Thursday, October 20, 2016

heavy with wisdom

a man weighs heavy in terms of objects 
he possesses
he weighs heavy in terms of relative knowledge
he weighs heavy in terms of book knowledge
he weighs heavy in terms of family dynamics and 
he weighs heavy in terms of desires and body focus
he does not know that his spirit 
is truly not weighted down by the world like this 
it is formless, without any luggage to bear
it is present in stilled beauty 
it is stainless without any collected experience 
it is like a bright star in the dark sky
everpresent and undeniable
the heart of all
the righting of all wrongs 
and it is *light* 
and *heavy* with wisdom
not worldly objects 

Sunday, October 16, 2016

prior to the story...

it was told to you that you are so
much like a beautiful bird
or like a swan
a paramahansa
a sage or a brilliant light
or like a one that is completely out of suffering
and forever unburdened by body and mind..
it was told to you rightly
by the means of crystal clear stillness
prior to the story...
do you remember?

Thursday, September 29, 2016


when a man takes his leave of the world
he has in him the courage and self restraint 
needed to go onward into himself 
as a one looking to be free of the false
he stays aware and alert 
to the rising ways of mind 
that come and go and distract 
and persuade 
he keeps watch on this night and day

he makes his heart shine bright 
within the mental waves 
and he makes his life one of eloquence
beauty and quiet being

he does not need a temple or 
a special sitting posture 
he does not need a friend to be near
or a lot of pomp and circumstance 
he does not need the right outer 
for what will make him strong are the 
life experiences and the grit 
and the courage to rise above that which is 
temporal in nature
he dives into himself always --
no matter what experience
he looks, he watches 
he questions and remains quiet

he knows not the truth when mind is rambling 
he knows not the way, if mind is in action
he knows not the heart, if mind is in the center 
he knows not his calling, if thoughts are tempting 
he knows not clarity, when clouded by desire 
he knows not freedom, when in the throes of passion
by seeing this
he sees the false ways that occlude 
and takes them not again to heart
but witnesses as a one not involved
he then is as a seeker that is always immersed in sadhana
that is the seeking of fulfillment 
amongst the confusion, he is in sadhana
amongst the ways of men that are not seeking truth,
he is in sadhana
he is in sadhana at all times and under all circumstances 
not carried away by anything no matter how hard or biting 
no matter how glorious or persuasive 
he remains detached within the light of Guru's words and grace 
a man that walks this way is one that is called dispassionate in his practice 
as he is not in the world as a man within doership 
he falls somewhere in between working, effort and effortless flow
he falls in between the lines of black, white and even grey 
for he cannot be captured by definitions any longer 
he cannot be sheltered in desires and pulling temptations of the world 
for he understands this type of desirous mentality
though it may bring some temporary pleasure
ultimately brings pain -- a sting that he is not to desire any longer

he prays to his own heart (if he prays) to awaken to love and light 
he prays to his own SELF to be free of shackles and hinderances 
and habitual mind spins 
he prays to his soul that is to be made like a fire that burns all created appearances 
to ash 
he prays to the life source that is the one power of all
to be free forever and eternally..

he never lets the truth be ignored or forgotten in him
even if he is in the depths of thinking 
he feels this stir to be in love and light always 
haunting him in it's way that is not to be ignored

he lays his burden down by the waters of shiva 
he lays down the sting and the actions that brought unrest 
he lays his mind down on the earth of the universe to be absorbed in love and light
he is a man of character in himself in which he is as an example to others 
by his actions of honesty, and integrity and transparency
how has he come to this path of light?
by his desire to know himself and be free
this has carried him on
and he is to be living in the heart now 
as he can walk home and find God in it's pure state 
he can walk home and be living in joy and beauty
he can walk home and stay as a being in fullness that cannot be shaken
this my friend, is the deep seeking of truth that goes
forward to fulfillment...

this life, what is it?

what has thou to say about love?
is it that which brings comfort
and shelter from the world of woes?
or is it that which comes to tear down
the walls
and awaken one to that which
is unborn, pure
and untouched by *me and mine*?
is it wrapped up in
a man, a woman or child ?
is it a an experience of pleasure ?
or is it that which gives space
for your world, your life
and all that enters there to be?
does it come happy at times
with high waves
and sink down low again?
or is it steady in beingness
not to falter and die away?
like a mountain
this love
what is it?
can you say?

what has thou to say about life?
is it something that is personal?
or is it a flow of pure grace
that has not a name attached?
does it revolve around people and places
things that come and go?
or is it simply here
as a mystery to be lived
and this is all
is it a memory or thought or
experience to look forward to?
is it marked by days and years
and expectations?
or timeless
unchanging in it's essence
a great adventure in which
one knows not what is around
the next corner?
this life
what is it?
can you say?

Friday, September 23, 2016

rooting up the debris/kundalini...

kundalini will bring up all the judgements, fears,
conceptual thinking, habits, vasanas (energetic patterns),
attachments etc.. and put them in your face 24/7
what this journey is truly about is to face them, question them
until those concepts that keep one locked in a cage of being a
certain way or believing one is confined to a body and mind
is broken through for good ---

Thursday, September 22, 2016

the unlearning path

knowledge that is praised by the world is that knowing
that comes from learning 
while this has its place and is needed on some levels
true knowledge does not have content within it
there is nothing to study to be truth
so the scholar will not find it that way
it is more of an unlearning path
where one goes backward into the source 
to be burnt in the fires of purity
in which one becomes what they are originally
and though some sages may speak very eloquently
inside, truly they know nothing and are more childlike
not different from anything or anyone else
just one
how simple is this? 

Saturday, September 17, 2016

just plain slow..

it is so strange when the mind slows
it is like a tape recorder unwinding
the thoughts are sluggish, slow
what one is used to in there (when
thoughts are present)
at least for here, all of the sudden
it is like a tape put on slow speed
where the voice is deep and low
and just plain slooowwww
so very strange
or sometimes the thoughts
sound far away and garbled
and other times simply stop
nothing, just stillness
ah, let those old tapes keep