seeking freedom

master, i have been away in the world

and found it wanting of peace 

what am i to do now as i cannot be content with 

the waves of mind and desires that are so all consuming in their way

i desire to shed this covering of the false 

and enter into liberation

how am i to do it? 

i am not anything special in my way, nor have i great strength 

nor do i possess perfect qualities...
i am not a renunciate...

what am i to do? --

can i know God even though so very basic in my ways i am?

the master said, sir yes you can know God in your heart 

if you are truly desiring to be set free
and devote your energies towards the good

which means towards honest living and pure intention

this flame will be lit and will grow to consume the separation in time..

if you are devoted inside to purity and truth -- and these are watered 

as one waters seeds in a garden...

this will grow in the being and eventually bear fruit...

do not trouble yourself with when or how or who...

simply stay in the heart, focused on the present without going about 

putting barriers up for yourself ...

if energy is placed towards this end of liberation, 

there will be a time when the right conditions will manifest
*if one remains surrendered and sincere*
and critical mass will be reached 

and the whole structure of mind will topple...

whether now or in the next life -- it matters not ...

the timing is up to grace ...

what matters is that energy and focus is placed in the right direction now..

this is all one is to do --

the seeker said, my master i feel so unequipped to be a student at times 

my heart is torn in many directions --

though i seek to be free, i am divided in my way and caught up in the world 

and it's pursuits 

please tell me how to let go of this, so my mind is focused entirely on God 

the master said, you are not divided truly, this is mere imagination...

like a mirage ... 

if you can let go of this thought that you are this way or that way...

then there is an opportunity to go deep within and see what else lies 

under these identifications...

but if you get lost in the thoughts, then this will not aide your journey...

you can be focused one-pointed -- in one direction ....

this will take time, keep making efforts...

the seeker said, you make it sound possible, like it is a choice that can be made...

the master said, it is a choice in one way -- and choiceless in another when one is  

surrendered within... 

but there is no need to worry about anything else, but being present and keeping focused 

on the experience that is now...

soon enough mind will become more centered and then one continues to look at mind ...

and confront it directly with self-inquiry...

it will be seen that ego is no-thing -- it is not to remain, but will dissolve when 

it's identity is sought out...

like seeing a mirage of a tree with roots and getting up close to it

to examine it directly and it dissappears...

what reality does it have truly, if it dies away upon clear seeing?..

the seeker said, master thank you very much for your wisdom

i am to go now and be off to my life, yet i will take with me what you said

and make efforts to keep the mind focused and not put on my self troubles and 

questions that lead to no good end... 

i will do this with my heart and if i forget, will go back at it again

for there is nothing more to be done, but to let go it seems...

the master said, yes, let go and do not bring back what has been discarded...

do not try to understand experience, simply live it -- not analyze and all of that ...

thank you master for this blessing said the seeker and he bowed deeply

and touched his master's feet 

and his mind quieted and he breathed easier in this moment .,..

and then he got up and went his way in the world...

Taking Steps

My dear
don't you understand
the time has come to change
the mind has intruded for so long that you don't know
any other way
come let go of the shadows
silence is a million times more beautiful and true
the clothing of illusion
never did belong to you

Come outside where the air is clear
come and leave the smoke
when the mind is clear and free, you will get the joke
when the edge of your world and the unknown come into view
you will be struck that what you grasped to as reality
was simply mist and not true
like dust that covers a jewel
the most precious treasure sits
and waits for you to follow it's sweet scent
thru the open doors of which you are not familiar
thru the passage ways that open to what one does not know
thru the dark woods where thoughts echo and dry leaves blow
thru the solid wall that grace cuts through
ove the steep hills and down into the open valleys below
diving deep into yourself this is the only way
come, follow now
the light is breaking thru

One must take steps, and though it may seem like you will fall
and fall you must in which eternity you dissolve
fallen facade of mental contructions
fallen past of pleasure and pain
fallen ghosts that haunt and cycle to create a world that never existed
fallen shadows that cloud the light
fallen robbers that steal peace
fallen roads that lead away from the real
fallen seeds of thought that blossom into more
fallen tree that gives rise to the feeling of other
all left behind when one crosses the line
of your world and the unknown

Hush child,
the wind is crying loud
keep walking steady, there is nothing to fear
inside there is an emptiness that calms and washes the ache
and when one walks in the world but is not of it
there is nothing that can harm
for nothing is lost in this ground
of pure life and mystery
it is here and now
and the truth of what you are
but you must take the steps
to discover...

That nothing is lost but the suffering...

smile now please

energy speaks different much of time 

energy say something else that is rather surprising 

like i not know what will be written 

i do not have any knowing now 

here goes 

many moons rise on waters beautiful 

like sun rise over hills each morning 

many nights fall on land 

shaded in darkness where heads sleep on pillows 

with dreams 

skies brighten at dawn, mountain tops emerge with shadows 

dancing 

waters sparkle with stars twinkling in them 

these things emerge spontaneous as all things emerge 

there is no doer in them 

beautiful waters flow in river beds churning over rocks 

with foamy white caps 

small pebbles move make clicking noise as touch each other 

grasses sway too with breeze over open valley empty with song 

of divine beauty

fine dirt there too with smallest pebbles 

sit still but move with breeze too 

and lift up to go with way of wind song 

as this play freely flows 

life lives dancing like men that throw burden  off

light in heart so freedom can live in that space 

light in breath, air, so freedom cannot be made into 

a box of something other 

the flower lights up with the best light filtered by sun 

brought to it sweetly

flower lights up

is there something that world not understand in this?

each one on earth know this  type of way of life 

of course 

not hard to know 

not hard to understand 

this mystery is inside soul too of course it is 

the inside and outside are the same 

waters flow beautiful on river 

have borders on each side rock hard with substance 

hold in the running water so it can go 

to ocean 

path is like this my dear too

hold in the flow of beauty to go directly to source 

if borders are infused with grace of guru blessings 

grace of heaven 

then waters flow to source without being caught in circles 

so easily 

treading water 

here i am in same spot again 

here i am feeling same like never changing 

need to flow to heart now and always 

to die to death of all 

this one writes here not knowing what comes 

my dear 

can you know that things just happen spontaneous 

without our participation

come now 

one need make efforts to be still

and then something else emerges 

opens of itself

here now 

is this writing today 

bring to heart and smile 

flower blooming brightly in the garden heart 

smile now please

om shanti