tantra board tarot

strangely my friends 

the pendulums sit on this tantra board 

of the tarot card reading 

they automatically connected the energy

of the seeker with kali's heart-feet

it was odd indeed 

yet really not so strange here to see it 

for there are so much oddities that flow 

at times 

i am not unaccustomed to it 

so the pendulums sit here 

and to pick up the rudraksha pendulum

is something else 

it pulls to the heart 

and leaves the mind empty really

i cannot speak to you about how and why?

i don't know 

there is an energy there that is clearing and 

has come 

dear i will tell you 

the way the cards line up is not something 

i would have chose 

the energy of the pendulum chose them 

like a way to say look! do not miss this card 

this one and this one ---

and they line up this way, no other way

and they are these cards and not the other 

many cards that can be chosen

they are these cards

the stars, kali, vision quest 

yes these cards only

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you know friend 

one must be open to hearing and allowing 

the flow of forces that clear to come 

if one is afraid of the mysteries 

then this flow will be blocked 

due to fear 

what comes forward to be seen and cleared 

is not what one thinks 

so much can seem on the surface this or that 

yet it is not 

for i will tell you what the voice of spirit speaks 

if i was saying one thing inside 

spirit would say in the way of yes and no 

and more to my mind-heart that is not true 

this and this is not that way

this is not the way you think

now this would happen when there was that 

spirit communion that was like a grip hold 

and not as strong now 

but what was offered by spirit was something that said

that what was felt as hard or wrong or crooked 

was not that way truly

underlying that cover was something that is not 

made of anything like that 

and that cover too

is always fine in whatever way 

it plays out  

and is felt 

one need not worry about it 

and know that the soul inside is always well, whole

complete and lifted in it's bed of the cosmos 

that gives freely all things 

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oh dear 

say this to me sweetly 

for i long to hear your way of speaking 

you have so long been in thought 

but do you feel the whisper of spirit 

that says not these things at all

but something of the mystery way 

it is not absent from you ever 

it is not ever away
not  ever 

it is in you deep and well 

it is in you like the lingum in the yoni

Spirit heart counsel

Spirit: "Deaf to my song of person. The ears are being shut to my song of person."

*I'm just not even hearing that story hardly any more, ok? It becomes like an old tape
that one has played, and this tape becomes broken and the projector
is just spinning now but the tape is not there.

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Spirit: I see your name and it's like"starlight, that's a good starlight to follow
(hand pointing towards Guruji)."

Spirit:"Siddhananda lives spirit, lives Psychic. Good team. Starlight follow."

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Spirit: Since being here (in the energy), my mind says not the same things to me.
Mind says, like more lighter things to me... like lightness...

*So things are beginning to shift. They came in here with more heaviness/depression, but now
it is shifting.

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Spirit: "Adi, she says (referring to Adi Shankara). Adi she speaks. She says that with right words."
Adi in all things... the living and the dead... Adi in all.... Ahhhhhh Adi, Adi, Adi.....

*they are immersed in the play. They are immersed in seeing what is at the center of it. That unchanging *IS* and then the dynamic play of it. The beauty and fragrance .... that fragrance ... that beauty.....

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Spirit: "I am Muslim. I walk like God... I..I am Muslim.  I have many paths though.
I am not staying Muslim just only."

*So they are more open to other traditions even though they are primarily Muslim.
They see that there is that one thread that runs through all traditions.

Spirit: Om flower. Aum flower. (This is the way of the spirit saying thank you).

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Spirit: "River, river of beauty...river of spirit speech. Speaks spirit, very nice thank you."

The spirit is appreciative of the work and thankful it has opened up again.

river of spirit language

on this day of 25 january 2018

i am writing about the spirit light work 

with Guru

today i will say there was more of a fluidity 

to the sessions 

for here, it took awhile to get the sea legs back

because without the crisp clear visions, i had no

feeling of how the work would flow 

but the work does flow dear readers 

as an artist finds it's canvas after awhile 

and the drawing, colors and portraits just 

appear on their own without the doing of that 

one drawing it--
for it lives in their soul-blood

it is like this for sure 

so long ago, from young, there was a seeing 

of things and hearing things 

of which i was not comfortable with 

and a feeling of channeling too
(painful at times)

yes, but these things were not spoken about 

when one is merely a child 

so nothing was said, not ever

and of course this continued
and became more pronounced with time 

and with the energy of kundalini getting stronger 

and now may we return to these sessions

the energy is not like channeling this time 

i must say the channeling done during the blood moon

was an all consuming experience that bubbled up 

and filled the form-mind so that the experience of the spirit

was felt so deeply 

and this is why the visions were preferable to this 

as they would come in an instant with strong illumination

and seeing of the personages of spiritual nature 

in vivid detail, lustre and finery so strikingly heart speaking 

as if being right there

and now the vivid detail
and fine strength of illuminated imagery is diminished,
but not in the least lost in the heart 

as it sings now in a different way 

it is not felt like the heavy intense channeling before, but lighter 

flowing from the heart and head 

as an instrument feels the delicate wisps of the one plucking 

it's strings 

or the beat of the hand on it's texture of skin

it arises from the heart, souls in it's own odd nature of coming forward 

the spirit-rock-energy is held and the sound of the voice of spirit is there 

it does not take over this one's being as before 

it simply vibrates more surface in a way or more lighter 

and that one's spirit-voice-story moves outward in words or displays of what is 

there with hand mudra signs and verbage 

not at all unnatural feeling here, but i must say -- not something that was 

spoken at all about before 

as i felt in some ways 

rather odd and different is the only term to use 

as the seeing of things was so very pronounced for so long 

i felt that i wished for it to go and not come back
as i felt unsettled about having such an odd way of being

i am speaking in a flow of words now my friends 

if you are interested to peak inside the soul of spirit heart vision

but if you are not at all interested then please go and enjoy the moment 

but this is how the hands are moving and speaking now 

so to come to this thing of expression
with the messages and spirit counsel
is something that was honored greatly by Guru

and it was not at all feeling strange when with her 

i have never felt it strange to myself 

but felt it would be odd to others, yes! it's true 

but Guru made a space as sacred light to allow the flow of spirit 

and though this soul pulled back sometimes to not be so 

held in it's spirit-grips which occurred before 

in the blood moon time 

but now the flowing of it is much more settled, though some shakiness

and other energy openings 

are here 

it is fine and even Guru said, that i seem different around it 

partly due to her settled presence of allowing love to flow in it's

uniqueness 

partly due to so much clearing being done 

and mantra internally said

and i did tell her thank you for making this very odd way of speaking 

seeing and feeling, blessed, dignified and lit up with light 

spirit session

spirit session

those roses by my grave stone are dying 

this spirit said 

they have not been refreshed and brought 

me the gift of spirit 

so please oh helpers refresh those roses 

for me 

so i can sip of the wine of heart 

and give of myself to the shining light 

and not bask in the past ways of experience 

oh helpers 

did i do a wrong somewhere that i hardly 

remember?

for my heart is heavy with feelings 

and though i have left that experience 

it is still inside me 

oh helpers, Guru

set me on the righteous path 

and the Guru does indeed give guidance 

that is to say 

you, oh soul are not the form and what happened 

happened to the form only

you are spirit only 

so do not weigh yourself so heavily down by

what is now gone 

and move forward into light 

oh dear hearts 

the Christ energy enters into the scene 

and there is not a single way that mind can continue 

to go thru the shadows  

the spirit connects in with his light 

and bows deeply 

and forgets what was so heavy in nature

and sits like a child by his feet 

and sits like an innocent child 

to be blessed in love and light 

and goodness 

rich music

here is writing on one of the spirit sessions today

though there were several coming in need or to 

simply give a message... this is the one that flowed

out

one of the spirits was not saying prayers 

from the heart 

Mary mother of love and light 

entered to let us know of this constriction

that was present for this soul

when she came a flood of love took over 

this being 

it was like an angel entered into the heart 

an angel that had only love in it's finest form 

to offer 

she was able to sync up with the energy spirit 

in need of help in a masterful way in which 

the space and time element vanished 

because it was right there

like an instant knowing of what was happening with this 

energy spirit 

what she said was to pray not in a constricted fashion

but to pray like being *one* with the prayer 

as musical notes were seen rising into the air 

as a way to say the prayer is the rich music (of heart)

imbibe it like food for the soul

the prayer for this spirit energy was not soul-based 

it was head based so very, very different

so then some drops of blood were seen

and some bread 

body and blood of Christ in which one consumes 

so as to become that same glorious life
this is the way the prayer should be
consumed in this very same way
it feeds you
it purifies you
it opens the soul to the pathway of light 

Guruji gave some heart-filled teachings on this 

subject which never fails to be in alignment with 

grace in it's entirety

end of this session

in the heart

Session today 1/22/18 with G and Siddhananda

This spirit has engaged in 3rd eye practices in the past

The pointing is:
     Silence is not in the head (or 3rd eye)
     but in the heart
   

G: All starts in the heart,
     proceeds from the heart and returns to the heart.

Big Baba Light, The Himalayan master and Kali
are called in to aide in helping this spirit
*due to the 3rd eye work, this spirit has a lot to break
  through*

Siddhananda (speaking for spirit) :
Fire, Fire
Hari, Hari
Ash, ash
fire
Save yourself.. don't live here in the head (3rd eye)
Live here in heart

G: Let Kali come and break down the rest of the illusion.

Siddhananda:
Goddess, goddess
beauty dark
goddess, beauty of the night
fragrant
ashes

Mountains cold

G: That is referencing mt. Kailash and the himalayan
     master.
     They all have the same truth.*

Siddhananda:
Mountains cold
ascend and sit in silence
mountains, mountains

Kali
dark night goddess, beauty
golden

Fire Baba
Fire Baba here

Essence of sweetness
love
silence
blessed

This spirit is now bowing (they are wearing white)
Spirit: "I want to be good."

Siddhananda:
They are here (in the heart) now

a release is felt
the ganapate mantra is being said internally
for this spirit
the energy is felt to be running or
washing off
(removing the obstacles)

This energy is felt to have opened up greatly
and can process for now

namaste (hand on heart)

shaman vision written 11/2015

what arose this morning was of a flower presented
it was large, with open petals
the shaman was there, decked out in his finery of primal fire source energy
he was dancing his dance (and now i see him in my mind)
which happens much as i am writing
he is there looking up to the sky
the sky is dark and ominous with a great opening of light
in which he is looking at or *into*...
he is saying, that he has come from that opening in the sky
in which rain falls pure and light floods through..
he is pointing to that opening and then spreading his arms wide and outward...
he says that it will rain pure on those that are open to growing tall in beauty and spirit
the animals are there with him, he lives in all of them...
then there is a bright fire like a dhuni (but it feels to be native american in energy) that is glowing
it is burning bright as a star in the night sky

he is showing his attire that is decked out with lovely native american symbology
and brushing it away from him to say this is not him,
and pointing to his body too as to say this carcass,
if you want to call it that because i am seeing some buzzards picking at a dead carcass,
is not him
and then i see a spirit rising from this dead body...
it is rising high to be merged with gold light of all

he is reaching over and touching my chin and taking it up
and putting marks of the native american signs on my face
like stripes on the cheeks and such
and then he smiles a big wonderful smile
and looks up to the opening in the sky
there is a lotus at the opening, white and lovely ..
such purity, purity is the feeling...

that seems to be ending this writing
but he says he is not finished
for he wants to speak of the shaman way
which is as a healer that is in awakened consciousness
the shaman aids to bring healing to the body as much as is possible
but mostly to the soul
i am not getting more from him except i see tools,
like (the shaman) provides tools, in a way,
for the soul to find their own direct experience of love and light
that by this connection, grace is opened as a flood gate to allow for spirit growth
he says, though, that grace is the provider,
not this piece of flesh and he is touching his body to say, not this
his tools are spirit light, love, harmony, connection, silence,
family love or spirit family love,
which is the connection with those ones that feed the soul and
give uplifting energies to aide in moving forward (this is very important says he)...
he is not speaking with words, but some is coming through with thoughts,
other times just imagery,
other times just a feeling or a knowing...
he is showing a hammer in his hand and a saw
and grinning wide like these are the tools
which is simply symbolic for the tools of the heart...
and with this writing some hearts are flowing out of his chest
and out of mine and also out of my fingers ....
he seems to be vanishing now... we will see

i did start to write of this morning's vision where
a great flower appeared with big open petals ...
from out of the center of the flower arose the shaman,
he was reaching down and laying some flowers on the ground
and going inward to the center of the flower
where it became darker, richer, fuller ...
from this flower emerged the Guru
and from this another Guru and another ....
speaking to the same fragrance or essence in all...
and then a line of full moons in a row appeared...

this is all for now it seems...
may all be well and open into having direct experience with this moment
and whatever that brings...

om shanti