in all beings

when the mind forgets itself
the wonder of this moment sparks
like a creative force
it brings with it insights most powerful
in nature
such as one is not all the things that
was once thought
this jars the mind to be awake to the
moment in a way that is not weighed
down by the clutter of thought-streams
projections, fear, desires, hope, reflections
the whole grouping of mental energy
then the whittling down of the persona
begins in earnest
one cannot lose the awareness of continuing
to engage practices and questioning
even when the mind seems very different
in awareness
onward thru the phases that come
until what remains is only grace
which is stillness without any type of
mental content
this is a jivanmukta or a sage
there cannot be a partial letting go
or an almost completed sage
a sage wears only stillness in his
mind and heart
a sage wears only non-dual beauty
in his mind and heart
a sage wears only priceless jewels of
beautiful o-ne in his soul and spirit
and everywhere
a sage is not of this worldly dramatic
playing out like the vast majority
a sage is of the spirit-heart that is completely
beautified in God-nature or pristine stillness
and nothing more or less
a sage plays by no rules or agenda but is spontaneous
in his/her way of being
a sage dances to the sound of the soundless void
a sage dances to the beat of God-source-light
a sage moves to the flow of o-ne
a sage rises and sets to the living waters of all
a sage rises and sets to mouna
a sage rises and sets to heavenly beauty of light
a sage rises and sets to timeless wonder
a sage rises and set to pristine fullness
a sage rises and sets to the original mind
there is no other in this consciousness of
o-ne
just pure reality that is present always
and lives in all beings

inside yourself

in the darkest hours that you fall into
or the brightest hour and every passing
way in between
there remains a freedom shining
like a gift from above
when walking in the perfume of this
wonder
eventually you will come upon a knowing
that rings of something beyond the confines
of your familiar reality
you will come upon something beyond the
daydreams and cacophony that is known as
mental energy
and feel a strength that lives as mysterious
as the morning rises of itself in gold illumination
and fragrant kisses of opening of flowers
(so diverse in color)
like this wondrous opening that comes in all
seasons
so you will find this fullness in yourself
then something begins to shift until
the movement comes to a center
and there is simply this moment
without the warped ways of mental habits
and constant whirling of sensory attachments
when this begins to happen memories (thoughts
and what have you) that were once
held so dear and private do not dwell in you the
same way
there is only this fullness that is spontaneous in nature
completely harmonious with Grace/God/Light/Love
where no one lives at all

and so we go inward...

when i was in the start of the path
i did not know about surrender
i thought that one follows a course
of love, but what is this truly?
for love is something to most that is
personal and knit within their story-line
memories, desires and such
and also, it is linked to a sense of time,
place, experience and that kind of thing
it appears to the mind this way for
a long time
but love, is truly that which breaks apart
the identifications of mind, individuality
and all that is rooted within that field
it is the current of grace that carries
no other within it
it is pure consciousness and heart without
anything that has within it
the sense of *me and you*

love comes as a rushing current of light
in which it uproots the fallacies of mind
such as the fallacy that mind is true and real
in the way of being solid in form
and having power to be the central force of
a soul-body
this is what all that are in mind are entrenched in
and indeed is what brings about cause and effect
or karma playing out

karma is very powerful and heavy in the way of
being a law that is universal and without discrimination
it is like physics in which
this effects this if mixtures are put together
and shaken up or ingredients are blended
there is an outcome and playing out that occurs
that cannot be otherwise

some do not understand karma for they will
play the game and think that they will be the one
to escape the consequences and will have it their way
when they want it
no matter the cost to others
this is very sad and carries a broad scope of heartache
for society and the world at large
or smaller waves move thru families and communities
that carry problems
karma too is positive in which actions can carry sacred
notes to others of well being and good intentions
and love
so we treat karma carefully and be aware of our actions
in the world and how we treat others
for what comes back to us is simply results of our actions
we will feel the vibration of the effects of our own actions
in our own souls
so we hold to a disciplined practice
and honor the good in ourselves and others
this is the beginning of a path of righteousness and this is where
most start

looking deeper, we begin to travel within and see what is true
and lasting in our mind and what is transient in nature
this is the work of a renunciate or a sincere seeker
when the mind is quiet(er), there are deeper insights and wondrous
playing out (at times) which jar the soul to see what is
important and of substance
and that the phenomena is simply ghost-like in appearance
as it fades in time with continued engagement of the practices,
self enquiry, surrender

as the thoughts fade there is a very flimsy screen that protects one
from understanding that all is one full being
and this screen fades in an out with direct perception of God-
consciousness entering in
the screen is made of false coverings that shelter one in the
mind-body reality
and lead one to believe that God is outside and to be sought
out by a persona
the persona itself is the thing that begins to break down
like a ball of energy that is dispersed and sinks and fades into
the substance of all

kundalini is imperative to be awakened to break apart these
false bindings of mind and collected apparitions of mind
kundalini is the power that shakes it all up on so many levels
and unbelievable playing out of phenomena (can) come forward
it seems that it will not stop or end once opened up for real
but it does shake out the dream holdings in a way most
mysterious and grace-filled (as well as difficult beyond what one can
imagine), but it does do this
and the mind begins to have more space, depth and strength
(within grace) and light and all that is of heavenly nature that
sings of light and freedom

so one goes forward with what comes no matter what it is
and Guru is there as the heart of all
and gives that grace (mostly without even being aware of it)
but one must find this within their own soul
and not linked to anything or anybody else no matter how in love
with it one is
for those attachments are unkind in the end and bring
sorrow
this is the reality
so we go inward and leave the temptations and desires
to burn until one single source remain

Heavy with love

See the blossom

see how it falls

through grace

in love with itself

There is no other

but this dance

that sings of itself

to find itself within me

Being rich with all that is

full and in love

heavy with it

Oh love be all that you are

make that soul dance

with your sweet taste on it’s tongue

you have brought me here to do

things one way only

the way of truth

The petal falls in the garden

of  knowledge

how beautiful it is!

how ripe!

there is no other

Glorious is your name

Oh God

I am one with you

you have sought me out

Oh love you have found me

in full rejoicement

we will celebrate for all of time

never alone

but singing for all eternity

your holiness

Sweet is thy fruit

heavy on the branch

return my friend

to find me

sitting in the garden

when one enters there is no return

and why would one want to

go anywhere else?

Where have you gone sweet heaven

seek me out

come find me behind the back door

in the garden

where I am waiting

Sing your song loud in my ears

like a rush

through me and in me

I shiver here

waiting for you

ponder this

part of you is lost
but the other part is found always
this is kind of funny
How can there be two of you?
please soul ponder this
because you are and have
always been
One

dear traveller

My dear traveller
your port is right here
and so is your land
if you look inside
and see what you have
come to be
you need not go
anywhere

Light

Light is not an outside phenomena
but an inside reality
when the shadows fall