pure waters...

never has it been said that you were not whole
but in your own mind
and this is not what is to be regarded as true
so made of dust is this thought that you
are *not right inside*
that it is to die away when the sun rises
never to come in and make of your reality
a one that is divided again
if you are not in the way of seeing this gem now
there will be a moment that you will
and it will be seen that mind has *never* been
it has simply been an energy that was grasped
to as real and living --
so in this o ne heart that lives as eternal
there is no  such thing as
*you* or *me*
there is no way to speak of it
that will help you to see
dear
if you could taste a fruit by simply speaking
of it then one could say yes...
but this is entirely false --
you are to set yourself in the waters and directly
experience this reality -
to know what it truly tastes like --
and this alone is what will wash the ache
of duality away....
so be sturdy beloved one
and do not tangle with the wayward energies or attempt
to find anything of truth in the shaded byways of mind
come stay in this way of light --
and call to rest all that is not settled
once and for all...

the seeds of truth...

when is the dawn of freedom to appear?
in winter the seeds lay dormant as pure life
resting in the earth that is to bring nutrients and
rich food to that which waits ...
so also the pure life force is to give nourishment
to the seeds of truth that are planted
in the heart
when placed there with sincerity and desire for
fulfillment...
when resistance is let go of
the mind is purified by grace
there is no lasting benefit in gathering
and collecting knowledge about how things appear
or should be....
this only adds clutter to the search
and what is needed is a clearing away...
the dance of spring never fails to come
with its bright rejoicing of colorful life
and wondrous blossoming of growth...
and after this turn
the glory of summer with life opening
at its fullest...
this is the way of the heart within the journey
it takes time to uncover the purity that rests within
do not place your energy into wondering *when* or *how*
or even more obstructive *what have i done or  not done*...
as this type of bemoaning and pondering are sturdy food
for ego so as to keep it with a fasthold on the soul
just as there is nothing that you do my friend
to make the earth come to life or die away
the rains and winds of grace take care of that...
all one can do is rest in the heart and
engage the practices
letting go completely as to the outcome...
be settled with what is* here or not here* without
clinging to either....
slowly the seeds will sprout inside and come to life
as to overshadow the play of mind
and eventually this energy of mind will dissolve away..
into the pure silence of *IS*....

stay with what is true...

if it were the time of the golden era
where the sages and sadhus freely
travelled about in the open glory of nature
the sky, wind and earth as home
no locks or doors to hide behind...
just the wide boundless expanse in which
to wander freely....
then it would be a completely different atmosphere
than what is the feeling now
so much has happened that makes this world
a hotbed for crime and untruth
and a place of great unrest

even with this friend i tell you be true
within
seek to destroy the mask of the false (ego)
and do not sit in fear of what may happen next in the world
certainly the happenings are sad indeed and
ring of such misguided actions
and imbalanced minds lacking in honor...
yet there remains within as always the pure core that
can never be touched by any thought or deed..
(no matter how holy or unholy)..
this non-dual consciousness is still the same
and will never change even if a million devastating
disasters hit at once --
it still remains as it is *ONE* --
and can never not be --
it is pure everlasting peace that carries no shadow...

so i urge you friends to not be dampened down
by the actions of the world as it is now..
and to continue with a light heart and deep seeking
that will bring you to fresh waters
as this is the only way humanity can be helped
...one being at a time....
to look outward in hope of repairing what is now so
very broken is not going to solve anything
in a lasting way...
returning to keeping focus on the scriptures
and Guru's pointings
imbibing in the direct and sharp words
of this wisdom is the only true
means of breaking thru and finding lasting peace

that will aide the world just by being what it is --
a pure essence that carries not a single drop
of unrest and internal war within it...
this in itself is what is to be the greatest help
to a suffering humanity...
so please friends
leave the world alone and continue forward
within the light of the teachings as guide
and the basic precepts of honesty, transparency and
integrity as the foundation in which your life
is lived...
this will keep forward momentum going in full..
and give a chance for the false to be
cleared away
for good...


maha shanti om

to lose is the greatest blessing...

so my friend
have you not seen yourself true
for a moment even?
have you fallen back into easy ways
of thought and fantasy?
have you been asleep when the sun is shining
and looked away when grace offered the opportunity
to challenge the mental patterns within?
how is it going in there?
what have you shed to let  die away
and blow with the wind?
it is so much a beautiful thing to lose a little more
of your old self everyday...
to lay it to rest for good...

to lose in this way is the
greatest blessing..
as what fills the emptiness is
light
beauty
joy
and peace
this is so much of beautiful thing...

shanti om

prior to the story...

it was told to you that you are so
much like a beautiful bird
or like a swan
a paramahansa
a sage or a brilliant light
or like a one that is completely out of suffering
and forever unburdened by body and mind..
it was told to you rightly
by the means of crystal clear stillness
prior to the story...
do you remember?

coming thru the waves...

as the shadows rise no more
the shaft of light penetrates
that calls to one
come home
be free and do not roam
anymore

love,
light of yourself in the heart
and sing of what is real
do not be a way that is of the dark
and impure
like the bright ones that have come
to live in this land
but do not go outside in the streets
of mind and do not race into the
seas of misery
or reside where it is shallow
like a beautiful creature
that lives to be seen for what it is
amazing and wondrous
made sturdy
and right with all of life
so is this heart of yours
so very much made perfectly
and so very much made as a light
unto itself
not to be shaded over by grasping ways
and desiring of something other
all the time..

what do you think of this friend?

have you not sat with it awhile

and rolled it around on your tongue

have you not brought the possibility

of coming *out* into your heart

or have you put it out of your head for now

and simply felt that you are not 

in the right way to be free...

this is not the way of a warrior

that is to go thru the waves 

and rise anew and bring the land

that haunts to rest

if you put this truth aside and leave it

it will not grow in you 

it will be covered over and not seen

so how will this set things right?

no matter your condition or place now

you can begin inside and sooner 

or later there will be a shift

however small or large that will

make your reality feel different

more open and alive 

or even more up in your face so 

as to be able to see it...

this is a good start...

anything is better than the same old

droning mental chatter that goes nowhere

love, 

do you not think so?

Be yourself in FULL --

the truth is not popular
this is for sure
it does not cater to egos whims and desires
it comes on strong and hits hard
and is meant only for those that have enough
strength within so as not to retreat
and take cover back within the familiar world
in which there is no true internal challenge

the ones that speak truth are not on stage
to be a persona that is *liked* or popular
the impersonal (truth)  does not care if it pleases or not
or care if it gathers crowds or
receives praise or slander
no matter the external conditions
it does not shift what it *is*

in the least...
which is pure, undiluted, raw and without
covers

to move beyond mental patterns
there needs to be a shaking up of the internal world
so closely guarded...
this is what the Guru is to embody...
the fires that purify --
and these fires can and will burn deep
it is not pleasant --
it is like a wound being abraded --
it hurts
but in the end brings lasting healing
which the bandaid solutions of ego will
never, ever bring....
and the majority are in search of the short-lived
pleasures to be gathered in life...
oblivious to the light of the Lord that lies within
this is called ignorance or *suffering*
the two are one in the same ..

truly the one that comes in with a sturdy form
a decent amount of intelligence..
and is lucky enough to have food and shelter ...
has enough to go forward and find the treasure
that lies within
the one that does not inquire into the truth about the self
is a life that will continue in circle
and come back to relive that which was neglected..
there is no getting out of it friends

may this New Year bring a resolution
to keep going in earnest (if you have already started the search)
if you are just standing in the wings looking in
with idle curiosity
may you be roused to take steps forward...

come now friend
make of your life one that has true worth...
be yourself in FULL
this time around...

om shanti