Goddess

Kali
this energy
that lives
as goddess
but not as a timid thing that shies away
from strong currents that rush on
wild and without restraint
not as a little shrinking violet
that blushes
not as a thing that can be played with
or taken casually in truth
because Kali is the life force
that is all
how can anything be set against this?

Kali
the one that is beautiful
and inherently compassionate
though most run from her
and she laughs as these ones
cannot get away from
her grace
that lives in all souls equally
and comes forward as maya
or kundalini
whatever the nature
it is only one
mother always...

Kali Mandir Temple

The Kali Mandir Temple in india
makes animal sacrifices on a regular basis
this is shocking to many to hear
but is not an uncommon practice with those
set on rituals that bring purification
the animal nature is what is to be destroyed
this is one of the deeper meanings of this ritual
the animal nature is what creates vibrations that come
from a lower plane
in the way of looking for physical connections and
hungering for pleasures that are not
of spirit or lead to anything holy
the animal nature is cravings, seeking always to satiate the
appetites in one way or another
this is what takes place in the world for many ongoing
...unending in it's pressing desire
so to sacrifice this nature of animal is what is offered over
to grace
to be burnt in the fires that purify...

The Kali Mandir Temple
makes goat sacrifices -
Guruji has spoke on this many times
that it is the stark taking away of life in one instant
in one breath, it is here, and the next gone
never to return as that unique manifestation
this is what death is --
no joke
coming at a time unknown --
and at *any* time...
completely impartial ..
not more lenient with one, than another ..
this is why some of the Buddhist rituals
truly live each moment as if it could be the last
always prepared within and without for death
to take the form-
this is also how the path is to be walked ..
staying in the heart and savoring each moment
without attachment...

The nandi bull is set on the altar facing
the Shiva Lingam
why?
because this is the animal/physical type of nature that is to be subservient
to the absolute --
and to be destroyed in the heat of Kali which is Guru's grace

The body is a vehicle truly and gives an opportunity
to enter into that which has never been born
and never dies ...
this is the end that is the beginning
and is the fruit that comes when one continues..
until then..
one holds steady in the moment ..
one breath at a time ..
one step at a time...

Om

letting light in

the letting in of light is within surrender
not within hoping always
it comes from opening up to what is here
and not pushing away the natural flow of things
not forcing it or
slowing it down
or putting a cover over it...
but opening up and relaxing into the breath and mantra
and pure experience...
allowing quietude to be --
simple in it's way
and yet much harder if one struggles with it...

freedom is within all and for all
to come unto
it is amazing how so many
say within
this one is higher and i am lower
and nurture this kind of thing
certainly the Guru has risen above the suffering
and this is to be honored
but never has it been said to
create an identity around anything
even seeking and being a sannyasi
becomes an identification that one attaches to
and then what has it become
something entirely different...
it is simply a stepping stone towards freedom
but all of it goes in the end...
so be free of all thoughts of this and that ..
one needs to walk the path alone
and come to this peace alone
not grasping at externals
no matter how good or bad

friends, the season of now
is upon us
not tomorrow or yesterday
it is here now
untouched as the bright dawn
and lovely spreading trees of glory
untouched as the pastures of deep green
and succulent fruit that blooms
untouched as the mountain range
steady unto itself as hearty substance
that is unchanging
untouched as shiva in it's purity
untouched as om with it's vibration
that is always here
friends, the season of now is upon us
be in it
live freely as you are made to be
come unto yourself in light and bright wonder
come unto yourself as beauty in it's true nature
and that which is not separate
be living
not dying and being reborn
this is not real
you are always life
true and pure
always

no words

like a seed now this light 

it is quiet within 

and will open with the right care
and heart tending love 

it will unfold as the flower 

or the sun that rises slow and steady

or settle as the sea that is calm

and dissolve as water in milk

and the river into the ocean

it will make itself known

as the opening of the door 

with light that filters thru

and the clouds parting 

and the winter suddenly changes 

and warm sun shines about 

suddenly 

spontaneous 

grace flowing here ..

now friend 

this is the time of joy

for the one that can enter into it 

without putting on it a story of *me* 

will be in this way of seeing clearly

not set apart in the land of shadow

like those that talk a lot without

any true experience behind it

these ones are not present really

but entranced by words that flow

out of the mouth

yet this has nothing to do with peace

for true silence is unutterable and has 

no words  at all 

clarity...

men of gathered knowledge

such as those in the psychology fields

have little to give that can set the soul free

what they have to offer as aide is more mentation,

only a different version

which serves to create a higher wall to truth

and pure life

a bigger, better story sounds so great to egos

and may soothe 

those souls needy of confirmation and nurturing

for a time...

but, it is not serving the soul well at all...

for what comes of this, but more self-protection,

justifications and divisive mind play...

which can be worse, because now there has been

a so called authority that has substantiated 

the poor me drama...

just put a twist on it that is supposedly wiser 

and better sounding...  

but, no matter how flowery or self-justified the words sound,

there is no freedom to be found within it...  

a better sounding story is also much more 

difficult to let go of ..

because it brings pleasure to the ego...

and pleasure is much harder to be rid of than pain --

which makes it a bigger thorn and more burdensome to bear

even though within, one has fooled themselves that it is different...

it is not -- 

it stems from the same grasping to a *me* center --

and creating a world of separation and thus suffering..

as Guruji puts it "velvet bars" -- 

harder to break free of indeed...

this is why the Guru is the greatest blessing of one's life --

even if one is not to enter freedom in this lifetime...

still, to open to the wisdom of Guru's blessing

will begin to break down the walls, so light can enter

instead of creating *more* walls and games ...

like the layers of an onion --  

one layer after another is shed until the pure core 

is revealed ...

this is the way the grace of Guru works...

a *loosing* (of the me drama),

rather than gaining a more attractive story 

that will keep one bound even tighter

to the wheel of karma...

uncreated

seek me here
love,
in the heart
where there is only beauty and
uncreated joy
what has thou to loose
but the suffering
and what has thou to gain
but eternal peace

friend,
thou has been away
such a long time
and where have you been?
you could tell me of all the places you
have visited
on your journey --
and all that you have tasted and held
to yourself as precious
or all the things that have been very hard
and put an imprint of sadness on your heart
yet, i will say to you
that this is all untrue and unreal
for it has come and gone
and is not living in this moment
and in this moment
what is truly happening?

friend,
i have prayed way back
a lot
and have found that miracles
bloom
but this did not bring happiness to
the soul ever
just temporary satisfaction
so i left this behind
and had to face the ego
with it's crafty ways and
hidden agendas
and all the false shows it puts up
and this was much harder than praying
and hoping
yet it has brought a settled peace
after many, many years
it has been the hardest thing
yet worth every bit of it...

man of truth

if you are a man of truth

you will walk in the land of shadow

but not be touched by it

your eyes will be always on brahman

whether in the city or towns or 

home or out in the world 

this will be no different

whether sitting, walking, 

eating, drinking, 

speaking 

or being silent

if you are a man of truth

you will not go to the well of unrest

and be tempted there 

as desires will no longer rise to push

the soul about 

what will be your name

shiva

what will be your mark

detachment

what will be your family

none

what will be your home

absolute

what will be your joy

this moment

what will be your work

pointing the way to truth

what will be your rest

unbroken quietude

where do you reside

kevala or absolute aloneness 

the mind has no answer

since time beginning, maya has cast a shadow

over perfection

creating the false perception 

of *me and mine*

and from here, a world is born

this is quite a mystery indeed

from where does this energy come?

and to where does it return?

the mind has no answer to this...

nothing that comes

since time beginning, maya has created a dream

in consciousness 

that flows on and on

a dream of birth and death

and of everything in between..

this is quite a mystery indeed 

from where does this energy come?

and to where does it return?

the mind has no answer to this..

nothing that comes

since time beginning, maya has created 

the feeling of separation

in which there is an experiencer and 

a world

yet this is completely false and unreal

as a mirage in the desert

this is quite a mystery indeed 

from where does this energy come?

and to where does it return?

the mind has no answer to this..

nothing that comes..

since time beginning, maya has driven

the soul as the wind that moves 

and created waves 

that bring the feel of duality... 

when truly
the one ocean reality is all 

that has ever existed

this is quite a mystery indeed

from where does this energy come? 

and to where does it return?

the mind has no answer to this 

nothing that comes...

maya - the illusive energy..

A misty, illusive play this maya
bringing up waves that jostle and bounce about
continuously --
no still center to be found
the soul that is looking to be freed of this force
is to relax in the heart
see it for what it is
unreal
born from lifetimes of clinging to the false
and having no true power within it
if one can see clearly what it is
transient and insubstantial
this is the beginning of pulling away
and witnessing
vs getting lost within it
and losing clarity

this maya has no truth within it
it has no name or face
and cannot be grasped or controlled at all
it can only begin to be
conquered by grace alone
which is the sword of truth
that comes from Guru's words and presence
otherwise maya
will go on and on...

this maya is not real
as the reflection in the water is not real
it is moving within the still center
of grace
captured by the one identifying with ego
it lives and seems to be real
but it is truly just imaginary
as the dream of being a one that is
high or low
or bound or free
or this or that
in reality, eternity is all that exists
even in delusion
this is true always...

this maya carries one away into
a sea of unrest
not having any substance or wisdom
within it
why to chase it and create more of it?
as it will only continue to
torment the being
with restless vibrations
which is not your true nature
begin to see it for what it is
and do not come under it's tempting sway
be here in heart

this maya will never settle itself
only the compassion and sharp words of Kali
which is Guru
will break it down and render it powerless
to haunt no more
never to rise again as separation
what suffering it brings
but have no fear, friends of heart
you are well within
and will come
to know yourself in time
with sincerity
and true efforts
it may take a lifetime(s)
but it will come


this maya haunts
like a play of mirrors
in itself, it is nothing but a reflected
appearance
a gross or subtle form of energy
rising from nowhere
be free of it dear souls
rest easily in heart and the
gift of Guru's bright words and
stilled presence
only here, will this dream begin to loosen

this maya has not found anything of reality
or truth
is this not true friends?
has thou found a little bit of insight
and now where has it gone?
it has been forgotten
so do not entertain in this moment
maya
let it go
and it will find another place to roam
where it is given attention
but not here now

undivided

free of mind 

the man of knowledge does not 

return to the world that brings hunger

and seeking 

his mind is eternally at rest 

within the non-dual

this light satiates the soul

immediately

and brings peace to the being

at once

free of pride, sloth and mental

games 

the man of knowledge 

holds nothing within

he rests forever in light 

and knows not anything other 

than brahman

the one and all

he is forever in heart 

seeing nothing but this 

wondrous light 

yet behaving as if completely

ordinary

calm in mind 

without turbulent waves of thought 

the man of knowledge has no cross

to bear 

or image to uphold 

what is there to uphold or show 

when all is undivided and the same

essence? 

what is there to be? 

or to become? 

or to cover?

or to bring forward?

kneeling with hands held to the heavens

wandering in search of fresh water 

looking for pleasure always 

the man of knowledge has nothing to 

do with these things as his eyes 

see only the real 

unsoiled by other 

unburdened by hope 

of something better 

or fear of something worse 

these are only shadows created by mind 

not the real ever

mighty light Shiva

Shiva
mighty light
thou is a blessing as the sweet rains
cooling to the soul
that has not tasted the sweet fruit
of spirit in many a day and year
coming forward
to bring life giving waters to
seekers that walk on thirsty for substance
that is unwavering as the mountain range
against the glorious sky
ablaze with color


Shiva
the light of all
savior to those
wandering ones
that come to bathe in the waters of
wisdom that wash away
separation from the soul
revealing life in it's purity
as it always is
not divided ever
not as two

Shiva
left as is
untouched as the clear waters
fresh in life
rich in heart
set always as the sun in the sky
ablaze with life
so pure and healthy
like a swan on the glassy water
paramahamsa
completely alone in beauty
like the swan

Shiva
most auspicious in presence
not at all like mind
that moves unsteady
but at complete
rest
untouched by the transient
as the mountain so glorious
forever in majesty
like the mountain
beautiful

Shiva
not praying ever
not made of
heaven or hell
not here or there
not left or right
not set apart
not left out in the shade
not fretting or
lamenting
not restless or
shifting
not sitting or standing
not clothed
not burdened by body
not seeking
or giving
not coming
or departing
just is
shiva

unborn

for the saint 

the only birth is the body

the soul has always been eternally free

unborn 

not this 

not that 

forever whole 

deathless

for the saint 

the heart is pure always 

as the seas are made glorious 

and the winds come from 

beautiful stillness

the rains 

and the seasons 

all rise and fall in the same heart

that is one self

for the saint

there has never been other 

only this one 

not ending 

not beginning 

as a light unto itself 

there is nothing that can touch

this purity

for the saint

the prison is the mind 

the mind that is not true 

as it is has no substance 

or constancy within it 

it is made of energy only 

mercurial

and not immutable like 

pure spirit

for the saint 

all that is seen and unseen

is the same 

not living somewhere apart

and belonging to anybody

just is 

so very natural

yet ungraspable

to mind

for the saint 

peace is not born 

because it can never die 

peace is what is real 

within all 

living as sat chit ananda

eternal

for the saint 

life is now always 

it cannot be contained in form 

and mind 

it is a mystery 

an unalterable reality 

that is shiv shakti in one 

not two

not two

for the saint 

love is uncreated 

it is inherent within the soul

of all

it has nothing to cling to 

nor can it be made into 

something to own

it lives always unencumbered 

with no blockages 

like a river

flowing

for the saint 

the one reality is what *sees*

as clarity

not the eyes truly

as they are merely instruments 

that are empty

inert 

seeing is of spirit

as well as pure intelligence 

for the saint 

me and mine fall away 

to never rise again 

in the heart 

all is well and

forever one

at peace 

effortless 

joy

for the saint

men and women are simply 

forms of the same one 

not separate 

a play of God in all aspects 

but never dancing apart 

always undivided

free 

Guru

the Guru is the light that shines 

in body as the heart

not to be seen as separate 

from yourself 

the same within you 

is Guru

for the Guru

the way is always clear

of obstacles 

as obstacles are not real 

but made of thoughts that come and go

how much reality does this have?

for the Guru

the mind does not exist

it never has 

it was simply a dream 

that carries nothing of substance

and never will

for the Guru 

the present is all that exists 

unburdened by thought 

without a personal story covering it over 

this has no reality

to the one 

resting in truth

for the Guru

the mystery is the norm

it is not filled with awe 

or anything extraordinary

this is what remains

simply life in it's pure form

not anything else

for the Guru

there is no goal 

what is here is full and complete

nothing added

nothing taken away

no one remains to

strive for anything 

just is 

simple 

for the Guru

energy of emotion lives for the moment

only

it does not go on and on

in waves to start up again

and again

when it is gone 

it is finished 

done

not to return

this is all

for the Guru

the body simply moves 

in accordance with shakti

no matter this play

of outer appearance 

the still mind

does not change ever 

for the Guru
the absolute is all that exists
there is nothing other
never changing
never dying away
only this


for the Guru
clarity is eternally present
seeing without seeing
hearing without hearing
living and breathing
in the heart
is this light
within truth
always

for the Guru
there are no devotees
only one undivided essence lives
in reality
yet grace allows for those seeking
a way out
to be purified by this light
that is truly the same SELF


for the Guru
what comes, comes
what goes, goes
no one is there to attach to the movement
or create a story around it..
never is there anything changing
in this reality
that is one

for the Guru
the many are a dream
and unreal as mist on the water
it is compassion that sees one
out of suffering
if one is sincere
to rest within this same light
as truth

let go

cry not dear 

the light has not forsaken you

this cannot be right 

for it lives within you

and has never been lost 

one need only come to bare the mind 

to truth

surrender 

so the light that has always been

can melt the suffering away

then what remains simply

is 

cry not dear

the way is clear of obstacles 

if one can see that obstacles 

are self-created 

not produced by the world 

or any other 

see the thoughts come and go

and when they go

where is the obstacle?

where is the world?

where is sorrow?

where is me and you?

the only barrier to truth is mind 

cry not dear

the blessings flow when 

the heart is surrendered into

there is always an opportunity

to let go 

every moment 

pure potential is

a beautiful gift of grace 

Shiva, blessed light

Shiva the blessed light
free within as the self
without covers
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
sitting inside as beauty and peace
everlasting
substantial in fullness and glory
what all is made identical to
minus the drama driven way
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
that cannot come under the spell
of maya
that is without separation
and has no name, face or form
and nothing to prop itself up
or take itself down
as there is nothing other within
only this
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
beautiful as the manifest
in emptiness
and as spirit pure and holy
undying
untouched by sorrow or change
eternally free
thou is within all now

Shiva the blessed light
that does not come or go
that does not fear, pray or lament
being happiness and joy
unencumbered in itself
what is there to do
or to seek?
when all is pure peace
and has never not been
beauty that is
uncovered
when mind stills
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
filled with grace
glorious as the open sky
deep as the oceans
and steady as the mountain
range
filled with majesty
unsoiled by personal experience
at rest eternally
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
untouched by birth and death
distinctly different in nature
than mind
not taking or giving
not adding or subtracting
not following
or staying behind
only here always
within stillness
and light
thou is within all
now

Shiva the blessed light
equal in heart and grace
unto all
true to all
here as pure presence
for all to come into
and be set free
never to sorrow again
or be reborn as shadow
thou is within all
now

rejoice

rejoice friend
the shedding of sorrow comes
from leaving out mind
in this moment
then the truth comes of its own
uncreated
as it is always here

rejoice friend
the transient is not real
it haunts in it's way
but has no power truly
it breathes fire of untruth only
one will not be burned by it
if the heart is pure
and sincere
then all will be made right
like it is
fresh
clear and wholesome
one

rejoice friend
Kali is here always
cutting the bonds
to the world away
with her scythe of compassion
making way for fresh energies
and purifying consciousness with
her lashing tongue of sharp wisdom
that cuts deep
for the one that does not
turn away from this grace
the bonds will be rent asunder
and the heart will burst free
as it is always there waiting
in itself as a bright gem
only now covered over

rejoice friend
if you are wanting of truth
and make efforts
the fruits will ripen surely
this is the way of all things
with the right conditions
the harvest is reaped
and then greatly enjoyed
in its fullness

rejoice friend
thorns of attachment can be removed
by viveka (discrimination)
of the false from the real
this will be born from true desire
and efforts towards freedom only
this will come to the one that gives up
the world inside
this will come

rejoice friend
the clear sighted ones are the example
that light *is*
and is  always well and within
to be uncovered
this will be revealed as itself
when the rains of grace
wash that which is false
away
then grace shines pure
unrestrained and filled with life
this grace eternally *is*
and cannot go away

rejoice friend
the many are only rays of light
that flow from one singular source
undivided always
and full
in beauty and truth
here

Guru, the light of all...

in the dark era of Kali Yuga that is now
the Guru's light is imperative
so much so that one should
heed this wisdom well and hold fast
to this grace
there will be nothing else
that will truly right the wrongs
of societal drama and misdeeds or
make this world a lasting safe home for all
than the wisdom of the non-dual teachings
of which Guru embodies and offers
the ones doing social work
are fine for what they give
and can continue there to make
what changes can be made on the temporal
plane
but on the spiritual level, no
only Guru's light will break down the false
waves of separation and unrest
which is the energy that creates divisive,
self-interested behavior
the Guru is the one that will break this spell
of illusion and bring clarity
and deep stillness
it is this pure consciousness that only
gives what is purely intelligent
without wavering into the land of shadows
and misguided ways ever..
that is to settle the mind and settle the drama
so that peace can reign here on earth..
this is a most glorious gift to humanity--
it is given freely to those sincere hearts
open to listen as a means to bring these ones
to be lights as well
which will serve in greater proportions
this unborn truth to humanity
an awesome blessing indeed

May this wisdom that is here now as Guru
be consumed as the holy bread in every moment
to bring heartiness to the soul
and awaken minds to peace and joy everlasting

om shanti

shanti mind

shanti mind 

the direct perception of truth

that cannot be named or 

put into words 

the seeker looks to the word 

but this is not it..

the word is shakti and within division

one can only come to know the truth

by direct experience and not 

by grasping at words...

fresh water

here is fresh water, friend

i say to you be well 

and imbibe this moment 

like a one without cares 

and a one that is not worried 

about your life and body

for this worry

is what makes the waves 

of mind 

roll out and out

the only trouble is mind 

this is true 

as you will see when stillness

is revealed there is nothing truly here 

but a quiet *be-ing*...

all else was imagination

seated in the lotus position

or working in the world 

the mind can be heart centered

and within grace 

it matters not what the body is doing

the mind is what matters

and can be purified no matter

the action

you just think you are this and that

due to your conditionings

but what makes this any more right 

than a dream of being a king, a prince 

or a wanderer

all mere imagination

and shadows that will fall

when the mind awakens 

to truth

the one that is true..

for the one that is true within
the time will arise when mind is laid bare
to the light
to be taken away
as the dawn rises in the morning
and swallows the shadows
with this there will be a deep peace that is settled
as the water is unruffled when the winds end
free then is this soul
to go about in the world as a saint and master
though this one will not be noticed by the crowds
as being unusual or stand out for the most part
the only difference is the mind is within
stillness and clarity always
and cannot be shaken by any experience that comes
this one is simply freed to *be*
this is all
so stunningly simple
yet so very hard to come into
the true one will not be daunted by this though
and will bear it well and with lightness
to continue forward into the light
until the world is completely forgotten
like a dream dreamt long ago..

current of grace..

resting in the heart

i sank deep as a one that was lost 

to this beautiful light 

i found that i had not been as i thought 

but something that was completely different

not i, me or anything like this 

but whole in perfection always 

this is the end that is the beginning 

i prayed to be made whole 

and to be a light to humanity

yet i knew not what i was asking 

i wanted to be free 

unburdened by past experiences

that followed on my heels 

always haunting 

i did not know where the journey would lead

to heaven or hell 

the right thing always showed up though

as it does when one is sincere 

and this was not understood by mind ever 

but it felt right deep in the heart 

where words do not touch

so the current of grace pushed the soul onward 

into greater depths that began to take away

the shadow pictures that were once held as truth

and it feels as if nothing ever happened

though the body endured many things it seems
the pure soul has not been soiled at all
by any experience no matter how good or bad
beyond words is this grace
that comes this way...

when i sought myself here in the light 

i found myself not as i was 

but completely whole

undying in itself 

what an amazing thing 

that this purity was here all along 

always the self

where have you gone really?

you can never leave here 

in truth

you are always here as the self

no matter the mind play

keep the mind?

keep the mind
if you choose 

but underneath there lies

a beautiful clarity

that is your birthright 

to come into

it is not that God has kept

this beauty

for only a few

it is that only a few

have the courage

to continue forward 

into the sea of knowledge

that will wash the persona

completely away

to make the light shine 

in fullness and glory

and uncover

deep abiding peace 

that will not be shaken 

but dear ones 

you can always

keep the mind

the light of all

the most compassionate

soul of all is Guru

this one is the love that lives in all

as a fire that burns the dross

as a mother to the poor in spirit

that are hungry to find reality

the compassionate soul

the same that you are within

is Guru

this one will still the mind

so that it rises no more

to be troublesome and haunting 

if the soul is sincere

verily, this one will be

the blessing of one's life 

if all else can be left behind

except the heart that opens

in love to what is here 

then grace flows from this 

great presence Guru

that is not of form

or anything that can be seen by the eye

or heard by the ear

or understood by the mind 

this light that shines as Guru

is the one light of all

shiva 

the blessed o ne
coming in body

to free the soul of 

wrong knowledge 

to loose the knot

of identity to body and mind 

to unleash the light within

and call to rest

all sorrow and tears that flow

no more of this friend 

Guru is here... 

the light of all

non-dual always..

those still in the throes of mind 

see the liberated soul

as being so many things 

such as this and that 

or possessing this and that 

qualities 

but this is never right 

it is only the divided mind 

that sees this way

the liberated one is 

not anything that can be 

defined like this 

as pure consciousness

is not the body ever 

or the qualities seen

by the eye

or defined by the mind

pure consciousness 

is all and nothing 

zero

not this or that 

completely still
indescribable
non-dual always

so sad

so sorrowful when actions come from

another place than the heart 

especially if that one has been taken

under the wings of a perfect soul

that sincerely wishes them well and to 

be out of suffering and within peace 

this is what ego is about 

to create shadow and twisted tales 

of poor me when nothing has truly 

taken place at all

and this is what Guru is here to stand for

and show by example

that even with this kind of drama within

there is nothing truly happening at all

there is simply the flow of life and

stillness as usual..

the twisted perspective
and stories so off the mark
are created by the one that is 

grasping and seeking to make themselves right

by doing this 

the one that has helped them is made into a target

this is unconscionable really

yet is exactly what happens when the seeker 

turns a blind eye and nurtures 

dark thoughts and judgements and is unwilling 

to let go and truly *see* if these assumptions 

are valid or not...

but when ego is hell bent on being right 

and in charge no matter what

there is no reaching such a one 

this is sad reality
and we have seen it played out time
and time again...
what to say, but may all learn from
it and strengthen the dedication within
to continue forward
and not be dissuaded by whatever
mind throws up along the way...
stay true to the vows
and be within the heart
and Guru's light
steady...

om shanti

one love

dear one

i have you here now

this is where it is to begin

here

without your haunting

world inside

and without separating
thought

i have you here to say to

your soul

rise forward

be the beauty that you are 

be without your shelter 

be in the heart 

make your life wondrous

and filled with grace

put your efforts into stepping 

forward 

out of the shell that you hide

away in

come out into the sun of life 

be within yourself easily

not always grasping 

or creating covers 

send the mind away 

to play elsewhere 

be within the heart 

dear one

i have you here now

with the soul breathing 

the moment 

with the heart open

to what is being said

with the sound of life 

rising and falling 

and the evening resting still

i have you here to say

i am what you are 

non-dual in nature

dissolved of seeking 

without identity

to a heavy form

equal to your heart 

is this truth

the same music of life

pours through 

not different 

and the beautiful

appearance

reflects 

in this one soul

of all

not separate

dear one

i have you here now

to say to you

be a living light 

not afraid and shying away

from life and challenge

be the sun that you are 

awaken all that is hiding 

in you to come forward 

and be set free

there is nothing in there 

that has power 

but what you give it

dear one

i have you here now

fresh within the moment

like a one listening 

to discover yourself

this is what you are to be 

a true one 

do not turn away from

sincere pointings of 

the heart

imbibe this truth well

drink deep of this fresh

water 

and though you may 

not feel it strong in you

yet

it is working deep

within and will 

get to the roots 

of suffering 

it will work night 

and day to 

destroy the barriers 

that mind lays down

it will knock the dream

away

that is choking out 

pure life 

so the soul can breathe 

fresh air at last

dear one

i have you here now

to say to you

the love of life 

is one 

it is unconditioned

and not harnessed 

to another 

it freely flows

and is inherent in the 

soul

it is compassion 

deep as the ocean

and thick as the 

hearty forests 

open as the sky

this is true love 

not to ever go away

here always

dear one 

i have you here now

in peace and joy

i say to you

life is pure always

not divided in thought

not kept by one

and set apart from another

not free here 

and divided there 

no not ever 

life is pure 

as the lotus 

that blooms 

and unsoiled 

as the white dove

life is
eternally

free

om

grace

the cure
is in the prescription
of Guru's grace
that guides
the seeker to the waters
of truth
this cure
friends
has no birth or death
or anything in between
it is completely healed
already
it is always free
and within purity

you are a single
being always
not divided as you think
you are a mystery
and a bright glow
you have no burden
to carry
or any involvement
in the world
you are not a form
you are absolute truth
in reality

the play goes on

lo friend
the earth does not cling
nor does the glorious tree
that sheds it's leaves in the
time of autumn
the sun knows not your
name and woes of the world
the ocean simply moves
within it's own nature
and the mountain rests
steady, unmoving
against the transient play
the call of the gull
comes from emptiness
and dissolves there again
the seasons are driven
by pure intelligence
the winds blow
the rains fall
the moon shines
the play goes on
whether mind is at
the center or not
the flow of life goes on
without ego
as it always has..

timeless

time heals all wounds
as they say
but illumination is not of time
and is not to be made into something
that evolves
like the growth of an organism
this is completely false
it is just the opposite
truth is exposed when
there is a losing of all that has
been gathered and collected
layer upon layer
these layers are to be shed
and dissolved
one by one
for truth to shine
mind is really very much in
the way of being opposite
of what is to bring
a settled pure peace..
om shanti