as your-SELF

listening, my love, to you
i heard something of a sound that was beautiful
to the ears of the heart
it played it's lovely notes in there and touched
the energy of that matter of mind
that seemed so real as if it was a
truth
but when you played your song of the
life force flowing in abundance sounding like
something that
was not touched by anything of the world
that music worked on this mind-energy to bring it
to flow too within the river of the source
flowing it did and what has come has been not easy
in the least to taste, touch, hear, be with, feel,
witness,
challenge, detach from as it flowed in such heaviness
many times
yet your music played so singular, so beautiful
on  it went my dear , it played on and on like this
and blew it's breath on my skin and put it's wordless dance
on my bones, blood and all that can be touched and
also my heart too
and i simply could not get away from it, this music of light
filled with that which breaks down the barriers
 
this light flow has left great places of emptiness within the mind
it has left a great feeling of being not who i thought i was

this (slowing and silence) is a gift for certain that comes
without understanding
in thought or mind and comes unexpected, not knowing when
it comes here, or there or standing or sitting
or moving or talking
or at anytime and anyplace and within any activity it comes
and when it does come like this with a force that cuts all thoughts
away, there is so much substantial being remaining there
it plays freely then this music, this  life so pure and whole
like something finally found that has never gone ever
so very strange and yet so very ordinary too
as if one finally has come to the true self and one is finally
as your-SELF without all that layered stuff of mental risings

now my dear, have you not heard this kind of thing before?
yes you likely have
but you cannot really say you have heard anything truly  that
is real to you until it is experienced yourself
so then please go forward to do this one thing in your life
this one thing is the most important/valued thing
to find your true SELF that has never gone from you
how very funny, yes? it is here now and one will find this out
only if you go inward to take the journey