Shaman visit, vision of the day...

what arose this morning was of a flower presented
it was large, with open petals
the shaman was there, decked out in his finery of primal fire source energy
he was dancing his dance (and now i see him in my mind)
which happens much as i am writing
he is there looking up to the sky
the sky is dark and ominous with a great opening of light
in which he is looking at or *into*...
he is saying, that he has come from that opening in the sky
in which rain falls pure and light floods through..
he is pointing to that opening and then spreading his arms wide and outward...
he says that it will rain pure on those that are open to growing tall in beauty and spirit
the animals are there with him, he lives in all of them...
then there is a bright fire like a dhuni (but it feels to be native american in energy) that is glowing
it is burning bright as a star in the night sky

he is showing his attire that is decked out with lovely native american symbology
and brushing it away from him to say this is not him,
and pointing to his body too as to say this carcass,
if you want to call it that because i am seeing some buzzards picking at a dead carcass,
is not him
and then i see a spirit rising from this dead body...
it is rising high to be merged with gold light of all

he is reaching over and touching my chin and taking it up
and putting marks of the native american signs on my face
like stripes on the cheeks and such
and then he smiles a big wonderful smile
and looks up to the opening in the sky
there is a lotus at the opening, white and lovely ..
such purity, purity is the feeling...

that seems to be ending this writing
but he says he is not finished
for he wants to speak of the shaman way
which is as a healer that is in awakened consciousness
the shaman aids to bring healing to the body as much as is possible
but mostly to the soul
i am not getting more from him except i see tools,
like (the shaman) provides tools, in a way,
for the soul to find their own direct experience of love and light
that by this connection, grace is opened as a flood gate to allow for spirit growth
he says, though, that grace is the provider,
not this piece of flesh and he is touching his body to say, not this
his tools are spirit light, love, harmony, connection, silence,
family love or spirit family love,
which is the connection with those ones that feed the soul and
give uplifting energies to aide in moving forward (this is very important says he)...
he is not speaking with words, but some is coming through with thoughts,
other times just imagery,
other times just a feeling or a knowing...
he is showing a hammer in his hand and a saw
and grinning wide like these are the tools
which is simply symbolic for the tools of the heart...
and with this writing some hearts are flowing out of his chest
and out of mine and also out of my fingers ....
he seems to be vanishing now... we will see

i did start to write of this morning's vision where
a great flower appeared with big open petals ...
from out of the center of the flower arose the shaman,
he was reaching down and laying some flowers on the ground
and going inward to the center of the flower
where it became darker, richer, fuller ...
from this flower emerged the Guru
and from this another Guru and another ....
speaking to the same fragrance or essence in all...
and then a line of full moons in a row appeared...

this is all for now it seems...
may all be well and open into having direct experience with this moment
and whatever that brings...

om shanti

who is the next voyager?

since the shaman woman said yesterday, "nice to meet you Siddhananda", i have not felt their energy around except for a large indian woman sitting in a lotus position in my mind (this has entered in a few times)....
i did feel however, the grandmother spirit energy here over the course of the day yesterday and while writing i can see her beautiful face, her eyes have stars in them, they twinkle like the beautiful cosmos.. her hair, a silver white ....

when some ego play (or deceptive energy), sorcerer energy, magic illusive energy would attempt to enter in (i could see that shadow there) ... i would see the back of grandmother spirit (a thick grey braid trailing down her back)..
she would be pushing this energy away and beating it off with a club.. she did this a few times in the day and it was very effective in aiding the mind to still...
she is a fierce protector of her spirit children and a force to be reckoned with for sure...
then she would be near and i would feel a lovely thick black braid trailing down my back...
she placed little stars in a line going down the braid and brushed her hand down my head in a loving, affectionate manner...

a few times, i could see the moon drum and feel it's vibration go through my entire being...

also, i was given a white horse that i could see this form getting on.. i was on the horse and one could
see my back.. i was wearing the same clothes as i had on...
a peach colored shirt with a white skirt that had an orange and pink edging around the bottom
and then that horse took off and when it did, one could ride like the wind through the cosmos...
there was no solid ground to worry about...
i could see the back of my clothing blowing and fluttering with the wind with my hair blowing freely..
this happened a few times...
then as i was watching this form, galloping, literally flying through the cosmos on the horse..
another white horse came into view and this one had no rider...
it was almost as if to say, who is the next voyager in the land of spirit? there is a feeling of a welcoming energy or an energy asking, who is next? come now, here is the empty seat waiting..

this morning, there were the least visions since when this portal opened...
it was fine... this particular group were very powerful in their presence (which does not mean any other blessed spirit was less so) ... it could just be coming more forward into clearing...

as far as the visions and phenomena go, for here, it has been a constant flow from very young and once kundalini opened in full, it has been non-stop for years and years .. there has been no off button...  there has been no time to say, now i can take a rest and breather...
visions, illustrations of spirit messages have been occurring for many years and this has been ongoing with no breaks really...
the visions i have described on this blog have been such a small, small percentage in comparison...

also, once one is taken into the world of spirit communion and seeing, it is like you have entered another dimension in which you never leave... this is the reality...
one is Always *in* the spirit world -- every cell and all the senses are *in* it ...  the body feels as if made of air ..
visions float through in a stream all day off and on and if they are not happening, then patterns or a kaleidoscope of colors appear, seeing auras on people and objects, hearing voices (and i really mean voices which i have heard for many, many years), movement of body (kriyas), increased perceptions, highly acute sensory perception -- hearing, tasting, seeing, smell gets extremely sensitive and acute (this has not changed).... extremely vivid dreams nightly...
also disturbing visions and disturbing voices that come with great intensity... as well as great pain in the form...
this is the situation when being in this world/and/or within full kundalini opening... one can be with someone talking and this is taking place within or driving or cooking .. it doesn't matter, this flow continues...

i just need to be honest in the description of this playing out as it comes through the form and consciousness that it really engulfs one in this world of phenomena/spirit.... because though, often the imagery can be lovely and the messages so heartfelt (and it is entertaining)
there is this reality of the whole thing too... it is the journey of awakening .. it is a very long and difficult road....

and when *seeing* this way ends, i have no doubt that at least this form/energy/consciousness will not be leaving this place of spirit, not ever ... though it will come differently...
and there is no doubt too, the blessing that is felt within all of it ... this is so richly felt and i would not trade the experience in, not ever ...
and what flowers from here is unknown.. we will see...

for now however, that horse with no rider is waiting ...
and spirit is asking, who will be next voyager in the land of spirit?

will it be you?..

om shanti

beautiful spirit woman

while walking up the stairs i felt my hair was braided, someone braided it and brushed their hand
lovingly and sweetly on the top of my head and their hand went down the braid, it was such a loving,
gentle motherly touch, so deeply sweet and affectionate.. i felt some stars sparkling with this touch of
the cosmos...
then some sweet blue, red and white beads were placed at the bottom of the braid..

then i saw a wonderful face of an old native american woman with lovely wrinkles.. her skin was dark olive and beautiful, her eyes sparkled, her hands were held together in prayer....she was looking up at the blue sky with white fluffy clouds as if she was so happy to have me as a child of spirit..
she was looking up at the heavens as if saying bless this child of spirit ...
she was so beautiful and it felt touched by grace, angels, wisdom, earth, stone, eagle, tree, and rich, rich compassion with great love that overflowed in her being ... what a presence!..

she is still here with white beautiful hair, she touches my head and puts her hand to my chin and lifts my face to look at hers ... beautiful spirit woman she is, so beautiful are her eyes and soul...
she would take any in as her child, she says come, yes.. she is growing bigger at the idea of it ...
come she says, to me, my children of the heart...

Shaman vision and a replaying of events...

i am up writing this early morning hour to bring the new vision of the day
while i was lying in bed a shaman woman appeared
she was heavy and sturdy in stature
she had some type of braided hair that was kind of rolled into a circle on her head
on both sides
she was for sure the most potent energy felt that has entered consciousness
(in terms of the vision energy)..
she sat with me and what i saw in my mind was an opening being stitched up
it was like a vivid line of stitching and she was quick, like lightening speed
then i heard, "shaman mother" this is what i am in nature
and she said, no more of this Siddhananda, now dream time is vanishing
and from there i was immediately in a trance type of state of empty fullness
it felt as if there was kind of a veil there that had been stitched and thru the veil
i felt and saw the shaman nature dance of energy
much imagery of animals, mountains, birds, sun, rain, sky, clouds
floated through
then a great break of light shone, very translucent and left the mind still
as ever
then i heard spirit woman of the sky, the clouds, the winds, the seas
spirit woman
i felt her touch my hands (as they were hurting badly)
they lifted up like a kriya, but they
were lifted by this energy that was shaman
and then i heard,
over and over again; sha-man, sha-man, sha-man power enter
sha-man, sha-man power enter, sha-man power
and this kept vibrating and resounding thru consciousness for
quite some time
and my hands were twitching and moving
and then i could see the clouds and sky in my hands and arms
and lightening too...
and i heard, you deserve this Siddhananda, you are an angel
or purity and light,  you have the mystic eye, the spirit eye
this was heard and she was there and behind her was a face of a male shaman
they two were one it was felt
also, it was heard tantra and shaman energy are similar as they are
both made of primal fire and this energy was felt as black and red
smoldering energy, alive (heavy) and very combustible
the other thing this shaman woman said was, stay away from that
sorcerer energy as he is no good
and it was indicated that this was ego.. it was the mayaic type of energy
of magic, the illusion of mind ... she said stay away from that
tell all to stay away from that ..
that is not in alignment with pure spirit, not in the least
and she said, just be still
then what manifested was Guruji's doilies that she works on, they
were floating
around in space, all the different colors (i believe spirit likes her work
she is doing with sewing)...
and the next thing that came was shown so clearly...
Guruji and I were walking into the crystal shop (as we were today)
we stopped and looked at the hearts that were embedded in the cement
and went in
this was shown like a vision of clarity, just as if it was happening, but i was
witnessing it
i chose a card there that had aquarius on it (which is my zodiac sign) that i really liked
and when i got it i stared at it for awhile and brushed my hand over the picture imagery
that i thought was beautiful and then brought it over to Guruji
this is the part i read to her from the card, "In Greek mythology, Aquarius was the Rain God
who poured water onto a parched world below." and then Guruji said, um hum....
and then went back to collecting her rocks.. and spirit said this created a wave
(that was good)..
and then it showed an image of the card and what was inside it and the way i set it
up in my room... showing that it was liked very much ..
the wood by it, the crystal and the lotus flower...
and the writing inside, that was shown...
and i heard, G was absorbed in getting her rocks, she said they were going to be for her
that they were her rocks... she said she would put them in her room...
and this repeated a few times...she said they were her rocks, that they were just for her
and then it zoomed in on the box she was holding with the rocks she chose
and showed the ones i chose as well...
then it showed Guruji at the counter getting ready to pay, i could see her back and stature
so perfectly just as if it were her right there.. and it was as if i was standing behind her
and looking at her
then an energy moved towards her and this was all .. i don't know .. it all felt good
as she was at the desk, i was admiring a dream catcher chakra hanging that was so sweet
each chakra had a bright color to it and there were soft feathers coming from it
i was touching the feathers and really liking the way it looked
i was shown the image of that and heard Siddhananda liked this
and when G came over, she really liked it too... she lit up and really liked it too...
then i heard, G and Siddhananda were at the crystal store today...
and then i saw us walking out of the store and when the door opened, it opened up to
those spreading trees that were wonderful, with huge branches in which ivy was intertangled
on them and other types of plants too...
we both said how we really enjoyed them and were talking about them
i heard again G and Siddhananda were at the crystal shop

this imagery unfolded as i said just as if i was viewing it like a movie on replay... there was zooming in of some things and the opening of the door with the great trees can still be seen in my mind ..
crystal clear and stunning in it's imagery...

it feels like spirit just wanted to say that we were seen there and that all is well with that flow...

om shanti