river of spirit language

on this day of 25 january 2018

i am writing about the spirit light work 

with Guru

today i will say there was more of a fluidity 

to the sessions 

for here, it took awhile to get the sea legs back

because without the crisp clear visions, i had no

feeling of how the work would flow 

but the work does flow dear readers 

as an artist finds it's canvas after awhile 

and the drawing, colors and portraits just 

appear on their own without the doing of that 

one drawing it--
for it lives in their soul-blood

it is like this for sure 

so long ago, from young, there was a seeing 

of things and hearing things 

of which i was not comfortable with 

and a feeling of channeling too
(painful at times)

yes, but these things were not spoken about 

when one is merely a child 

so nothing was said, not ever

and of course this continued
and became more pronounced with time 

and with the energy of kundalini getting stronger 

and now may we return to these sessions

the energy is not like channeling this time 

i must say the channeling done during the blood moon

was an all consuming experience that bubbled up 

and filled the form-mind so that the experience of the spirit

was felt so deeply 

and this is why the visions were preferable to this 

as they would come in an instant with strong illumination

and seeing of the personages of spiritual nature 

in vivid detail, lustre and finery so strikingly heart speaking 

as if being right there

and now the vivid detail
and fine strength of illuminated imagery is diminished,
but not in the least lost in the heart 

as it sings now in a different way 

it is not felt like the heavy intense channeling before, but lighter 

flowing from the heart and head 

as an instrument feels the delicate wisps of the one plucking 

it's strings 

or the beat of the hand on it's texture of skin

it arises from the heart, souls in it's own odd nature of coming forward 

the spirit-rock-energy is held and the sound of the voice of spirit is there 

it does not take over this one's being as before 

it simply vibrates more surface in a way or more lighter 

and that one's spirit-voice-story moves outward in words or displays of what is 

there with hand mudra signs and verbage 

not at all unnatural feeling here, but i must say -- not something that was 

spoken at all about before 

as i felt in some ways 

rather odd and different is the only term to use 

as the seeing of things was so very pronounced for so long 

i felt that i wished for it to go and not come back
as i felt unsettled about having such an odd way of being

i am speaking in a flow of words now my friends 

if you are interested to peak inside the soul of spirit heart vision

but if you are not at all interested then please go and enjoy the moment 

but this is how the hands are moving and speaking now 

so to come to this thing of expression
with the messages and spirit counsel
is something that was honored greatly by Guru

and it was not at all feeling strange when with her 

i have never felt it strange to myself 

but felt it would be odd to others, yes! it's true 

but Guru made a space as sacred light to allow the flow of spirit 

and though this soul pulled back sometimes to not be so 

held in it's spirit-grips which occurred before 

in the blood moon time 

but now the flowing of it is much more settled, though some shakiness

and other energy openings 

are here 

it is fine and even Guru said, that i seem different around it 

partly due to her settled presence of allowing love to flow in it's

uniqueness 

partly due to so much clearing being done 

and mantra internally said

and i did tell her thank you for making this very odd way of speaking 

seeing and feeling, blessed, dignified and lit up with light