Saturday, January 21, 2017

visions unfolding


as this mind unwinds, this morning
and here and there are still some visions
so i will share with you, this unfolding

there was a man seen who looked weary in face and
feature
then his head bent down and he was in prayer
there were spirits seen that rose around him, the
spirits of maya that taunt, chant and make themselves
known in thoughts and ego risings
this man remained with head down, his eyes had black
coverings on them
his ears too were covered as he was resting there internal
and not listening to those voices and vibrations of mind
but listening with his heart to the sound of light or pure
consciousness, opening his mind and heart to that
and then he and the whole scene was drenched in water
that ran like a river
it poured and poured outward and brought those
reflections of mind and body to run in this river to be
cleansed by grace

there was a form looking down into this open area in
the rocks in which light flowed thru
one had the view from above this scene and the back
of this man's head could be seen
his form slowly was bending over, going deeper into
this light that was open
and then his form dissolved into the jutting sharp rocks
and was absorbed there
leaving just the light that flowed outward

native american symbols unfolded in many shapes and
styles, the eagle, the feather, the wolf, the shelter of animal
skin, the tools made of wood
then an elder manifested, his coverings of nature are made
by hand with care and love,
the mind within this elder is connected and embedded in the cosmos,
his eyes
sparkle with something that is not of this world
his eyes sparkle of wisdom that is born of natural,
divine love and life force
they sparkle of the *one in the all* and the *all in the one* and the
*seed in the plant* and the *leaf in the seed*
and *the planets in the heavens* and the *heavens in the planets*
and the broad stretching ground in the heart of all man, women, child
and life that ever was or can be
his soul is blessed with this kind of raw, tantra force that is not to be
understood by the mind that holds relative knowledge
words do not touch this kind of presence, my dear and how it is so
misunderstood to the one that is only running after superficial things
in this world like a one that is conditioned strong to just be in this mundane
play and is not interested in looking deeper
so he manifests and then there is a spiral like a medicine wheel with
all the beauty of nature in it, the animal, the wind, the rain, the sun, the moon,
the tiger, the mountain lion, the horse, the bear, the feather, the water, the mountains
the running rivers that reflect the light of God, joy and rebirth
as this wheel turns there opens a light (at the center)
that does not fill the whole view, but is smaller
it glows of light and within it, there is a small embryo there resting
the rebirth is there resting
that is all with this vision

there was a path that was wide and moved outward into the emptiness of the
sky
towards the end, it became more narrow and more dark almost like it had been
burned by a fire
so it was rather shaky, looking to collapse at any moment
then the more narrow part of this path  (that looked charred by the fire)
began to collapse
as it did not have any more moorings left to tether itself to the worldly realm
and it fell away
and the sky is what remained

this last vision also had a feeling of native american in it in the beginning
and then it was brought outward into the deep blue sky with clouds
a line of bright yellow flowers could be seen that flowed outward within this
sky... bright and dancing in the emptiness that was so etheric and beautiful to feel
and be with
and what was heard is one has to have *faith or believe* and then the door opens
and then to feel it in your bones, your breath, your skin, your vision, your words,
your thoughts, your actions,
to feel it when you sleep, when you rise, when you are alone or with company,
when you hear, when you touch, taste, smell, see, or anything that is done or not done
feel it in all times and places, this light
for this light is always there and everpresent
at the end of this vision, there is an image of Christ (which is appearing now)
in white robes, luminescent with arms outstretched
his eyes are sparkling with stars, and one can go into him and feel the whole
cosmos, open and expansive as the background
then again, what is heard is:
have faith, child
have faith

unfolding visions like this have not come for awhile
it is definitely unwinding, so may one enjoy it for what it is
and enjoy the moment in it's purity

om shanti


Friday, January 20, 2017

as your-SELF


listening, my love, to you
i heard something of a sound that was beautiful
to the ears of the heart
it played it's lovely notes in there and touched
the energy of that matter of mind
that seemed so real as if it was a
truth
but when you played your song of the
life force flowing in abundance sounding like
something that
was not touched by anything of the world
that music worked on this mind-energy to bring it
to flow too within the river of the source
flowing it did and what has come has been not easy
in the least to taste, touch, hear, be with, feel,
witness,
challenge, detach from as it flowed in such heaviness
many times
yet your music played so singular, so beautiful
on  it went my dear , it played on and on like this
and blew it's breath on my skin and put it's wordless dance
on my bones, blood and all that can be touched and
also my heart too
and i simply could not get away from it, this music of light
filled with that which breaks down the barriers
 
this light flow has left great places of emptiness within the mind
it has left a great feeling of being not who i thought i was

this (slowing and silence) is a gift for certain that comes
without understanding
in thought or mind and comes unexpected, not knowing when
it comes here, or there or standing or sitting
or moving or talking
or at anytime and anyplace and within any activity it comes
and when it does come like this with a force that cuts all thoughts
away, there is so much substantial being remaining there
it plays freely then this music, this  life so pure and whole
like something finally found that has never gone ever
so very strange and yet so very ordinary too
as if one finally has come to the true self and one is finally
as your-SELF without all that layered stuff of mental risings

now my dear, have you not heard this kind of thing before?
yes you likely have
but you cannot really say you have heard anything truly  that
is real to you until it is experienced yourself
so then please go forward to do this one thing in your life
this one thing is the most important/valued thing
to find your true SELF that has never gone from you
how very funny, yes? it is here now and one will find this out
only if you go inward to take the journey




Sunday, January 15, 2017

When they wandered


Some Buddhist practitioners of the past
were forest dwellers 
they wandered the open land of God with very 
little comforts if any at all
they slept on the hard ground with the wild creatures 
about 
they carried no money or weapons or anything that 
could protect them 
their practice was to roam the land with nothing that 
concealed the body or mind from being looked into 
they had at their heart the will and strong desire to 
*look at* or *into* the depths of the soul, body -- 
to penetrate the layers there
and not get caught up in any other activity 
that aroused the mind to get distracted from their search

When they wandered 
they went to dwelling places to ask for food 
they did not pick and choose which house to go to 
they went to the one that came first in the line 
they took what was offered by the layperson without 
question
they were not to take food specially cooked for them or 
take from the dinner that was being eaten by the family
but given the left over parts of the meal and they were 
to graciously accept this no matter what it was 
they could not specify what was wanted -- "a little of this 
or that" or "i don't like this or that" 
they were to be indifferent or equal minded about the offering 
and to eat it while sitting in quietude in the forest, near a tree or 
if they were with others, sit there, but not speaking at all

Some of the practices these practitioners underwent were severe
and hard to bear
such as sitting in the cemetary grounds and sleeping there and being 
with the corpses that were placed there 
in Asia in the far past, the cremation grounds would place corpses that 
were wrapped in cloth to sit on the top of the ground 
and there would sometimes be a strong smell coming from them 
the practitioner was taught to follow the breath no matter what the 
experience and to stay inward thru it 
not to strongly protest or switch something up, but to be with it in it's full
range of what it brought 
for if they changed this or that or asked for something special, the mind 
would get attached to that thing as an escape or attraction
this is not easy to do when one is overwhelmed by sensory phenomena 
such as this 

The practitioners too, were to share their space (the forest) with dangerous 
creatures 
they were not to be overcome by fear when these creatures came near 
and some (practitioners) even went close to these animals as a way to 
purify the fear that was there
the practice was to follow the breath and to give off *harmless* energy of 
just sitting, just being, not tensed up with aversion and thought processes

Sometimes, the practitioners would be ill due to the conditions that were 
very extreme, in terms of weather and low food supply
and simply accepted this and continued with their practice without a break
they would see the body (attachment) with all it's woes and pleasures as 
something to move beyond 
they would see the body attachment with the pain that accompanied as being 
driven (often) by mental valuation of it be it good, bad or indifferent 
and were to abstain from judgement in this way so the seeds of karma could 
burn up
as it was understood that the present condition (be it positive or negative)
is due to actions or (karma) of the past 
and to not get involved in it so those seeds of attachment would not continue
to flower

When these  types of practices were here
there were lush forests that no one owned or occupied 
the monks could travel (relatively) safely through them
as long as they were mindful
and followed the practices with strict discipline 
the forest, to them, was the temple, the church, the monastery
those that wandered there, wanted to find the direct experience versus 
the intellectual gathering of knowledge that the pundits were involved in
this (intellectual knowledge), to them, held no value whatsoever
it did not offer the depth that was being looked for 
and only brought about debate after debate that seemed to 
go nowhere

The monks that chose this austere type of path did not worry about the 
next moment 
this is one of the reasons for the corpse meditations that have come 
to allow the mind to get insight into the imperanence of all things including 
the body as one can easily read about this reality (of death of the body) 
but to get an insight or move beyond it into the depth of understanding that is 
non-dual is entirely different 
so these monks chose to throw out the book knowledge and clutter 
to throw out the comforts too 
to throw out the body glorification and adorning 
to throw out the attachment to friends, family and the like
so as to bring the simple lifestyle to help in observing what is there
and to lay all down to be taken in by the search, and not look back 
which, to most, sounds extremely arduous, daunting,
ridden with potential agonies, dangers and all that one can imagine

Now, in these areas the forests are no longer there in their lushness, beauty 
and empty solitude that is present for those wandering ones 
it is over ridden with populations of cities and such
also, most people did and do not understand this lifestyle or honor it, 
but are superstitious, annoyed, curious (in not such a good way)
and simply not allowing for that space to be 
so this type of practice has died out mostly 
(though  there are still some that live this way
and will not change their course) 

The wandering lifestyle is helpful in the  understanding of the 
deeper meaning of purifying spiritual practices 
though one need not be exposed to all of this 
a true kundalini awakening will bring forward all that needs to be
confronted in terms of fears, 
attachments, layers and layers of collective mind-stuff to be viewed 
kundalini does this quite well without the need for these circumstances
yet, there are still many potential dangers and/or pitfalls that can happen
along the way
so, the practitioner needs the right conditions, the right practices, the right teacher 
that is completed to continue on 
because without it, just like these monks that were living outside in the open air 
with all the dangers -- if they did not have the grounding of their practices and 
understanding where the path was leading 
then there could be unfortunate consequences as well 

om shanti 


Monday, January 9, 2017

the mind needs space


these times my friends
are so very hard to hear about
the violence and all that the news
holds makes one wonder where this
world is heading

violence stems always from wrong views
to protect one's ideals, thoughts, identities
to protect one's land, family or where one is
attached to
violence stems from pride for sure
these forces when they take hold strongly
truly turn the soul around in a direction
that is dark
the one that lives there, he is conditioned
to react without thinking or questioning
he is conditioned to go about with blinders on
to act without remorse
he is conditioned to move in the way of the
shadows
he is conditioned to find self-esteem in the workings
of acts that are unholy

here we cannot understand when this action
goes at a level that is so deep and hurtful
but we can only begin to go to our own minds
to question what is in there that drives our lives
and this of course, is on another level than what was
spoken of above, but the workings of conditionings
are the creator of action and doership

we are to begin to see these conditionings clearly
for the blinders to be removed and fresh light
to enter our being
so much of the time souls are distracted with activity
after activity and there cannot be a breath to take
a look inside, to relax, to partake of the moment in it's
simplicity

but even with an endless stream of activity
one can still observe the mind
and put awareness in the heart
(because awareness is always free and ever available
no matter the activity on the outside)

observe what comes forward as patterns
that have been there from likely very young
there are many themes that one is aware of
that move to make one feel limited etc...
these limitations are simply made of thought patterns
these limitations will dissolve with awareness of the light
and being consistent with practice
and being heart centered
and staying connected to beings of good character
as well as having good character within the self too as foremost
and taking time to be quiet
even when there is no quiet in the mind
having the intention to be so
having the heart of one that is to be in love with the freedom
light
having the heart to be in love with the quietude that comes
when one is settled, relaxed, listening
in tune with the vibrations of life
not so absorbed by thinking all the time

for the mind needs space for one to see what is there
space between thoughts --
space between moods --
space between activity that is of doership
space between what is on the agenda to happen next--
space between wondering, questioning etc
space between any activity of the mind that can be possible
this is when one can see what is in there, REALLY see it
not just a little glimpse and one can then not be so caught up
in it
for projections only keep one running after an illusion
a body of water that is not truly there or living
but will only keep one thirsty for the substance
that really feeds the soul and brings the nourishment
to keep one steady and/or brings peace, calmness, quietude
all the sweet fruits of practice
a practice that has been at the center of one's life
without a break or a forgetting about it or
whatever excuse

we all live in this world that is very dedicated to the outer things
very much dedicated to the outer appearance be it beautiful, ugly
or any in betweens
dedicated to personal pleasures
we all have in our lives work, family, bills etc...
we live in the same world, but the one that does not accept this world
to be what is real and true and feels a strong pull to find the deeper reality
is the one that continues, continues, continues until nothing more is to be done
but to LIVE fully, without the agitation of thought waves
without the feeling of separation and the suffering that brings

this is the writing this evening blessed souls

here, there is still much intermittent slowing of mind/large gaps between thoughts,
as well as mental waves too...
and here, there is still the waiting and flowing with the practices
and what life brings...

may all be well
and enjoy the moment



Saturday, December 31, 2016

God's way


i am writing this evening of the dawning of
knowledge
i may not be good at using words
but i will describe the coming of light
as best possible
the form moves with a slowness about it
the mind moves with a slowness about it
the mind sometimes is diluted heavily with
grace
then the being is consumed with a way of
simply being present without the activity
of mind and body
this is not anything like the rush, rush of the
world or the busy activity (of mind)
that most souls are pushed about by
it is a much deeper way of being that
works in it's own timeline
so often i am in a stopping position
maybe leaned up against a post
or a wall
or maybe sitting in my office
or maybe making dinner what have
you
then the whole combination mind/body is
still and empty (of mental and physical
activity)
this is something that i am not bothered by
at all
not even for a minute as i have given myself
to this journey for wherever it takes me
yet of course pray for the final verse of
this song of ego to be done for good

when samadhi takes over
it fills the mind and body with a flow
of light
the mind is drenched in it like a river
running beautiful, free and without
snags of thoughts
it flows free as a blood flow flows
thru a tree from the roots to the branches
it flows free as a waterway that does not
have constrictions or pollutants in it
it flows free as a blessing or a fountain
that runs to make a clear beautiful song
that is not of mind
it flows free as a poem that has no author
except grace
it flows free as a life force pulsing, pulsing
to the tune of purity
it flows free as a dawning of love
yes, true love that brings with it silence
the form is taken care of then quite well
it does not have any needs that are not
tended to
the mind does not have any desires that burn
and bring one to get up and *do* and *hurry*
so one just rests there
one is just taken over there
in such a good way souls,
in such a pure way
one just lives there in God's way



Friday, December 30, 2016

use it wisely


we have but a little time in this 
form/body now 
so we are to use it wisely and not 
waste our moments on forgetting 
the self and getting carried away 
by the currents of thought 
for life is a precious opportunity 
to gain realization of the SELF
and we should be cognizant always 
of this opportunity 
as we have all that we need at our 
disposal (to move forward)
there is not one thing that is not available 
to go inward 
for all one needs is awareness and the right 
intention or longing
then we can flow forward to the beauty of 
God
what we are given in body is important 
to live in this earthly realm 
but what we have been given in spirit far 
outweighs this 
for spirit is the lasting presence that will go 
on and on 
and we are to nourish that well with heart, love 
care, attention, and all that we have as tools to 
bring the mind to stillness
what is before us as obstacles does not matter 
for those obstacles are indeed a jump of point 
and help one to be of good strength, character
and sturdy presence that will not be moved
by transient happenings
obstacles are opportunities to see one can indeed
find strength in all experiences, not just the pleasant 
ones 
and to become equal-minded about life and all that 
comes 

Buddha spoke of equal-mindedness to be not 
hankering after what feels good all the time 
and not having aversion to what is seemingly 
painful or unpleasant 
these colorings of experience are mental in nature 
these colorings of experience are mind-made 
these coloring of experience are unreal and die away
these coloring of experience are mixed with the personal
view 
these colorings of experience are the making of suffering 
equal-mindedness is what is known as the middle-way
not too far this way or too far that way

so many things come along the way to experience 
but the path truly is very simple 
and all comes down to, open heart, quietude,
breathing, one step at a time, awareness, using
tools given,
love, care.. and surrender, surrender, surrender 

om shanti 


Monday, December 26, 2016

no escape



today, the unwinding continues --
there is no escape from it, try as ego might to spin it's tales of this, that, here and there...
the mind keeps coming into that death grip of deep no-thingness (that carries no persona, baggage of
accumulated concepts/conditionings and ego-centered illusive play)..
at times the mind is not so aware of this grace that is working all the while to consume the surface appearances/waves that have come to be known as the personal self, but then it hits, this all consuming substantial slowing down and falling away ...

this is the best quote to leave you with:

"Just as the prey which has fallen into the jaws of a tiger has no escape, so those who have come within the ambit of the Guru's gracious look will be saved by the Guru and will not get lost." Yes!, Yes! and more Yes!! Keep it coming!!

great day and om