tantra board tarot

strangely my friends 

the pendulums sit on this tantra board 

of the tarot card reading 

they automatically connected the energy

of the seeker with kali's heart-feet

it was odd indeed 

yet really not so strange here to see it 

for there are so much oddities that flow 

at times 

i am not unaccustomed to it 

so the pendulums sit here 

and to pick up the rudraksha pendulum

is something else 

it pulls to the heart 

and leaves the mind empty really

i cannot speak to you about how and why?

i don't know 

there is an energy there that is clearing and 

has come 

dear i will tell you 

the way the cards line up is not something 

i would have chose 

the energy of the pendulum chose them 

like a way to say look! do not miss this card 

this one and this one ---

and they line up this way, no other way

and they are these cards and not the other 

many cards that can be chosen

they are these cards

the stars, kali, vision quest 

yes these cards only

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you know friend 

one must be open to hearing and allowing 

the flow of forces that clear to come 

if one is afraid of the mysteries 

then this flow will be blocked 

due to fear 

what comes forward to be seen and cleared 

is not what one thinks 

so much can seem on the surface this or that 

yet it is not 

for i will tell you what the voice of spirit speaks 

if i was saying one thing inside 

spirit would say in the way of yes and no 

and more to my mind-heart that is not true 

this and this is not that way

this is not the way you think

now this would happen when there was that 

spirit communion that was like a grip hold 

and not as strong now 

but what was offered by spirit was something that said

that what was felt as hard or wrong or crooked 

was not that way truly

underlying that cover was something that is not 

made of anything like that 

and that cover too

is always fine in whatever way 

it plays out  

and is felt 

one need not worry about it 

and know that the soul inside is always well, whole

complete and lifted in it's bed of the cosmos 

that gives freely all things 

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oh dear 

say this to me sweetly 

for i long to hear your way of speaking 

you have so long been in thought 

but do you feel the whisper of spirit 

that says not these things at all

but something of the mystery way 

it is not absent from you ever 

it is not ever away
not  ever 

it is in you deep and well 

it is in you like the lingum in the yoni