When Buddha walked the earth….

when buddha walked the earth

he put his baggage by the roadside 

and did not return there to pick it up

he walked thru the dark forest
of sensual experience

and sat by the wild animals 

and drank from the rivers 

and ate of the earth and shrubs 

and bruised his body on the rocks 

and forgot his past 

and forgot the world that spoke of attachments 

and dreams of this and that 

had he not walked into this jungle 

to find his pure soul

where would he be?

a king for awhile that had all the things 

that money could by 

and all the luxuries and all at hand that 

was beautiful to touch and taste and experience 

but instead he chose the hard road of the mystic 

because in him blazed the fire of a seeker that 

was burning to know the truth 

when he was a boy he would sit by the trees 

and sit in meditation 

he would wonder about what the world was 

composed of 

what it was made of 

was it a solid thing?

was it something that could be held tightly to

or was it as a dream that faded in the mist? 

how he wondered so many things like this

and felt his heart's desire becoming stronger 

to seek out the source of all

then when all were asleep in their dreams 

and he was old enough 

he stole out into the night with his horse and companion

he did not look back or bemoan what he left 

he was as a mystic that would not be turned 

on the wrong roads 

what is this like my friends?

it is like a man that has in him what it takes to persevere 

and to not be persuaded to follow shadows and dark alleys 

that lead to perishable understanding 

for the heart is like the fire that consumes all other

and it is where the mind is to be focused 

when he sat under the bodhi tree

his mind was not looking back or forward 

but inward 

and he became the self of all

he was like the truth 

he was non-dual in nature 

and preserved eternally as this 

what has this to do with you dear souls? 

but to know he found the light unto himself 

that is the same within all

and this is where one is to sit and breathe and be 

like buddha all are awake inside eternally 

and to discover it

one must let go of the false shades of mind 

like this one that sat under the tree of knowledge 

how it is like this 

when one allows the tree of knowledge
to give cooling peace
to a mind that has been in the heat of the search so very long

and my friends 

did buddha worry about his comforts or what was to give him

pleasure or pain or make his life just right? 

he did not 

he lived in the open with no walls to hide behind or doors to lock

as the consciousness is vast like this without end 

without borders 

he lived in the open like being transparent and not seeking private space 

inside yourself to hide away in

and when he walked, he was barefoot on the earth with nothing separating 

his soul from the universe 

and when he ate, he ate what came to him no matter what it was 

he did not think about what he wanted or turn away what he didn't want 

this is a mind that is within equanimity always

not saying all the time within; this is good and that is bad

and this is right and that is wrong 

and when he spoke, his words flowed out spontaneously without thought 

like the river of grace that flows without obstructions 

and when he bathed, he bathed in the rivers or the rain washed his form

of dirt and mud 

as this is what came as grace from the universal mother to wash away the dross

with this blessing of being fully without covers and concealments 

he sat under the bodhi tree or the tree of great knowledge 

and sat and sat and sat 

and what he found there, was his mind that was cast in shadows 

of this and that 

separated out like rays of concepts and thoughts and all the rest 

but he did not look to the thoughts that chanted and tempted 

he looked to his own soul that was pure 

and with this seeing directly experienced the source 

and when he got up to move into the world

he was not in it like before

but purified as God is within light, love and quietude 

as this was what was always present, and not found like something new 

purity of consciousness forever lives here

never will it go away

how glorious is this 

and this time now, stillness is
be within it 

heart of all 

be here 

mind does not know

i cannot find myself as i was

so much of the time 

my friends how fortunate this is 

it rings of the ripe fruit of now 

it lives as the glorious one 

when i was in the world working 

and raising a child 

i did my very best to be still and free 

but the waves of mind kicked up the dust 

and my attention moved in and out 

how was i to know the difference 

between living amongst good company

and sitting away from the world 

and it's play of me and mine 

and this and that and so, so many things 

that come there 

i did not know the difference until coming here, 

and being in the company of Guru,

and being calm and quiet, 

and taking in the wonder of simply being

(without moving outward into the waves)

it is quite a journey this kundalini brings 

and it is very, very hard and very, very graceful

all at once and one knows not what is around 

the next corner that will awaken the mind 

to what is real

how i mourned in the past for what i was to lose 

and how i wanted to protect *my life* 

and *my way* of being that was familiar

it is like this within ego

as if *my world* and all that has come to it 

was ever my own..

oh friends let go of your world, and see the day 

without the lens of attachment 

it will be better than fine, and better than good 

it will be like you are reborn and washed clear 

of all that has been collected that haunts 

because even if the attachment feels good, 

it brings pain 

and that which is attached to is only a thought, 

a dream, a shadow ...

it is not the thing itself, or the person itself 

that you love or desire ...

it is a thought  .. an energy .. a movement ...

a shadow ...

the person that you love is your very own soul 

it is true and this is so deeply beautiful and simply 

*what is* also ...

it is like a stagnant energy that simply gets absorbed 

into the truth (pure awareness), and then lo,

what a difference and what a wondrous thing
 this mind is simply dream mist 

and all is of ONE beautiful SELF 

oh, it is coming now dear seekers 

may you go on to find the joy of your soul

it will come when the conditions ripen 

and if you continue to follow grace 

and let the doors close that need to close 

and walk thru the doors that open from grace 

without hesitation

then you will make good progress

because the mind knows not what is best for you

it will tell you that this is right and that is wrong 

but how it changes course again and again

with no certainty

so do not believe in it, but stay in the heart 

and be in love with the moment as it is 

all is well here and full and of heart 

be still, quiet and calm

and stay with the practices that have come 

from Guru's grace

and God will take you home 

there is no doubt 

om namah shivaya... 

flow of writing...

*My sincere one, be well and find that resting place that has no name or face... that is like love itself
and is undying, and full, so very full.. like the flowing river of joy. In you this lives my sons and daughters. In you lives the best of all. The mighty light of all. Grievous are those that do not know it for
they sink into darkness and find no solace there, but only the vicissitudes of worldly life that have no satisfying element.

*Now sons and daughters, do not bow down before a persona, for this is not what is to be honored truly... only your very soul that is pure is to be honored and fed and fed well with awareness and love. If you can be still and love the SELF so heartily that all is taken away to be lost in Shiva, then you will
be a light unto yourself.

*Shed not tears dear one, for all is like a dream in the world and all is not true or real. It is as a forgotten thing on the wings of the bird that is in the transient way... and flies in the night and disappears over the mountains. Do not follow there, but be here as truth and light. Do not follow the shadow that is gone tomorrow. It is not your true self. Be like love itself so very much as a lilly of white or like the dove or the swan that is fresh as the first morning, living in God.

*When you arise, be still and pure and do not whisper to yourself of the day and what it is to bring. For has it not been shown that all plays out of it's own accord? Oh my love, how can this not be seen? This moment, the rising of life is present, still and perfect. It is in tune with itself, like the orchestrator, the universe. How he is the master and syncs all up to be as it should be and as it should play out according to karma or according to divine ordainment and not only this, but of truth.

*Master, I have not been still always, but love of all, it is coming by itself finally... and it is like the best
blessing ever. Oh how it is like God and Shiva and nothing at the same time.  See how it rings of love and light and still waters of joy?  Seeker, arise now and find your place in God, for I am here to say
that joy is the basis of all of life and Shiva is what you are.

*My love, how can you not find it? It plays in you as thought now, but you will see one day soon that love and quietude are your true nature and harmony and peace are what is the final end.

*Stay still precious ones, and seek not the false that is thought. Climb to the hill and look around. Do not be afraid, for all is so very wondrous and of reality. Stay alive and in yourself and be free as the wind.. on the wings of God and love and joy.

Sri Anandamayi ma

Sri Anandamayi ma was a saint that bore no marks

of ignorance in her being from a very early age 

she was like Christ in her soul

for she had not entered into the experience that soiled 

the heart 

when she came to the earth, she lived in a small dwelling 

with her family 

she soaked in the energies of the pure teachings without 

really reading
for she was like an open heart in which 

the rivers of truth flowed in 

there was no resistance in her soul to being made like God 

she did not know any other way of being

besides being within quietude

and as a perfect heart of love 

when one was near her, the heavens would open 

and she would sit serene in splendour as a flower 

that was eternally awake 

when she moved,

her halo was there, following about her form 

unsoiled was this one 

she lived in a way that was not really always present to the world 

as she would go very far into herself so that she seemed like not 

even there 

when she was young, she would move about more

lost in the forces of grace

and be with many to give darshan 

she would smile and praise the non-dual scriptures 

and sing of the pure self always without waver
she was a saint that needed her disciples 

to care for her when she got older 

she would be taken care of and bathed and fed 

and adorned with flowers and song from her bhaktas 

she would sit completely gone as if drowned in bliss and light 

and not in her form really like a one that is fully functional

but this, my friends was what was needed at that time 

for her devotees to take care of her 

and sing of the light that is in the soul and adorn and love the absolute 

it was right for them and they found joy in her presence

her eyes would well up with tears when shiva bhajans were sung 

she would smile in delight and then would be still with eyes looking up

or vacant really, lost in truth and light and love 

when she passed, there was a great celebration of her time here on earth 

she was celebrated for her serene countenance and flowing words, 

and still presence that was absolutely surrendered from  her first steps 

on earth it seamed 

a glorious presence and sweet soul that was here once in form

but now as always rests within God essence 

spotless, within joy and eternal peace 

Sri Anandamayi ma

Jiddu Krishnamurti

Krishnamurti was born to a woman that was psychic

she made time for her son

to talk to him about the spirit and she did so 

with great love and feeling

Krishnamurti was a very different boy

from a young age, he would often be found

standing staring

for hours at nothing at all

and his brother would haveto lead him home 

as he looked rather lost to himself

he spent much time at home 

for he was not well so much 

his body was frail and would take to odd illnesses 

very easily

his mother died early on

and the boy would spend time listening to her 

speak to him after she was gone 

about reincarnation and much deep spiritual matters 

he soaked it in like an open vessel it seamed 

in his young adulthood Krishnamurti had many, 

many spiritual experiences

he would sometimes be in trances or find his 

consciousness in the clouds or lose body consciousness 

and speak in tongues in which poetry would flow forth

or words would flow from another realm beyond the physical

he would sometimes be overtaken by great emotion and crying 

and then be fine as if nothing occurred

not an easy life this one had

he had much bodily pain and illness and endured hardships 

with the kundalini phenomena that was very extreme

but he said he didn't mind and endured it all with humour 

and was energetic and light in his presence

when he spoke to the audience, he would speak of how 

this world of me and mine does not exist 

how it is like a dream .. a fabrication of mind 

he would speak in spontaneous words and movements 

sometimes somber.. other times very playful and lively

Krishnamurti showed a great love for nature

he sat in nature so very much alone and would wander the hills

of india or in the states and sit amongst the 

animals and forests completely at peace  

without ever feeling a division there 

and never with any fear, even when dangerous animals were near

such as tigers, monkeys and bears

he would be at peace sitting with them and all was well

Krishnamurti spoke to his devotees about the non-dual consciousness 

but he did so by attempting to engage a dialogue of sorts 

which was not the best way to break down the mind

though his being rested in the source and he went thru the 

fires of purification (kundalini) and he surrendered there with his heart 

he was not able to be fully effective in breaking down the mind 

and most that he attracted were of the new age mind-set

many however stayed around him and were very devoted as they 

felt he spoke to their hearts 

Krishnamurti wrote beautiful flowing poetry in which there 

was much natural imagery and speaking of love and light 

and no separation

he was a bright presence in his way for many

he talked about kundalini and the suffering 

he went thru with it has been documented extensively

he was very close to his brother who died before him

he grieved greatly when he passed and cried and cried 

and after this flood of tears, he emerged as if nothing had happened 

his consciousness through such strong emotions, remaining completely pure 

he was of the saintly way

and had no fear whatsoever of death as he had already died the good death 

that brought eternal life 

this is what has flowed out this evening about Jiddu Krishnamurti...


here is one of the poems written by Krishnamurti -- his book of poetry
was one of the first spiritual books i found and read that really began the
search in earnest for me -- it was probably 23 yrs ago i first found his poetry...
here is the poem:


O friend,
I am anxious for thee.

The long race with time,
the ceaseless dance with the winds of space,
The burden of lonely sorrow
And the gathering in of joy:
They are over and I await thee
As the parched land the coming rains

The love that corrupts the form of its loveliness,
Offerings to pacify the inward fear of thought,
Vain hopes void of understanding,
Visions and dreams ever in the semblance of man,
Death that creates darkness in life:
They are over, and I await thee
As the lotus the cool night air.

Hear me, O friend,
I await thee,
As the snowy peak in a still valley...

as the goddess fair

long ago there was a man
who lived with a goddess
she was fair in beauty and heart
she was like a dove on the branch in the
evening light
so filled with bright presence was she
that the ones that were around her were steadier
in nature and forgiving more
and with increased life and light
but she, my friends
was not interested in romance or this type
of thing as one might think
she manifested to this man only to awaken the truth
in which he was at the time ignorant of
she was so much of heart that she took this man in
and loved him as if he was the most beautiful
being that shined as her very own soul
she took him in and never went about thinking
he was not this or not that and needed to be made
better
for she was not of this kind of mind that wanted
to make something better or judge it
but was of the mind of truth
which sees the same heart everywhere and at all
times
within this non-dual vision
what is there that needs to be repaired?
what is there that needs to be remolded?
what is there that needs to be changed?
so with this great understanding of hers
she took this man in and gave him the beauty of the
non-dual teachings
she did this by speaking to him about the self
she said the self is forever non-dual in nature
it is as the unstained heart that shines in beauty and wonder
and glory
it is not touched by heaven or hell or demons or angels
it is not damaged by a single weapon or word or fire
or flood or pollution or killing or birthing
she said the truth was the living waters
that shone forever in splendour
rapture was it's nature
comely and like the best bright morning
and beyond all worldly ways is this truth
so she said to this man
you are this bright beauty
come and love me as this beauty
and love yourself too
for we are as one
and we are as life untouched
and so she spoke to him with flowing words
of light
that came directly from the source
he at first was not understanding what was said
he said
how is it that this is true, my love
when i see all these different things about me
and fail to recognize the soul of truth that you speak
so eloquently of
i am not sure what to think or say about it
for i am lost apparently from this view of the wonder
that is true and glorious
how am i to know it?
the goddess said do not say these things
for if you do not now feel the well of wisdom
you will indeed soon
if you let go of this saying all the time the world is this way
and i am another way
oh how very false you speak dear man
for you cannot know it by saying always you do not know it
this will shade the beauty of the soul
come and be well in your mind as you are thinking too much
and are not being yourself in this thinking but
are being something of deceiving yourself
the waters of abundance live like shiva in nature
on the top of the mountain shaded by nothing that comes and goes
and in you lives  this the peace that passes understanding
the man sighed and went about attempting to experience what
the goddess was saying
he felt she was genuine in her wisdom and he loved her
purity and light and so he went forward into himself
for she said to be still
she said to be alone
she said to be majestic in silence and heart
she said to not touch thought or dance with it
she said to light in the heart and settle there free as the vast sky
oh how he longed to know what she was speaking of
how he longed to be rich with knowledge of the soul
he prayed and prayed to be free
then when he was alone in his heart relaxing
the light shined in peace
and it was not at all a thing that he thought
it was as if he was always this source
and the person was not real anymore and never was
he found himself in this beauty of truth
and did not move from it
he lived in it as non-dual perfection
and with this he was as his love the goddess
as one pure heart
not separate in the waves any longer
but as the life of all life
and the death of all death
as God is
of the silent heart
as sat chit ananda
forever in beauty and truth

be like this

be meditative in your mind like a waveless ocean

be meditative like a cloudless sky

be meditative like a night that is quiet 

be meditative like God that is not in judgement 

and knows not any face and name 

or actions 

but knows the heart only

be like this 

be still