always the self

where have you gone really?

you can never leave here 

in truth

you are always here as the self

no matter the mind play

no matter the action

seated in the lotus position

or working in the world 

the mind can be heart centered

and within grace 

it matters not what the body is doing

the mind is what matters

and can be purified no matter
the action

Light in nature

To live the highest is to be harmonious
and light in nature
to trade in the worldly trappings
in exchange for Godly wear
and walk in this land of shadows
but not at all affected by it

balance

the way of nature is to
be in balance
it is not to be in doubt
and bogged down by thought
as a tigress springs into
action at the sound of
a predator
this beautiful creature leaps
without thought
this is the
way of zen
completely clean of
planned action
just so graceful
and simple
like the way it came in

free will

your drama and story are not heard
in the heart
they are simply empty playings out..
that echo in your ear only
and you listen
but you do not have to
this is the gift of free will

an adventure

if you make the day an adventure into 

greater depths of the soul

then you have spent your time well

no matter what you are doing

until it is no more

soul
save yourself from suffering
be not as a blind man that comes into the earth
shorn of sight
or as a beggar that is looking about always for something
to feed it
settling on that which is transient in nature
that only leaves one unfulfilled again and again

live out your days alone in yourself like a hermit would live
in the heart
or like a nun would live in a convent that is built to bring
the mind to a halt when it is centered on only light
and singing always of goodness, joy, peace and equanimity

or like a sannyas that has only his simple being
simple without coverings of the world
he lives out his days this way and he works only for God
and not himself

he works only for the heart of his joy
he works only for the love that is true
he works only for the *me and mine* to vanish
he works only for the single ray that is undeniable and beautiful
he works only for the best that life offers which is to be out of suffering
he works only for the quietude that comes sometimes in small amounts
sometimes in greater
sometimes in gaps and slowing of thought
sometimes in forgetting of the past and future
sometimes in spontaneous movement
sometimes in working with one-pointedness
sometimes in resting in unfamiliar realms or
anything that is deeper, quieter, mysterious
until the mind is no more

yes this is it!

friends have no affection for mind and it's stories
it is like a dying thing on the vine when you are not
looking at it always
it is like an energy form that will evaporate in time
with sadhana