like White Tara

she lived in india in the time when seeking 

was sacred 

she would sit on the hard earth with the sadhus 

and be in deep quietude that was effortless 

when the men or women walked by her 

they would scoff inside themselves or whisper 

how could she be serious sitting there like she does 

she is just playing and not making progress

but she paid no mind to these remarks 

and sat still as a mountain, majestic and perfect 

she put her heart ever forward and knew inside 

without a doubt she was not the form 

that was being looked at and judged 

she was beyond this and rested in the heart of all

which was undying 

once a man came by her and said, 

how is it that you are born a woman and feel

you can reach enlightenment like the men?

and she did not answer this man quickly

or even change her appearance 

but remained still as the pure waters 

of ganga that race about 

and cleanse all that come into it with 

a heart of love

she sat in purity like this 

and finally said, listen to what i haveto say

oh man,

you are not your body or your mind 

because you feel you are these things 

then you see me as being a female body

that is only this 

but i am here to tell you that my heart rests 

eternally in God's light and i will be back again and again

as a female that is awake

to aide in humanity finding that which lies beyond 

suffering 

if this is not in agreement with your concept of how 

realization should look

then i suggest you find a sage that does meet your standards 

and then come back to me and say that you have found 

the perfect Guru that will speak and affirm all that you want to hear

and all that you want to believe 

and tell me then if you are out of suffering 

for if i have tested your beliefs, then this is a good thing 

because those beliefs of yours are faulty and untrue 

you have been deceived by believing that i am a body 

and that you are one too

and this is why you are not peaceful inside yourself 

oh man, 

i have been to the heaven and hell realms 

i have sat in the barren caves alone and contemplated the self 

i have been to vishnuloka and have entered the sublime mountains 

that are of the lord's dwelling 

i have walked into the ganges and sank deep many many times over

i have birthed many children in kingly abodes and simple dwellings 

i have praised shiva and kali and krishna

i have prayed to the heavens with joy and deep devotion

i have lived alone for many a day and year

i have lived in the company of souls of many varieties and ways 

i have entered austerities where my feet bled from walking the plains 

of india alone and without a single companion to be found 

i have ate the dry earth and slept on the cold ground with bugs crawling on my skin

and woke up to pain of body and mind 

oh man,

how i have lived so so many lives seeking and you say to me 

that i cannot be realized because this form is female

tell to me, what you have found in yourself that is pure 

that is not of thought or of the world 

and i will listen soul

but if you have only to walk by and judge, then you are not in truth

or any discernment that is of value 

how can you see rightly when your mind is so mistakenly taking in only

appearances and making judgements? 

so go your way and be in your judgements 

and leave me here to be within peace that is unwavering 

and she sat peaceful and still

and did not move for a long time 

so still was she that even the birds wings flapping could be heard 

over the mountains and the sound of the horns honking and the sound of the 

waters moving and the sound of the gates opening and closing 

and the sound of the children playing

nothing but the sound of the pure flow of life
could be heard 

rising and falling within quietude 

and so she sat still and did not move

this writing has some of the same flavor as white tara...

she was praised for her prayers and offerings to the monks and nuns 

and told that she should pray to be a male in her next life so she can give buddhist teachings 

she said she will come back always as a female form until all reach enlightenment 

as there is no such thing as male and female in reality....