Time with Guru (part 3) - the early days...

During the first several years

especially of being

in the presence of Guruji

there was so much generous sharing of

her life and wisdom which was such

an awesome honor

after our first meeting,

i spent the days with her while

the body and mind were

recovering...

here and there, she would open

a spiritual text

and read out loud

passages that substantiated

her pointings ...

When she read the books, she

would pause intermittently to

explain what was being said

and the meaning and worth it

had for the spiritual path...

She read the Guru's sandals,

books on Hindu deities,

Buddhist/Zen scriptures

Christian texts and passages

from the Bible as well as

many books having to do

with self-discovery ....

her readings and explanations

were soaked in immensely and

greatly cherished

it really opened the heart up

to the beauty and depth of

spiritual symbology and

gave clarity as to where the

passages actually pointed to --

***the heart of all sincere spiritual

writings are the same -

and are meant to point the way

to the non-dual

nature in which all personhood

is dissolved...

this was made so very crystal

clear while listening to Guru..

Even symbols like the Guru's sandals

speak to what lies within

all hearts ---

(liberation and absolute pure

peace)

which is to be cherished

and held the most dear...

what Guru put much stress on

was seeing the purifying energies

such as Kali, Kundalini, Ganesha

Christ or what have you as

not separate from your own being..

and not to project out into feeling

there was something outside

that was to save you

or make things right...

this mentality only serves

to further duality and suffering..***

if a picture came up in a book

of Ma Kali or any other deity

or spiritual image

Guru would point out what the

the meaning of the symbology was

in the framework of how it

related to the spiritual search

and clear away any misguided notions

or superstitions around it that

the world at large appears to

carry much of the time...

she gave honor to the

images in a way that gave

them such vibrant

life and rich meaning...

really so very beautiful...

all of the discussions like this

with Guruji were completely

spontaneous and unfolded

on their own..

there was never anything planned

and it was so absolutely

clear that there was

no self-interest in her being

all was given freely with

no expectation or feeling

of ego present ...

what was given was given

and then forgotten...

this was so refreshing and

lacking of any burden of mind

simply, pure grace....

i learned quite early to not

always be asking

"what does this mean?" or

"what does that mean?" because

it seemed to throw a wrench on the

spontaneity of the flow ..

by doing this some other

jewel of information got missed...

and in time the questions that were

there (well most of time

they were forgotten)

but came

forward in the right time....

Guruji used so many words that i

had never come across before

(i really mean it when i say there

was truly no prior experience of

all that she was speaking of )

she used words like *satsang*

*flow*, * surrender*, *diksha*

*sadhaka*....   all sorts of

foreign feeling terms that i did

not ask her about, but waited

and of course the meaning became

clear eventually....

all in it's own time....