eternal summer

within the one 

summer lives eternal

there is not the shade of mind 

to darken it's glow 

here

not one drop of personhood lives 

it is like an empty dance in which 

life sings in it's fullness

and there is great peace 

that does not waver 

hearken to this friend 

for you are made inside identical

to this beauty and are not made 

identical to sorrow 

this is not well at all

sorrow is the tangent that mind 

follows
it is not your real self 

it is like a ray or shadow or 

empty song that drowns the love 

and light 

but soul

pure life is not to be touched 

by shadow 

not ever 

so you can begin here now if you

choose 

begin this journey that will bring 

you to still waters and make you

be present, seated in atman

then love shines pure and heart 

radiates outward leaving nothing 

that is left out of it's light 

when you come to this heart 

be open my friend 

for there is nothing to fear ever 

fear is simply a movement of shakti

an energy that has no power in itself 

to harm 

so do not be caught up in it 

know that in the heart 

pure intelligence works without 

a break

and this intelligence has the best 

in store for all...

but do not think you can understand 

it with thought for this will separate 

this light and put a barrier there 

just let all be 

just be 

and this power will come and rinse 

away the dross 

oh friend 

this is the greatest blessing in life 

to be cleaned of the aching mind 

how it is not to be a friend of 

yours (this ego)

it is not to be nurtured, not 

for a moment 

it is an ill-usion

soul be the light that you are 

be settled in this moment 

it is time to turn the tides in the 

direction of heart 

and no better time 

than now

not these things

dear, know that i speak to you 

of this one heart 

it is like a beautiful glow 

it is not of the world or the changing way 

it does not have a shape 

it is not as one believes it is or hopes for it 

to be 

it is not little or big or anything in between 

it is not within a body or a mind 

it is not within a concept, diagram

or a picture 

it is not in the spoken word or in 

books 

it is not in temples or churches 

it is not in scrolls or libraries 

it is not in the earth or the sky or the 

heaven or the hell

it is not in the holy waters, 

the rituals, the prayers or the fires 

it is not in the towns or the cities 

it is not in the rain, the sun 

or the moon 

it is not in the distant or the near 

it is not in the love of other

it is not in the situation, the experience 

or the condition 

it is not in the meditation or the mantra 

it is not in the student or the teacher 

it is not in the holy, the unholy, the 

preacher or the nun 

it is not in the creature, the insect, 

the bird, the fish or the seasons 

it is not in the sitting or the standing 

it is not in the thinking or the not thinking 

it is not in the discrimination, the 

silence or the speech

it is not in the prison or the freedom 

it is not in the wise or the fool

it is not in the life or the death

it is not in the solid, the fluid or the 

stagnant 

it is not in the strength or the weakness 

it is not in the putting in or taking out 

it is not in the empty or the full

it is not in the renouncing or the holding 

it is not in the insight, the judgment, the knowledge 

the gathering in or the giving away 

it is not in the finger, the toes, the ears ,the eyes 

the face, the stomach, the chest

it is not in the eating, the drinking, the dancing, the 

communing 

it is not in the travel, the staying in or going out, 

it is not in anything that can be named, spelled out,

spoken, seen, distinguished, conveyed or anything like this 

it is not anything that can be known 

love it is not these things 

it is that which is prior to any relative knowledge 

that which is unborn, primal, whole, complete 

perfect ...

it is you minus the covering of mind 

oh friend if you knew of it and lived in it 

you would not want to ever come out again

you would be still and all would be as it should be 

you would be still and all would not be colored by

the lens of ego and false ways 

all would be as it should be 

oh friend if you knew of it and lived in it 

you would not want to ever come out again

thawing out

never in the dark era

has there been a light to shine so bright as the o ne of Shiva

in this light that is so very glorious and filled with great peace

lived a man of stories and false ways

he never let anybody be close to him

for this was frightening to him

and so he put a wall between himself and the world

he could only be surrounded by his ways and thoughts 

he got up early and went to the market to get food for the day

he came immediately back and stayed alone 

doing his tasks and going about his routine

he did not open up to anything else 

but stayed very concentrated on his world 

he was not a man that was unfriendly, but very uptight 

anyway, one day a man of light shone up at his door

the lonely man opened the door 

though he did not want to, yet felt compelled 

the man of light said, i am a living light ....would you like to 

know more?

the lonely man thought this so very odd and a bit frightening 

for he felt he was living too, but in some ways maybe he wasn't truly

because he felt closed out from something so much of the time...

the man of light said, would you like to know more?

the lonely man said, okay, what do you mean by this strange statement?

the man of light said, i am the living truth and breathe air of freedom

and live within undying peace eternally..

the lonely man said, well what does this haveto do with me?

because we are the same inside spoke the man of light-- only you do not know it because you are 

so shut out from yourself...

the lonely man said, i am unsure what you mean -- and then his thoughts drifted off...

the man of light said, know that you are as i am 

existence, consciousness and bliss and can free your soul to be within this beauty

the lonely man said, i do not know anything about this peace that you speak of...

though i wonder and feel there is something more i have had no experience with 

this at all...

the man of light said - let all that you think you are go completely and set yourself 

in the moment and do not go around saying you are so many things inside and the world 

is this way and that all the time...

just be settled here as you are --- simple

the lonely man said, you have indeed spoke in a way that i feel in my soul deeply dear man

i can feel a depth there that i had not let myself into before...

what am i to do now?

*do less* said the man of light....not try to bring more on yourself...

....mostly let go of being a *doer* and having power

or any control at all... 

although you are to make efforts to stay present, let go of the outcome...

be here always ...

the lonely man cried out -- i did not know there was a way to *be*, and to let go ...

can i go into the world now and enjoy what is there?

the man of light said, there are no barriers but what you place on yourself...

it is only you that has hemmed yourself in this way....

go and enjoy life as it is ....

the lonely man felt so lifted that he went out that evening and enjoyed greatly the beauty that was about

like a man with new eyes...

he saw colorful flowers and great spreading trees...beautiful rolling hills and heard the birds sing more clearly than ever...

he heard children's laughter and felt the evening breeze on his face as if for the first time...

he enjoyed wonderful tastes from a fine restaurant-- and walked along the ocean whistling a tune

he felt as a man that had been thawed out ... 

and he thought about what the man of light had said -- that it was him that was holding back...

there were no barriers....  

and he laughed at himself and his nonsense...

my life is good, said he...

when he laid down that evening, he was glad he opened the door to the man of light 

and he shut his eyes and slept well indeed...

same journey

the bhakti
he loves his God fully
and prays to be one with him
until he loses himself
in that love completely
then he is no more
the one that prayed has died away
and what remains is one
one

the jnani he loves too
but he questions with self
enquiry --
until the questions dissolve
like the stick that stirs the fire
it burns away
and what remains is one
one

the seeker he loves
he desires to know himself
and walks on with his heart
set on the goal
with his Guru's blessing and
transmission burning in him
he walks on
until the feeling of death
grips him
then he goes thru this
illusion to have it break
and not return
and what remains is deathless
what remains is one
one

the sadhu he performs austerities
by the dhuni fire
on the dandi staff he puts his weight
he may be skin and bones
he may have sores on his form
and aches continuously from living
in the rough outdoors with nothing
to shield him
he may sleep little and eat little
but he continues
until the time comes when his
mind is completely still
and absorbed in brahman
and what remains is one
one

the nun she loves God so much
she is consumed by prayer and devotion
she lives very sparse and endures much
hardships with little to nothing to entertain
in her room she prays and prays
performing her duties she prays and prays
always seeking to know God
she is consumed by kundalini fire
and this fire burns the dross away
to leave the mind quiet always
and what remains is one
one

the one that is the beauty of all
the one that is the source of all
the one that lives in all hearts equally
and without measure
the one that is the truth, the atman
the substance, the strength, the ALL
sat chit anand
what remains is one
one

non-dual always..

non-dual always..

those still in the throes of mind 

see the liberated soul

as being so many things 

such as this and that 

or possessing this and that 

qualities 

but this is never right 

it is only the divided mind 

that sees this way

the liberated one is 

not anything that can be 

defined like this 

as pure consciousness

is not the body ever 

or the qualities seen

by the eye

or defined by the mind

pure consciousness 

is all and nothing 

zero

not this or that 

completely still
indescribable
non-dual always

this heart of yours

my dear

this heart 

it knows what you know 

without the sting of thoughts 

it loves how you love without 

the heaviness of other 

it dances how you dance 

without the burden of form

it cries how you cry

without the residue of mind 

it moves how you move

without the circular thinking 

it laughs how you laugh

without feeling self-conscious

it goes where you go

without the identifications 

it remains where you are 

without the ups and downs 

of ego

it sings what you sing

without being the doer

it follows where you follow 

without feeling distant

it experiences what you experience 

without the mask of persona

it holds what you hold 

without taking or giving 

it hopes what you hope 

without expectation

it prays how you pray

without words that flow 

it lives where you live 

without any confinements 

it waits how you wait 

without waiting for something

it creates how you create 

without plan or calculation

it feels what you feel 

without taking it personal

my dear

this heart of yours 

it meets you always 

without being two

it meets you always without

running away

it meets you always without

changing ever 

it loves you always 

without feeling apart 

it searches for you always 

without feeling something 

is missing 

it makes you it's own always and forever 

as you can never be apart

for you are one in this heart of yours 

always and forever 

such a blessing

in the beginning Guru was very open to those that
came to seek her guidance
she gave graciously of her time and energies
she opened her door to many strangers and attempted
to help them in every way that these ones would accept
she sometimes even paid for their shelter and food
during the visit with her....
i have seen her even give someone one of her old vehicles...
there are many stories like this ...
this is the way of those that are open in heart, but the sad
part is that this gets taken advantage of and is not cherished
deeply or honored deeply ....
now, this path is not steeped in her personal time as before
those that have been on the path have their own lives to live
and are free to make whatever choices that come to them and
live this out ....
this is where things are now and seem to bring less friction
to Guru in some ways, but the sad reality is that her wisdom
has not been taken seriously by so many...
i know here that a kundalini master is very, very rare ...
as kundalini is not understood by most, not in the least...
it is an energy of mysterious power and capable of throwing
the mind into great spins and there are playing out of
kriyas, verbalizations, seeing lights, auras, hearing voices
and so, so many manifestations that come constantly when one
is fully awakened.... to find a master that can balance the phenomena
and honor it is a most auspicious find indeed..
what is to be heard is that now we have Guru in body ---
she is here still and gives transmission and her words of
wisdom flow on videos, writing and such....
we can feel this energy when connected with her always...
those that feel it know the power of this grace
in their lives...
we are blessed with this love and light that emanates
from this grace ...
here, i know the poor shape i was in before meeting her...
not a pretty sight and several times such hardships came
even while under her guidance and still quietude is coming
more and more .... a blessing as there were times it has been
hard to even put one foot in front of the other... but this was done
and the journey continues....

may all enjoy the moment and love what is given and
be happy with what is here in your lives now...
the right doors will open in the right timing when
one is heart centered, relaxed and open
to grace ... this is for certain...

blessed day to all --- may grace be upon your lives...