shaman vision

10/29/2015 thursday

these are some of the current happenings
awhile back i saw the pendulum spinning
in my minds eye and it spun on my
forehead and heart and was absorbed there
since then, an answer comes to anything
asked internally (like when using the pendulum)
in an energetic playing out of yes or no
or words or images
virtually any answer, anything that one wants
to know is right there
i have not purposely engaged this process
much at all
although questions just arise and then the
answer....
mostly just about regular things or
spiritual journey questions
or interpretation of the moment
i am not interested in delving deeply into
this or that quest
and most of what was asked
is already known
within
but it comes this way
this is something though that i am
not giving energy too
and it is beginning to fall away bit by bit


before this vision below, i saw an image
of the pendulum (meaning the internal
one) and i flung it forcefully
from my hands
and there was a clapping motion with the hands
like i am rid of this now
and it was flung away from me
pushed away
and my face turned away as that is done
and not needed
now this is the next vision
i do not know what will come next
i am only desiring peace and stillness
but there is still quite a flow off and on
of visions and shifts in consciousness
what needs to come, comes

i was hearing that i am a shaman
yesterday especially
i am not feeling that this is me
as with the psychic thing, but it
came and now here is the vision
with it

early this morning a shaman type
master sat near me
he looked native american in his dress
and appearance
his face was weathered and of the ancient
way
he wanted to initiate me
into his way of healing and seeing and
knowing
i really was not interested, but this is true
of all of these comings in many ways
and regardless of whether i was interested or not
(which is the way it always goes)
i was taken into the feeling of a shamanic voyage
i was brought downward into a darkness
there was a rope type of thing there
then, there was a tunnel that came into view
and rose upward
and i was taken in there
i don't remember what came next, not a bad feeling
at all though
while this shaman energy was here (and i have felt his
presence before), what drifted thru consciousness was
imagery of animals, mountains, sun
and the raw feeling of the natural world
there were clouds and breaks of light too
there were trance like states at times that again
was not at all negative or feeling bad
i could feel the energy of shaman which is like
being a seer, but also a healer (shaman means
seeing in the dark)
there is much in there that is not of interest such
as soul retrieval and different consciousness states
this is not where this is going, but balance is where it
is going
i did hear some things such as crystal clear clarity
and then i saw an image of teepees that were lined up
and burning to the ground, there was one pointed focus
during this
i did not engage with this shaman
i did not delve into anything about it .. this is just what flowed
then i saw an image of a car that was driving away
the back of it was open and there was a light that shined
my consciousness was following it, again spontaneous, not
of my will
then there was a relaxed surrender and light opening within
consciousness that was easy and harmonious
and a white lotus appeared that was lovely, pure in it's being
it floated across the vision like a vision of love and joy and
beauty, it was followed in one pointed focus
there was an ethereal trailing light that followed it like a tail
this went on for awhile, quite nice and refreshing and
easy to enjoy...

I did tell Guruji about this vision. She is always so wonderful to speak to
as she honors all of spirit fully. Though i do as well, i get tired of all the phenomena. She said
that one never knows where all this will lead as it may seem like suffering now, one never knows how it will bloom and benefit others. So i share this journey too with others and though maybe you feel now it is so very foreign, but one day something will open and you will know too of different ways of seeing and feeling and you will be helped by what is given. I am so grateful to have a Guru that is in full support of the spirit journey as one could feel very isolated and get off balance so easily with all the visions that flow.. and Guruji always puts experiences in relation to how it will benefit others.. she is an angel of grace ...

until next time ...


thank you for reading and good evening to all