12/5/15
i have read very little on those that have had visions
i know very little about it
it has not been my focus, ever
but since this experience of seeing has come, i have
read a little bit
not extensive at all, since it really is not where the
mind-set is
what i have been told by spirit as i still get the confirmation
of yes/no inside my head and this is not done in a purposeful
way it feels, but more of a spontaneous happening in which i
truly do not want to know much of it as it can revolve around
like mental energy does...
but, from what i am hearing is that the visions i have seen are
more like Bernadette of Lourdes..
when her vision arose though, Mary appeared more animated, like
a natural person i guess in her way of looking and communicating
she gave her direction to do this and that ...
(which has happened many times with visionaries of the past
apparently as far as getting directions to do this or that like
build a chapel or what have you..)..
Bernadette saw this image as if from a distance --
this was the image, i have written about that was the most outstanding
in the way of being reflected from a distance .. and though i have seen
many images before and since of Mary and other spiritual personages that
are filled with light, i have not seen this way before or since ...
i saw her when walking out of my condominium going to the pool
my condo is on the second floor and when i walked out, i saw
this vision of Mary down farther towards the stairs which is maybe
three condos down from where i was standing
she was standing there, lit up in white with lotuses lining the way
to her on each side with a candle in each lotus, so a path was made to her
she was holding a lovely white lotus and the full moon was behind her
she did not say anything to me...i simply gestured to her in a humble way
with nodding of my head and with my hand to my heart
though, i was told by spirit that this vision is the same as Bernadette's
the difference being that Mary did not speak
to me at the time this particular vision was seen (though she was/is as real as anything).. she did not give direction to me either...
there were times, however when seeing her (and i have seen her many, many
times in various ways and presence and still see her, in fact right now, she appears
to me.. .above me, from her shoulders up, her face framed in white, lovely and unsoiled
as always in presence) that there has been communication and not as Bernadette communicated
with her mouth moving and her body moving like a regular person, but with psychic
communication and understanding.. sometimes hearing internally the words, other times
imagery, other times a knowing or understanding.. a few times a gesturing of her head
or a putting of her hand to her heart.... or a showing of imagery (such as her finger to her
lips and the open door to the cosmos)...
sometimes just her hands moved as when doing the healing work...
she remained thru all of these manifestations entirely unchanged in
purity and being-ness that was fresh and unstained...
i want to say that when you have or do see this way
you do not forget it, it is like an imprint on your soul that is on fire with love, heart and great mystery
it is not something you take as everyday even though your mind may feel or think a certain way,
this divine seeing remains as part of your being and will never die whether the mind is active
or still... it is a deep rich, mystery that remains inside of the soul....
the visionaries of the past, from the little i have read and the few that are written about, most appeared Christian based, but there is no way that this is true because this seeing does not discriminate .. for why would it?, there had to be
many that have seen visions in all types of spiritual life and even some that have never walked in those shoes too, for they may have been young, innocent and open in mind ... this is all that matters,
mostly though, one cannot understand why it comes to them this way, this cannot be understood
at all... for speaking about myself, i feel so completely ordinary and not like a one that would have this sort of thing come...
i know too, that i do not have miracle marks on me -- though the stigmata was placed on my hands in a vision one time as they dripped with blood and have had much debilitating pain and weakness (in my hands) for years...
also there has been seen visions of light coming from them (my hands) and tree branches with leaves in them
and the entire cosmos was seen in them, i know it is all very strange to hear, but this is what
has been seen..
i know the church has also said that some visions can be hallucinations, but i know these visions spoken of are not.. i hear voices and have heard voices, but these are also not hallucinatory in nature i have never hallucinated although one can drift very far away with this .. it is a kundalini happening which is different than a diagnosable illness of schizophrenia in which the one seeing visions has no spiritual signs or symptoms of spiritual openings, it is a very, very different thing....
here again, is the writing on this vision spoking of about Mary which hardly captures her
presence ...
om shanti
9/25/15
you have come here
to sacrifice the ego
so keep coming child
and do not fear the light
put your head to rest in God
she is here, Mother Mary
she will anoint your forehead
with fresh water
and take your chin in her
lovely hand to pull
up your face
and meet her eyes
so crystal clear are they!
they penetrate into your
soul like moon beams
and brighten your days
and light your mind up
with visions of beauty
this is where i saw her
yesterday
i was walking out of
my place where i live
and before me manifested
a path of pure white lotus
flowers
each with a candle glowing
at the end of this path was
Mother Mary
holding a lotus blossom
and offering it to me
she is a vision of loveliness,
adorned with white framing
her face and falling on her
shoulders
she radiates purity so strongly,
lovely like doves flying and harps
playing and moon beams falling
behind her was the full moon
round and perfect
without any flaws of the world
this vision just came out of the blue
different, a little then the others
as it was projected outward more
i gestured to her most certainly
in a humble way of gratitude and
honoring of her purity
then, as i was swimming in the
pool,
there were white lotus flowers
floating everywhere
like a water lotus garden, so fresh
walking up the stairs,
lotus flowers lined each stair with
a candle
sparkly little lights with fresh
white blossoms surrounding them
then, as i was walking,
there was a lotus blossom placed in the
hearts of the passerbyers
later, my hands dripped with blood
an image of the stigmata was upon them,
very soon, this changed to lotus flowers
and my hands were made of light
more lotus flowers were placed on my eyes,
my ears, my mouth, my heart and feet
as i walked, lotus flowers fell from my
mouth
Mother Mary anointed my forehead and
looked at me with her loveliness
as a way to say, this is to take away suffering
her image is one of beauty untouched!
i want to say to you, to feel her too
in your heart
for there are many, many lotus flowers
arising from this purity
and are offered to all of humanity as
a symbol of purity and to say,
be quiet, be present
be in love with heart
here she is, Mary
what a presence of eternal beauty
she comes as love itself
she offers the sweetness of the flower,
the ripe fruit of sacrifice
she suffered truly
and purely
and now is in heart as one, undivided whole
feminine love divine
pure love....
Mother Mary
