live free like the truth inside
speak the words of stillness
so as to make one come to enter in
this refreshing light
and live eternally free
and flow easily..

silent shephard

sannyas/sadhu life

if you want to cling to the past 

then it is best to go and chase those things

because what the wandering sadhus are 

really meant to do is wander

alone and naked

not pick up the chains of the world

and try to find refuge there

the sadhu is like the meat of the seeking

he is what the writings of the rishis speak about

as being lords of themselves and not

wearing the robes for the wrong reason

to flaunt about

and gossip 

which we see so much of 

what a terrible thing to wear the robes

and not truly have the heart of peace and 

seeking in joy and wanting to really know

this is such a shame to see

the sadhu's staff and rod are the holdings 

of the truth that guide him like a light

they bring him steadiness and joy

they hold him upright so he can walk in the 

land of the shadows and not be afraid

his earthly wear is orange

which is the color of burning the dross

this is so glowing that the eyes cannot see it

easily because the heart is the one that fires

he walks barefoot and sometimes naked

because he is like a newborn babe

he is fresh and new

and released from his past entanglements

he does not worship at an altar

the open sky and land are his home

where he wanders

he does not stop to rest unless he 

has to 

so he keeps up with nature

and stays in pace with her wondrous changes

one may come by and kiss his feet

but this is not for him

it is for the devotion of the soul to find 

a way into the heart where the sadhu is

and is not meant to worship his form

but to love the truth

a sadhu's body is not thought about

to him

it is like anything else of the earth

and is not to be worshipped or worried about

he does not sit on pretty thrones

he sits on rocks or the hard ground

and does not care if his body is sore

or bruised

he lays his head on mother earth

and sleeps a few hours 

then wanders again

what is his name?

-he has none

what his family?

none

what is his bread?

the earth and what is given to him by others

what are his questions?

- what is truth?

-what is real?

-what is my true nature?

how does he go about finding it

-by being still

how does he live?

-alone

how does he dwell?

-in caves or wherever he finds himself

how does he know when he has completed?

-there is no one left to ask anything

how does he find God?

-by being still

how does he worship?

-by loving his own heart and seeing God everywhere

how does he know what love is?

-by being love

how does he know what kindness is?

-by being kind and honest with all of nature

how does he know when the light is near?

-because he cannot find himself like he was

how does he know the beginning?

-by finding the end

how does he know the end?

-by finding the beginning

what is his true name?

-the absolute

what is his joy?

-God

what is his mighty sword?

-the sword of knowledge

what is his birthright?

-to know his true nature

when is his mind pure?

-when the shadows rise no more

is it true that he dies and is never reborn?

-yes, if his mind is completely still

what can i do to be like this?

-let go of attachments

what can i do about fear?

-stop thinking of yourself

what if i am a householder?

-then your heart is in the home

what about truth in the home?

-find it in love with your family

what will i do if i live without knowing the truth?

-you will have another chance