the best seat in the house (revised)...

5:00 AM

Vision: Mother Mary floating in the cosmos ... she puts her hand on my forehead and brushes it gently as if to shut my eyes... then a large vision of a cross emanating light luminescent light, light..

then what is heard in my mind

Who is Siddhananda and i see a reflection of this form looking back shrugging her shoulders, like *i don't know*..
then this poem:

Does the cosmos know who Siddhananda is?
the cosmos does not know who Siddhananda is
Does Mary know who Siddhananda is?
Mary does not know who Siddhananda is
Does Christ know who Siddhananda is?
Christ does not know who Siddhananda is
Does Guru now who Siddhananda is?
Guru does not know who Siddhananda is
Does Buddha know who Siddhananda is?
Buddha does not know who Siddhananda is
Do the angels know who Siddhananda is?
The angels do not know who Siddhananda is
Does the earth know who Siddhananda is?
The earth does not know who Siddhananda is
Do the stars know who Siddhananda is?
The stars do not know who Siddhananda is
Do the heavens know who Siddhananda is?
The heavens do not know who Siddhananda is
Does the sun know who Siddhananda is?
The sun does not know who Siddhananda is
Who is Siddhananda?
I don't know

hearing next phase is beginning....

there is an image of cherry blossoms against a full moon
Mary is here and hearing Christ is here too....

7:54 AM

some visions still coming ...
most of yesterday did not feel the imagery strong -- so much less so than the days prior..
then, what i saw were my feet dangling down -- different shoes were on my feet (as the different forms lived in and lives walked).. such clear, sharp imagery as before -- there was a hole in the rocky substance i was standing on that opened up a bit with light penetrating through...
then, my vision was brought up close to the hand of it felt like a woman, she wore stunning gold on her fingers, brilliant gold .. her attire was rich, brightly jeweled, opulent, lux are the words that come to mind... this imagery is much clearer, brighter than real life...
i was able to zoom in on this imagery as before when doing the work and feel and *see* each curve, cut, shimmer and vibration of beauty through my form, mind and spirit...
since not feeling the imagery for even part of a day, it was like, "wow, i could see like that!" almost as if i had forgotten the feeling like, "there it is!" as if i had found again a part of my way that seemed so normal (as it had been going on for so long - waving in and out for years)...  same as if i have brown hair -- no big deal in a way.. just kind part of who i am... but now seeing it again like this, it felt amazing and cherished in a different way entirely...

back to the rock imagery, I heard, if you go in there Siddhananda you will lose everything (in terms of these cosmic visions and such).. this hole opened and it was felt that i was floating within it ..

i am sorry, i do not remember the sequence of these visions, but hopefully you get the feel.. i am writing it somewhat for myself too for when this *seeing* in this way is lost, i can read it again and remember this time...

then, some imagery came through of remembrances...
of *seeing* brilliant diamonds, perfectly cut with reflections of the world dancing within it .. zooming in on experiences of souls on the other side, their lives, what they were wearing, their countenance and having a peak at their internal emotional life...
as well as being able to read the book of their soul.. the *feeling* of it being *right there*, so bright and clear...
being deeply immersed in the scenery of nature, so glorious...
as if being at the heartbeat of mother earth, rich and dark with her fine way that gives the gift of the seasons...the gift of earth energy of love and light, birth, death, decay and regeneration - so generous in her giving -- at the center of it cleansing, cleansing, always cleansing...
having the honor of being brought into the cave of spirit where the lingum sits dark and mysterious, rich in feeling and depth and love ... and going right into that lingum too as a doorway opened and i was taken there to view the passing of scenery in such a graceful manner and how it relates to the journey of awakening...
*seeing* new fresh growth and brightening of precious life occur right before the eyes in a  miraculous way...
feeling the dance of bright souls in their joy and transformation...
being taken through mystic doorways of light and beauty so vivid, angelic, heart wrenchingly beautiful and precious in it's feeling, love and grace...
viewing the sky, the clouds, the waterfalls (clear and rinsing), the birds flight, sunrise and set ... the ocean waves crashing up close and personal...
viewing and flying through above and below and within the earth mountains as soft light breaks through.. dreamlike and magical...
and of course seeing the moon, the moon -- with all it's dynamic phases and changes that give bright mystery to the sky daily...
and also brought into the cave of death where horrors occur and hearts and spirits are left broken, yet drenched still in grace through this showing...
all of these scenes viewed up close, crystal clear and vivid in their dance...

oh grace, you have given me the best seat in the house of this fine viewing... you have given me the best seat in the house, of this i am beyond appreciative
as always it is not my will, but thy will -- and i do desire for this journey to complete -- if it means being without these visions, so be it ...


now the curtain is closing on this show slowly, little by little .. one day i will read this writing and look back and say really, i was given the privilege of seeing all of that?... how heart achingly beautiful, strange and mysterious...