you see, this is the doorway...

beautiful soul

i move with something that speaks in my heart 

to say 

that you have not been what is real

you have not let your mind settle down into something 

other than the familiar 

for if you did you would be done with this worldly way 

in which calls to the mind to continue dancing in the mayaic realm

of otherness 

it calls as a master calls to it's student to be this way and that and not 

come fully to the waters of light 

i am not saying this to be judgmental, but in the way of the world 

there is mostly an entertaining of this kind of thing 

not a seriousness about being as the ancient masters are which 

is dynamic, like a fire-force that has nothing but love at it's base 

and nothing but stillness in which it lives 

nothing but mystery of the absolute in every breath, cell, word

and consciousness 

with this fire force of heart, these ones walk upright without 

needing support or influences or education from anything to 

improve it or help it along...

for the end that is the beginning of pure life cannot be improved 

upon by anything created by mind, hand, tongue, word, deed 

it is as it is from beginningless time 

beautiful, full, without covers and within all hearts equally

you see, we are made as this beauty in truth 

and even if we feel not like this inside now or weak 

see, this is where there is a doorway to open into 

to go through 

we go through our shaky places, our voices that call us back 

our revolving painful aches ... all of it, the shakiest, weakest 

point is indeed an entrance into something different 

look at it soul! 

what keeps coming back to you is the doorway to see that these 

thought/concepts are like shadows that come and go 

it is only your mind that continues to produce it to come into reality 

and make it real 

oh soul, yes ... this is what is to be seen

that those tender spots that sting so and make one draw back are the 

moments that are given to see through the mind 

well i am taking time to write this out, oh one of heart 

it is not like i planned it at all this way, these words 

it is not like i said that i will write something that is to make one 

be present 

it is not like i went over this in my head or hoped that there is a result 

it is not like i prayed about it or practiced it or worked on a lecture about it 

it is not like i find anything to be lower or higher and something needs help 

and something does not 

it is not like i love as a personal thing when writing it 

and even if it flows as a thing that feels someone is writing it 

it is not true for it comes the way it comes 

i really am not involved with it 

love, 

today there is something more flowing 

like a river without any stopping places 

like a wind without any catches to it 

or a doorway that stays open to love 

oh soul

this is the way it is 

there are phases that come and stay and revolve

and deepen and surface and deepen again 

and then one day another depth that lingers 

longer and longer 

and feels heartier with strength, quietude and more 

effortless than ever 

oh friend today it is felt this way 

and i know this writing feels as if someone is excited 

about it 

but it is not that way 

it is not like a running around kind of thing and wanting 

to sing on the roof tops about it 

it is a settled being in the moment with one pointed concentration 

and not having to be constantly internally saying mantra or 

concentrating on balanced breath when mind is in action 

simply a few breaths and the flow is back 

sturdier, more substantial

oh what work it seems friends to go on and on with great efforts 

and what a joke it is to be simply peaceful without those hard personal efforts

(as if that suffering person never existed at all) 

it is as if it has always been quiet 

yet there is still a cognition that there has been such a long journey walked 

well this is this day 

and it is not done 

and the journey continues until it is complete

but i feel grateful to rest a little more this morning in the flow of 

heart and quietude 

blessed day to all!