ready to let go..

oh men, women of the world
when will you put your thinking ways away?
when you will you read the words of the earth mother
with her writing of light
where worldly ways are worshipped not
for she is not cognizant of these little dramas of mental tales
her stories are felt in the presence of love, light, rain, sun, sky, moon,
mountains, clouds, rivers, forests, winds
her way of speaking flows free of fetters of separation for it does
not compartmentalize or hold back it's beauty from any
her eyes do not see differences
her mouth does not speak things that make one against another
when one comes into this space of light that is still and free this way
then there cannot be this mind set of justifications, harboring of emotions
or wanting to control anything or anyone
how can this be? it is impossible

oh men,women of the world
do you know when you keep bringing attention to your little world
inside
that you keep it revolving like a wheel that turns and turns
this is certainly the case
but when you are ready to let go of this drama that constantly
puts it's voice in the center to be heard
then you are ready to go within, for you cannot have it both ways
where you are keeping this separate drama that is familiar to you
and letting go too
this is why one that is true is ready to be done with the world
and retreats into the heart for solace
for you see...the conditionings are so strong that pull and pull
yet one is not cognizant of this when lost in it, but lives with it
like it is truth
so one is to need a stronger force (grace) to break these bonds
and energetic patterns
this is why surrender, forgiveness, humility, compassion, and
when one is fully ready, a true Guru is needed to finish the journey
as this one has the clarity and balance to give
but one is to be ready to surrender
this is not something that can be understood, it will come with experiences
that make one see the conditionings that play out
and one is to challenge them and not follow them
so they can eventually break
this may sound like something like oh yes, no problem,.... but when faced
and encountered, it is different entirely
for one is to face the dark things inside, the demons that haunt and taunt and
often come as masquerading as light or something that is ego bolstering
or fear or attachment or regret and on and on and on
this is the work of it oh friends that are sincere
and one needs to hold their ground
and not get put down by it
or react with more drama and go off on another tangent
for we are not inside made of these things that cause weakness or
pride or strength or what have you (when the coverings dissolve)
but we are made of life in it's purity that is not at all tainted with
anything of the personal
so we have to not be taken in by these dramas
they rise to show one that this is what has been collected and has you bound
and believing in it's story...
they rise to show one what is there to be seen and free of
they rise to show one what is there to be forgotten and brought to death
they rise to show one what is there that is to be left to wither, slow, halt
they rise to show one that this is not to be nourished or given the food of your attentive energy
they rise to show one that this is not to be understood, but only an energy that revolves
here it is....now it is gone...
here it is...now it is gone...and here it is again and again and gone again
if it changes, it cannot be solid and true
so this is the way of a sincere one that goes on to be true
this one is not deceived by these stories any longer and continues forward to be purified in grace
not easy, never, never easy.... but the mind is seen to this one as an energy that creates suffering
and does not bring about peace ---this is so easy to see souls... but not easy to be free of ....

oh men, women of the world
though i am not fully done with this journey yet
i am so very blessed that these thoughts slow intermittent
and drain down to the ground of being where they are
not always in my face to be heard
then the flow of life is present without barriers of i am this or  that
as nothing exists, and yet there is peace and fullness
the richness of nothing else but this
i cannot really speak to the end yet
but i will tell you that this mind is an energy of suffering
that is not to be given attention or love or seen as who and what you are
the mind has not given me anything but troubles and troubles
so i am one that has given up the world entirely and live very simple
and quietly and keep to myself most of the time
unless there is some socializing with my Guru
or a few friends of the path that are here, or a brief hello
this is how it has been for many, many years for me
as i have put my time into this search with whole heart
and have fallen down hard, yes indeed i have and have risen up again
and have fallen again to rise yet again
i cannot tell you to undertake this journey
(unless you are truly desirous of liberation with every fiber of your being)
for this journey is beyond hard
but can tell you that the alternative is the mind
and to look there and see it's workings
and make your own decision as to your life
i can just say that the world is not the source of happiness
personal experience is not the source of happiness
and i can just tell you about this slowing down of thoughts
and gaps between thoughts and distant, garbled thoughts
and how the practices cut the mind to bits little by little
i can only tell you that when these thoughts are gone, that there is no pain
i can just tell you from my own experience of this long, arduous, painful
wondrous journey from where the consciousness is now and what is taking place
that is all i can speak from souls
and this is all that one can do is be honest in this relaying

love, light and stillness to all
om shanti