where the light filters

are you catching up to me?
because i am falling farther behind
my mental processes are slowing
and slowing
to where i have not understood what
i thought i understood before
it was all so put in place then
you know, how i was this way and that
but now i cannot grab so easily to that
persona

are you catching up to me?
because as you go forward, i go backward
into that unwinding coil
that eats it's own tail
and as you grab onto what you think
is solid
i have vanished like a dream
never to be held

are you catching up to me?
because i will not be found in that
crowd of worldly men ahead
look behind you and i have fallen back
gazing at the lake quiet and filled with
mystery
oh love,
i will be that one touching my cheek
to the earth listening
and the one that holds the small new
leaf in my hand and feels it's soft downy
skin
and find me here too where the light filters
softly
and makes patterns on the pavement
and the perfume of the flower
wafts through the air

are you catching up to me?
because i have no more desires, save one
to be rid of this spell of maya
and leave that which speaks of duality
to wash away for all eternity
and lay to rest those dreams that chant
of people and places and things
that are ephemeral truly

are you catching up to me?
for the faster you go
the slower i get
and slower and slower
and the more i simply fall into
silence