amazing grace

he wanted only for *his life*

to be good and full of things 

that brought happiness 

he did not understand that true 

happiness resided in his own soul 

when the coverings fall away

and that what was termed 

*his life* 

was as false as the shadow 

that dies at the arising of light 

he did not know that 

wanting to cling to *his life* 

as a separate thing 

was what was bringing suffering 

so he went thru life this way 

but when the Guru came 

he found that he had misunderstood 

so much

as that which he thought was real

and true before 

was challenged to the core 

and began to fall away like 

meat from the bone 

he then was able to see clearly 

what is true and false 

and how he was his own worst 

enemy to believe the mind 

in his ignorance he did not know 

but once his eyes were opened 

as painful as it was to see 

his mistaken knowledge

he could no longer go back

to the traps that brought 

only a seeing that was 

caged in conceptual understandings

and conceptual judgements that 

arose from conditionings long ago

how very false they were 

he then moved forward 

into the heat of Kali's fire

sometimes not even aware 

that this flame was consuming 

the underpinnings of his world 

that was held up by false beams 

of thought and conditionings 

kali's fire was consuming these

beams and moorings 

little by little 

until the whole structure was to fall

into the sea that was the life force of all

in this walk to the truth 

he did not know his life was never truly his 

to begin with 

for what he called his world was a private thing

and this was not real

it was as a dreamer dreaming 

it was as an illusion on the hot dunes 

in the desert that one races after again and again

he was not aware of any of this 

until the Guru appeared 

and set his little private reality to flame 

had he not stepped into the flames 

where would he be now? 

lost in some other place within his head 

as all that are lost in the world 

set out to find that which can never 

be obtained 

and thru his deep desire to be free and 

out of suffering he came upon this path 

though he knew not what he was asking for 

and what that meant 

because before,

the righteous path was 

merely a *concept* in mind 

and now to *live* it and embody this truth

how completely different than a philosophy 

about it 

how completely more real this was

onward he went 

his private reality fading fast
as mist on the ocean

and this was a very good thing my friends 

as what replaces this world

that he has guarded and protected

so fiercely

is sat chit ananda

what amazing grace 

and what good fortune that has come

to his heart