Friday, March 24, 2017

grace flows

when you are in doubt about having the strength to begin a journey
that is so very arduous
it is best to not weigh yourself down by thinking about it so much
or projecting
but to be present in this moment with full attention,
care and heart
like you would if you were strongly pulled
to give your whole self to a situation as you had no more time to waste
you will give it with all you have
not look forward or back or burden yourself with "what if's"
for the journey that lies ahead is long and filled with all sorts of
trials for sure
but to hold yourself back out of saying that you are not this way or
that way or good enough or whatever
is to dampen the fire that is needed to burn fiercely and without end
as an energy to keep this forward motion going
even if the desire is weak now
if one attends to this moment with full heart and love
then this desire is kindled to increase and will be of good service
to the soul
the mountain is high and sturdy this cannot be denied
the waves of past choices or karma are strong as well
yet this fluidity or fountain of grace flows freely without discrimination
as the waters flow or the ganga flows fresh as the first day of spring
in it's flow, it whispers without words of it's presence in all things seen and
unseen as a living wonder that keeps itself perfect
not ever decreasing or increasing in it's essence
not ever leaving itself  out of anything in anyway ever
like a river flowing, without stain, without past and future
it is eternally present
you then dear soul look deeply at yourself and let this river come to cleanse
be not afraid or allow the intellectual surface ramblings
to prevent you from giving the best to yourself
this means that one makes efforts with ease in a way
and relaxes into this flow of consciousness so a door can open
and this process will then have a chance to unfold
one is to be ready in their heart though for sure (and cannot force
or manufacture this desire)
and have the pure intention there and it will burst out when the conditions
are right and ripe
it is the only way to make yourself present and steady now
this is the way of all that come into this path of ancient knowledge
that is not different than what is here and now
only minus the covers

Friday, March 17, 2017

nothing special needed...

spiritual practitioners that took to the deeper meanings and practices 
were set on knowing what is real
they went about doing this with an urgency in their hearts
as if something was hanging on them equal to the feeling 
of life and death 
this is like a weight that hangs on the heart and will not leave  
the soul alone until this quest to know the truth has come to it's conclusion

so the practitioner is taken inward by his strong desire 
to be free
he, if he is deep into the practices does not separate sound from
silence or attempt to sequester himself from the world 
the world is the practice in which he is to stabilize his being 
into whatever experience appears 
without drawing away into a shell of his private world 
or his private space that has been created 
the world is not a place to be resisted, it is a place in which 
all things rise and fall to be seen, heard, felt, tasted, touched 
it is a world that flows as all things flow with beginning, middle and end 
it is the same like this in all places 
so the practitioner need nothing special but his heart open, his mind open 
his life open to this moment that flows the same in all ways 

the practitioner has his connection to his path which carries the energy to 
move him forward, yet he is not dependent or looking for answers there 
he is looking to see what is true and false for himself 
as this is the only thing with lasting value 

the practitioner that secludes himself away is much more vulnerable to 
challenge when it comes up for he has not been assimilated into the regular 
flow of life with it's ups, downs and all the play there 
this is the value of practicing in regular life with no special clothing, ornaments 
outward appearance, language or circumstances 
one is simply moving with the current of circumstances that comes in it's own
time and way and not setting a special place to be within the heart and quietude 

Saturday, March 11, 2017

this is the work...

oh men, women
i write today of this freedom 
that sits silent, blessed with light 
how can one get to know it? 
by moving away from the noise that plays 
in the head constantly 
one must do this or there is only a consuming 
of this ego nature always 
without a break 
which takes one one a journey that is based in self/ego-affirmation
it takes one on a journey that leaves no freshness to flow 
into the spirit 
it takes one on a journey that keeps the soul without sustenance 
of light 
it takes one on a journey that forgets what is righteous 
oh soul 
this is the reality 
for without the purity of light, one is confused in thinking 
what is seen (with the physical eye) is the truth 
and feels that there is only this concrete world to hold to 
with all it's ups and downs 
yet this is the illusion that keeps one revolving here 

it is the one that has courage to move away from this drama-mind 
that can begin to see clearly what is true and false (or transient)
if there is no buffer there that one can see, then the soul is taken
unaware and without knowing on this ride of maya 

this is not how most want it, yet feel this is the way it is without question
the one that is courageous will not let this happen so easily and will
continuously draw away from this mind-stuff and rest in the moment 
it matters not the experience that is taking place, this is the work 
no different whether the experience is good, bad or neutral
yet the experience that is pleasurable can be much more difficult to 
draw away from because the soul desires to repeat it
but those difficult ones, oh love, 
those experiences one is not eager at all to repeat
and will do whatever possible to get out of it and never return 
this is the blessing of suffering that comes to those that remain set
on coming out of it at all cost 
for the mind really is a thing that one is attracted to out of being familiar 
like a friend or simply a part of who *i* am or what *i* am composed of 
including this gross body 
this is the thing to be looked at -- God did not tell you this for sure 
so we must look at this fallacy and see that thoughts rise, fall, have breaks
all of it -- look, look..... question without taking any answer to be the truth either
for this will prop one up in another way and another set of belief systems 
will be adopted..

Friday, February 24, 2017

one rose

in the flow of the universe all things have their time 
and place to be born 
and nothing can stop what is a law of god 
no man, woman, strength, might, resistance 
so we move with the universe as the willows do 
bending with the winds that sing thru them 
we bend with the tides of change 
and not allow our hearts to be overshadowed by 
that which comes, be it ugly, beautiful or anything else 
for there will be a time when that particular manifestation
changes and blooms to something else 
as all opposites turn to the other direction in time 
and all things that are seen now are dying and rebirthing too

as the surface waves play and bring up appearances 
of so many things 
oh one that is true 
you reside deep and alone, free of the passing fancies of change 
and all else that rises there 
deep inside the freedom-heart as a one that is in a secret consciousness 
not of the world though seemingly so 
you move with the form and yet are not that movement 
you speak with the lips and yet are not those words 
you bloom in a variety of ways that are like the lovely fruits on the trees 
that hold so many wonders 
and yet remain untouched by this play of color 
you descend too like the leaf on the branches spiraling down to 
dirt, dust decay, death and then gone 
and yet are not at all cast in shadows of those images of ending and 
beginning any more than the sky is touched by the clouds 
oh true one 
deep beneath the waves of phenomenal play you rest 
and those that have and are resting there know full well
this light of one 
resting as a presence of love, life and freedom everlasting

one bloom, oh world 
one rose for you kept as a secret treasure 
of forgotten purity 
continuously, it blooms
without need of water or attention
quietly, it blooms, delicate, rich, life-filled 
without company it lives 
alone as itself
as the freedom-heart 
as the heart of all

Monday, February 20, 2017

secrets hidden

the moon, with it's secrets hidden
came when the sky was reddened with blood
casting themes beautiful to behold
bringing something other than what is known in the concrete
the moon freed a speaking way that is still bubbling
some in it's song of spirit
like a lake that has churned up something from the earth
that lie dormant, waiting to be lifted up and taken to the human heart
as a light of faith, hope, love, awakening

the moon with it's energy so wondrous sent a cosmic kind of
doorway to the heart, yes it did
how it does this in the cosmos, who can say?
then those visions flowed one after another
specifically alluring to the heart was the one of Mary virgin
lilley white is she, free of disease, suffering or sin
she did not speak, oh sons, daughters
no, not a word truly
but her essence shone that sung of purity in all things here
and there and in between
pure like a dove  flying above the world
or a swan that floats on the glassy lake, untarnished by the
debris underneath
she spake with her heart of the cosmic way
of the open doorway (to the universe), with stairs leading up to it
the stars shining like sparkling lights in the darkness and the crescent moon
she pointed to (the open door) with her left hand and her right hand, she held to her lips
like shhhhhh it is a secret way, this mysticism that works it's silence into the mind
and every part of the material and immaterial spaces
like a cleaning out that lasts a long, long time
indeed, a cleaning of the lifetimes of clutter that has been left to collect dust and put hard things
in the eyes, ears and tongue to taste, hear, see and be with
she shows the doorway that is open to those that are true and sincere and desirious of
this seeking
and desirous of this liberation
that there is a way thru the mind, a way thru to the spirit heart of love, stillness  and
joy everlasting

Friday, February 10, 2017

ready to let go..

oh men, women of the world
when will you put your thinking ways away?
when you will you read the words of the earth mother
with her writing of light
where worldly ways are worshipped not
for she is not cognizant of these little dramas of mental tales
her stories are felt in the presence of love, light, rain, sun, sky, moon,
mountains, clouds, rivers, forests, winds
her way of speaking flows free of fetters of separation for it does
not compartmentalize or hold back it's beauty from any
her eyes do not see differences
her mouth does not speak things that make one against another
when one comes into this space of light that is still and free this way
then there cannot be this mind set of justifications, harboring of emotions
or wanting to control anything or anyone
how can this be? it is impossible

oh men,women of the world
do you know when you keep bringing attention to your little world
that you keep it revolving like a wheel that turns and turns
this is certainly the case
but when you are ready to let go of this drama that constantly
puts it's voice in the center to be heard
then you are ready to go within, for you cannot have it both ways
where you are keeping this separate drama that is familiar to you
and letting go too
this is why one that is true is ready to be done with the world
and retreats into the heart for solace
for you see...the conditionings are so strong that pull and pull
yet one is not cognizant of this when lost in it, but lives with it
like it is truth
so one is to need a stronger force (grace) to break these bonds
and energetic patterns
this is why surrender, forgiveness, humility, compassion, and
when one is fully ready, a true Guru is needed to finish the journey
as this one has the clarity and balance to give
but one is to be ready to surrender
this is not something that can be understood, it will come with experiences
that make one see the conditionings that play out
and one is to challenge them and not follow them
so they can eventually break
this may sound like something like oh yes, no problem,.... but when faced
and encountered, it is different entirely
for one is to face the dark things inside, the demons that haunt and taunt and
often come as masquerading as light or something that is ego bolstering
or fear or attachment or regret and on and on and on
this is the work of it oh friends that are sincere
and one needs to hold their ground
and not get put down by it
or react with more drama and go off on another tangent
for we are not inside made of these things that cause weakness or
pride or strength or what have you (when the coverings dissolve)
but we are made of life in it's purity that is not at all tainted with
anything of the personal
so we have to not be taken in by these dramas
they rise to show one that this is what has been collected and has you bound
and believing in it's story...
they rise to show one what is there to be seen and free of
they rise to show one what is there to be forgotten and brought to death
they rise to show one what is there that is to be left to wither, slow, halt
they rise to show one that this is not to be nourished or given the food of your attentive energy
they rise to show one that this is not to be understood, but only an energy that revolves
here it it is gone...
here it it is gone...and here it is again and again and gone again
if it changes, it cannot be solid and true
so this is the way of a sincere one that goes on to be true
this one is not deceived by these stories any longer and continues forward to be purified in grace
not easy, never, never easy.... but the mind is seen to this one as an energy that creates suffering
and does not bring about peace ---this is so easy to see souls... but not easy to be free of ....

oh men, women of the world
though i am not fully done with this journey yet
i am so very blessed that these thoughts slow intermittent
and drain down to the ground of being where they are
not always in my face to be heard
then the flow of life is present without barriers of i am this or  that
as nothing exists, and yet there is peace and fullness
the richness of nothing else but this
i cannot really speak to the end yet
but i will tell you that this mind is an energy of suffering
that is not to be given attention or love or seen as who and what you are
the mind has not given me anything but troubles and troubles
so i am one that has given up the world entirely and live very simple
and quietly and keep to myself most of the time
unless there is some socializing with my Guru
or a few friends of the path that are here, or a brief hello
this is how it has been for many, many years for me
as i have put my time into this search with whole heart
and have fallen down hard, yes indeed i have and have risen up again
and have fallen again to rise yet again
i cannot tell you to undertake this journey
(unless you are truly desirous of liberation with every fiber of your being)
for this journey is beyond hard
but can tell you that the alternative is the mind
and to look there and see it's workings
and make your own decision as to your life
i can just say that the world is not the source of happiness
personal experience is not the source of happiness
and i can just tell you about this slowing down of thoughts
and gaps between thoughts and distant, garbled thoughts
and how the practices cut the mind to bits little by little
i can only tell you that when these thoughts are gone, that there is no pain
i can just tell you from my own experience of this long, arduous, painful
wondrous journey from where the consciousness is now and what is taking place
that is all i can speak from souls
and this is all that one can do is be honest in this relaying

love, light and stillness to all
om shanti

Saturday, February 4, 2017

vision this morning 2/04/17

what is seen is a building that is crumbling and being 
the very last bits of it are standing
there is an opening in which the ground can be viewed 
an image appears of a form that walks out of this building 
he is walking upright and straight 
beside him is a dog that he is walking  
this signifies the worldly phenomena of all creatures 
that is forever evolving, changing in form and appearance 
some stairs appear before the forms, they begin to ascend 
stair by stair they climb without a break or stopping to rest 
above them the higher realms live, where all is freer in spirit 
this spirit realm is navigated thru, then there is an engulfment of light 
that comes and dissolves the world of phenomena in which no 
separate form is seen, but only light lives single without any 
objects to shade it from being completely present in it's fullness

what happens next is, a tree manifests in it's splendorous image 
of bountiful wonder 
it spreads it's branches progressively outward, it brings it's freshness 
out and out in wider ways so it covers the human condition that is 
living out karmic flow of lifetimes
which is all consuming to the mind and spirit (for most that dwell on that plane) 
the tree appears from the lifetimes of searching that this soul has done 
in which the edifices or constructions of mental conditions have been 
this soul has moved beyond the confines of those structures and now 
lives as buddha lives in the way of being awake 
this energy is free and carries no containers that keep it bound within 
a form 
a form of this, that, it is released
and can be a blessing to the ones that are thirsty for realization

the tree fills itself spontaneously with fruit, fruit appears on each branch 
bright, red fruit that is healthy, succulent, ripe, nourishing in every way to 
this fruit sits in joy and fullness, intrinsically perfect, without bruising,
stains, sorrow that is felt in the mind's of men that feel they are the form-experience 
for this consciousness that is free, is not ever touched by experience like this
not ever, not ever 

a form then comes to the tree and plucks one of it's wonderful fruits and begins 
to eat of it 
he swallows it well and then drops to his knees in devotion, surrender, sadness 
too (as he has not felt this type of spontaneous love in this way for so long it seems) 
quietened he is, resting within this great love that is feeling so newly found to him
this is how it is souls, when one has found this bright wonder of truth 
it is a completely different experience that cannot be denied
and one is not able to go back easily to be in the flow
of the mundane world (if they are sincere)

so this soul is on his knees in love and quietude 
then, a lingum appears in the center of the tree where there is often a knot 
or a hole that creatures dwell and enjoy
this lingum appears with the stripes of shiva, the crescent moon and the 
flowers of devotion
then, within this soul that is prostrating, there appears a lingum too 
it manifests in his heart and beams brightly
as he has become this lingum energetically in all ways due to his love within himself 
that he allowed to grow, and be consumed by the grace that came forward to 
that kundalini brought with it's way of washing clean the phenomenal appearances 

so, this is the vision this morning 
it seems very long in writing, but when these visions (and they far, far fewer now) come, 
the feeling and full message of it is just there unfolding in imagery so easily seen 
and understood without thinking or attempts to figure it out 
if you can imagine when you see the beauty around you flowing so well 
to attempt to write of it dumbs it down for sure and makes it sound very involved, but 
to witness it, it is right there and not needing anything else -- it speaks for itself 
this is the beauty of it 
but at any rate, here it is --- this unwinding phenomena that is playing out 

here too, there is still slowing, slowing, slowing of mind....

may all be well
om shanti